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Last Sunday at Marmalade pantry

2008-05-05T21:24:00.002+08:00

2008-04-23T22:00:00.003+08:00

i am teething again... sigh

At underwater world....

2008-04-22T20:47:00.003+08:00

Mimicking monkey faces...

2008-04-18T22:24:00.003+08:00

dylan and the cellphone

2008-04-12T11:26:00.002+08:00

How cool can i get huh?

2008-04-03T19:02:00.003+08:00

Dylan wishes that popo please get well soon. Jia You!

and Dylan wishes uncle good luck for his exams next week! Gan batte!

The mama and things chasing episode...

2008-03-13T10:04:00.002+08:00

Dylan and the bowl antic

2008-03-11T14:27:00.003+08:00

Dylan at bambini

2008-03-11T13:58:00.004+08:00

Dylan called out mama this morning! But , but , but......i was not there. So there is nothing to be too excited about till he realises the meaning...gambatte little chap!

But Little dylan has been soooo active recently that he fell sideways and hit the green slab of the learning house and scored an honourable bruise on his upper left cheek. on top of that, he knocked his head probably like 3 times over 2 days...sigh. i better keep a closer watch on him.

Anyway, brought him to GOGO BAMBINI at dempseys to meet Michelle and Gabriel this morning...plently of ang mos... some nice, some nasty and rough...pwah! Was a good workout protecting him and yet letting him go so he can learn his social and motor skills...Oh yes ,our Gabriel knows how to call me auntie now and not kaka. way to go boy!

studio shoots

2008-03-01T15:23:00.002+08:00

Today @ Adeline's..

2008-02-28T17:11:00.004+08:00

Blast from the past....

2008-02-28T17:00:00.002+08:00

So....what have we been up to?

2008-02-26T17:58:00.005+08:00

......Last weekend.... we had lunch with popo at takashimaya, popo came over to help as mummy had tuition and the maid was on leave...so after that we went out. We met a group of Hongkies and they kept saying I am cute and tall.. Tee hee... then after that in the late evening, Daddy brought us to Labrador park for a walk. Daddy wanted to ergo me, but he gave up half way cause he was afraid to press on my tummee....silly him. But at least he tried!I kept looking at the waves hitting at the rocks and i was totally nonchalant towards Star Virgo that cruised passed me!

On Tuesday today, Daddy took leave to bring us to AMK Technopt Media corp for our audition for the Mother and Baby makeover. We were dressed in White and the whole thing went quickly ....Daddy had to pretend to AHH CHOOOOO sneeze to get me to smile as i was more preoccupied in looking ard , checking the studio out!I hope mummy and i can get in the magazine, that would be fun fun fun!

Then in the afternoon, Mummy brought me and Maid to Gymboree harbourfront for my free play...there was no one there, so i was king again! We had so much fun and Endang just kept snapping away the photos. hehehe.

2008-02-16T20:13:00.003+08:00

We've finally collected Dylan's Passport!!!

2008-02-15T18:02:00.003+08:00

Random Pix of the 10 kg boy......

dylan and his first recital

2008-02-11T21:08:00.000+08:00

Le Menu Pour Dylan

2008-01-27T14:48:00.000+08:00

MONDAY
Breakfast : Brown rice w avocado w pumpkin
Lunch/Dinner: Threadfin w spinach w tomato and dried scallop base w flaxseed
Fruit

TUESDAY

Breakfast : Brown rice w potato w carrots
Lunch/Dinner: Chicken porridge w brocolli w dried scallop base
Fruit

WEDNESDAY

Breakfast :Brown rice w avocado w pumpkin
Lunch/Dinner:Salmon w carrots and wolfberries w flaxseed
Fruit

THURSDAY
Breakfast :Brown rice w spinach
Lunch/Dinner:Potato w carrots w cauliflower porridge w wolfberries
Fruits

FRIDAY

Breakfast : Brown rice w avocado and potato
Lunch/Dinner: Threadfin w spinach w tomato w wolfberries w flaxseed
Fruits

SATURDAY/SUNDAY

ANYTHING LA!!! I vary his meals sometimes w pigeon porridge, brown rice w food jar, lentil porridge and change the ingredients sometimes like adding tofu/ brocolli /sweet corn ( which he loves).Intend to let him try pork , liver soon.Also dessert will be fruits like apple( have to steam cause too hard), Anjou pear, bosc pear, rock melon, biscuit from pigeon, or toothiepegs, cheese cubes.Milk will be give before morning nap and afternoon nap and before he sleeps at night.Sometimes if he is too full, he will reject the milk, so it's fine.Every morning before he sleeps, he also takes 1/4 teaspn of probiotics in his water.Sometimes he takes some bread too.

2008-01-24T17:03:00.000+08:00

Despite him being a rascal, he can be the sweetest at times... we were " frolicking" on the bed and took some pix.Then see what he did after a while, he grabbed my face and gave me a wet smoothering kiss on the cheek!!!!Serious!I was caught totally unaware too.=)

2008-01-22T12:26:00.000+08:00

That's the gangster like look of me when i had my passport photo taken....oh boy! Cant believe mum let me took it w my collar like tt!!!

Cest Moi! After mom shaved me botak.....! Me doing all the stunts before i slept.

2008-01-21T20:09:00.000+08:00

Dylan ----after playing at the playgrd in the evening...

2008-01-21T16:27:00.001+08:00

..................Over the weekend, this mummy was tired out, a tad sick, but today she feels energetic!!!!Maybe cause she spent some money....lol.

Anyway, on sat, i got my time out after putting Dylan to sleep, rushed to 9 west, trying to look for a glam glam ballet pumps, sigh wasted half an hour there, but no size, then rushed to paragon, bought a cutlery set and building blocks for Dylan, a greentea cake for myself, DHA fish oil from vitakids, probiotics for dylan at GNC......and some multivits for myself---turns pee yellow though.Was sooooooooo esctatic when i came out to town till i was almost hyperventilating... you know, i have not shopped for sooooooo long ok! I stomped down town in my heels some more ( a tad wobbly cause long since i wore them) and i think because of me rushing, i came back feeling a tad unwell. Ahaha, nevertheless, i still tolerated the bug and brought Dylan to the playground. It's his daily routine and i dun want him to miss it.

But on Sunday!!!!!!!!!! Dylan threw a fit when i tried to feed him dinner, he refused to sit down, started out with him crying non stop and when i handed him over to papa, he cried even louder, well, i couldnt possibly cook and carry him at same time when his itchy hands kept coming over my pot right? He overturned the porridge and refused to open his mouth. His whole head was covered with pespiration and my top was smeared with his saliva and porridge. Total mess i tell you! In the end i was so frustrated, cause we tried everything, carried him , sang to him , brought him out, show him the mirror, gave him the toys, blah, i just sat there and let him bellow. I forgot how it stopped but after a while the porridge was watery so i could not give it to him, and had to cook brown rice and food jar instead for him. he did finish the latter, i dunno what;s his problem, but it sure made both dad and mom mad!

and then today, i went town again after he slept, zoomed down in a cab, went to tangs and bought a coffee mixer! and guess what? A braun shaver.....hehehe. for dylan. yeah, so i came home, after he woke up, i put him on his bumbo, put news papers underneath, turned on baby einstein , took off his top, and there i went.......lol...it was a mess cause he kept wanting to pick up the hair to eat! , Anyway, the head was shaved , but not a good job, who cares, i can always touch up the next day, and after that i dragged him into the shower, yeah with myself, and cleaned both of us up! Din bother with the tub as it was impromptu, and he very much enjoyed lapping the water from the water heater spout as i washed his head. Silly chap!

2008-01-17T21:34:00.000+08:00

2008-01-17T21:21:00.000+08:00

thunder thighs ahead!!!!

2008-01-13T19:24:00.000+08:00

2008-01-11T16:30:00.000+08:00

Maid kept mum about baby's accident; infant died 6 hours later----By Elena Chong AN

INDONESIAN maid did not tell her employers that their baby boy had knocked his head against the toilet bowl while she was bathing him until almost six hours later, a coroner's court heard.Two-month-old Jordan Teo Ka Jun died of bleeding in the membrane of the skull as a result on Sept 10 last year.On Thursday, the maid, Ms Lasini, 25, named a potential defendant at an inquiry into baby Jordan's death, elected to remain silent.The investigating officer, Staff Sergeant Junior Leow, from Ang Ko Kio Police Division, said the maid had fed the baby that morning at her employers' flat in Hougang Street 52 before bathing him in the master bedroom toilet.Ms Lasini was squatting to bathe him in a tub beside the toilet bowl when she turned left while still holding the baby on her left arm to retrieve a towel on the lid of the toilet bowl.Just then, she heard a knock as Jordan's head hit against the side of the toilet bowl. He started crying.She gave him a pacifier and he stopped crying about three minutes later. She put the baby back into the stroller and dressed him up.Meanwhile, Jordan's grandmother, Madam Yeo Kwee Kee, 59, was in the kitchen toilet when she heard the baby cry. She then went to check on the baby.Ms Lasini kept mum about the head knocking incident as she was afraid of being reprimanded. Madam Yeo left at about 11am. The baby kept crying on and off and refused to drink his milk.At about 1.45pm when he started to cry again, Ms Lasini told his nine-year-old half-brother who had just returned from school that Jordan had refused to drink milk and had been crying non-stop.Later, when the baby continued to cry, Ms Lasini told the boy to call his mother, Madam Jenny Lau Kit Mui, 37. Madam Lau told her to rub some medicated oil on the baby which she did.The maid observed that the baby's cries became softer and his face became pale. He also appeared to be weaker.When Madam Yeo returned at about 3.05pm and noticed the baby's intermittent breathing, she immediately carried him to a clinic nearby where the doctor performed cardio-pulmonary resuscitation on the infant.An ambulance was called and Jordan was taken to Tan Tock Seng Hospital where he died.

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This is precisely why i do not want just the maid to look after Dylan........no matter how good the maid is , she is not the kin nor family, she will always fear being chided....so cant trust her completely...

2008-01-10T20:33:00.000+08:00

One man show again tonight....anyway just a toT. i hope that Dylan grows up to be as good looking as Edison Chan!!!!! *drool*.....lol..

2007-12-30T21:01:00.001+08:00

It is much more fun to teach Dylan now as he is more curious and aware of his surroundings...He knows that we have to press the keys on the lap top and he does that whenever he sits on my lap in front of the lappie. Same goes for the piano .:) Boy, he does have strength to press the keys!He knows how to use the telephone receiver and listens attentively when i press the numbers and call popo up to talk.He makes a funny noise when on the telephone as if talking...But he still does not know how to hold a book nor turn the page cause it always ends up in the mouth.....So much so for bed time stories. haha.

2007-12-30T18:57:00.000+08:00

At Sentosa 1 degree 15 :)

2007-12-29T12:24:00.000+08:00

2007-12-27T19:34:00.000+08:00

2007-12-27T19:27:00.000+08:00

Photos taken at Hilton during lunch w st nicks classmates...

2007-12-25T11:46:00.001+08:00

Terror struck again.Doing some reflection after he threw a tantrum just now. Recently Dylan protests violently by crying at the top of his lungs when trying to make him sleep. Of course mom decides when he should sleep , not baby decides.---that's one rule of thumb when baby is older., unless of course baby is extremely tired.He used to take 4 naps a day, usually the longest one and half hour but recently he is dropping one nap and taking naps as long as 2 to 3 hours.The problem is when he sleeps past his milk time, but i make sure he does not miss his solid food meal time.He still wakes at 5 am plus to 6 am plus, and his wake time can stretch for as long as 2 to 3 hours instead of the past 1 half hour to 2...that means more job to entertain him. The saga that just happened was him crying furiously when he wanted to tap at the lap top instead of sleeping. I make the silly mistake of giving in cause i cldnt take the crying, and his expression immediately changed to a gleeful impish smile and coo when i put him on my lap and he even bounced up and down! Oh man...how stupid of me to give in!!!!After this, i decide i should start disciplining him more.Will start with curbing the whining....he whines nowadays when he wants something but cant get it cause he cant communicate. I will teach him how to sign---Please and teach him the meaning of NO---by squeezing him hand. wil do this over and over again until he learns. And if he continues the disruptive behaviour i will remove him from the place. I guess the corrective behaviour will start with stopping him from putting the wrong things into the mouth....Early parenting always start with restrictive and preventive actions rather that a persuasive speech.Will not let Dylan become a brat ....!

2007-12-21T14:24:00.000+08:00

2007-12-19T13:42:00.001+08:00

Just came back fRom vivocity again....( yeah my new haunt) and just watched ENCHANTED......sooooooo damn funny. :) It's trying to be a parody of a lovey dovey fairy tale, yet it ends up mocking itself by ending in a fairy tale way. Anyway...:) it's humour is really funny.

By the way , this blog will still exist in the sense that it will just be pictures of dylan updated regularly----for his grandmother, but no writings or what so ever. Those of you who left comments will definitely be given the new address soon.:)

OH .....by the way. I GOT MY APOLOGY. *Grin*

2007-12-18T17:20:00.000+08:00

This blog is gonna migrate in a few days time.

Please leave me a comment if you want to know the new address--leave your blog address or email.

HURT AND ANGRY!!!!!!

2007-12-18T01:13:00.000+08:00

I am soooooo angry and hurt tt i cant sleep.It all started out when i gestured to him to change the pacifier....." Why do you have to change the freaking thing in the middle of the night every few hours? "he said.....To me, it's cause Dylan has a sore throat, so we have to practise hygiene to whatever that goes into the mouth.Doesnt he think of that and isnt he concern ?

Next up.....when i was halfway feeding Dylan, i realise that there is stg in the milk. Of course i quickly ask him up to take a spoon to scoop it out while i have to stick some other thing into Dylan's mouth.( Dylan is sleeping and i dun wan him to wake up)...He scooped it out and analysed the thing under the light, and not pass me the bottle back immediately. Then when i ask him to quickly pass me back the bottle, he feels like i am scolding him and retorted," how would i know you wan to feed him still?" i said," Of course! cant you see the milk inside and why would i ask you to scoop it out if i din want to feed him? might as well just stop?" Then you know what he said? " You should see the thing first,Bitch , F*** you." Well is there a need for it? Thanks hubby! I tell you , i am goddamn pissed now for getting cursed at just cause i corrected you.I know you want to sleep, so do i ok?

Now he's the kind who says " just add in hot water to make the milk hotter if you want it hotter for Dylan to drink---" instead of watching the amount inside, and using the correct method of warming the milk up.

Now he's the kind who says" There is no rain--can bring him out for walk."---When i check, it is still drizzling...

Now he is the kind who thinks we dun need to wash the pacifier if it drops onto the floor.

Now he is the kind who feels who dun need to sterilise all the time.

Now he is the kind who lifts his baby and lets the baby knock onto the fan.

HOW TO NOT

CORRECT HIM!!!???????

Of course i have to correct right? I dun care if your man ego is so fragile anot, i still have to correct. At least i dun curse you and call you names.Dylan is just a baby and we have to be extra sensitive when dealing with his life and be careful. It is an understatement ---to be careful. Just like if we prepare fish porridge for baby, we have to be careful of the bones .... I dun trust my hubby at all to do anything, and have to keep reminding him.He knows he is forgetful and dun seem to do anything to improve himself. How can anyone be like that? Especially when you are a DAD? You mean next time your kid forgets something and tell you to live with it, you accept it? OR DO YOU CORRECT HIM?

Now they have the crappy thing saying that wives shouldnt nag too much at husbands , wait husbands get tired of the wives at home and go for other women outside. Wah lau.You tell me how? HOW???????i am so sick and tired of it already.and right now, HURT ,

HURT , HURT!!!!!!

I think i need an apology.

2007-12-17T17:40:00.000+08:00

Different Sleeping styles of Dylan.....The first....he fell asleep while stratching his ears....DUH.

....Mummy recovered the next day after a good night's rest, but soooo busy still.Cause the next day , it became Dylan's turn....He had a strep throat... brought him to c doc, but doc say to wait it out as there was no medication for it. Oh well..Anyway...he is better today.

Brought Dylan out on my own today to Vivocity. Baby Bjorn plus pram. No joke. Good calorie burner.....but managed to do what i want and get my stuff. At first it was good....finally out and looking at all the stores...But i hate the festive crowd...ugh.I prefer it when it is all quiet when the holidays are not here.Towards the end...i did not enjoy it the wee bit. Dylan is teething, so he kept sucking the stroller bar, much to my disgust . And he was quite tired too, even though he just woke up and drank milk at home before going out.by the end of the trip...at the taxi stand, he was already sucking furiously away at his pacifier and rubbing his eyes.....Phwah...

Anyway...i got him a sippy cup which din work ...cause he kept gnawing away at the tip. Hiya....really hope this stage will pass soon.Afterall his front teeth are out mah...

2007-12-14T15:47:00.000+08:00

I am down. bloody hell. so miserable. Oh allow me to wallow phulease....first it was hubs , then i prolly caught the nasty bug from him. Being weaker, bug did me more harm. Hubs only had sore throat. I have sore throat, headache, fever,body ache, and lao sai. I started the ls thing from yesterday after i ate the pig floss bread and curry naan bread from Breadtalk. You be damn right i will stay away from those 2 bread from now onwards.....i am so worried about Dylan. Begged mom to come over to take over for the afternoon, begged dear to remember to eat the cough mixture so he will be fine faster. also i think my maid has the cough. shit....not one soul is 100% in good health. hate myself for being so weak.

just dragged my ass to the doc after tutoring and got a strong dose of medication. Doc also recc me having surgery for the nose. Oh, no rhinoplastic surgery.....it is for the tissues inside. Apparently i have not been using my nose to breathe for years cause the tissues are swollen.sigh. and i always get nasal back drip, so i get phelgmy....plus i am asthmatic... alot of probs hor? If you were me, what will you do? Sigh. so i got the referral letter to the ENT, will see the specialist and see what can we do about the NOSE.sob....i am so sad. no mood to do anything. no strength to carry dylan cause i get dizzy too. Low blood pressure.

I must get well soon no matter what. Now no choice, ask Maid and hubs to look after dylan for the night. MIL no use. she dun even know how to make milk for him. How to help? sigh. Now if my maid is down, i sure to cry.

Oh , btw, little prince just sprouted 2 top teeth. fast huh? among his peers...i know it is fast. he keeps grinding his teeth now and his mouth is perpetually closed..cause he is grinding the gums together. Poor darling.Now...every baby has to go through this.:) So it's just early for you eh. Mummy get well and will sayang you soon.

Ok....i am going back to sulk in bed again. tata.

2007-12-13T14:16:00.000+08:00

Mummy got bored....so took out camera....Dylan

tried to snatch it but couldnt...saw mummy's hand...

OOOOOOooooooo.......Hand is yummy......

Relishing da hand.....smearing it with smelly saliva....

Some more saliva spread......

Saliva * drip drip*

Oh stop it!!!!! Why do you keep snapping ugly pictures of me?

2007-12-13T13:13:00.000+08:00

Somehow the video cant load.....shall wait a while then i will post.

2007-12-10T16:36:00.000+08:00

Before Going out........

Halfway through our meal.....Dylan got hungry....and guess what? Got input and output again. So mummy has to go to the Orchid House side to change his diaper.....Met an Ang Moh baby there and Dylan got so excited....so did the other baby, s/he kept clasping the hands and giggling..I realise Dylan like to reach out to babies to touch them...

2007-12-10T16:22:00.000+08:00

Brought Dylan to my ex colleagues place to visit for a while...seems like quite a number of teachers had resigned or transferred from the school......We all know why...* smile to myself*

2007-12-09T16:22:00.000+08:00

Dylan's favourite position to sleep........Look at the position of the pillow and where he has rolled to!!!!

Anyway, took some photos while we brought Dylan to Botanical Gardens on Saturday...but too lazy to post. Wait first ok...?

2007-12-07T17:44:00.000+08:00

I sat in a cab this morning to Tiong Bahru plaza to see the Eu Yan san doc, and this conversation w the cabbie knocked some more sense into me , plus after i had a talk w hubs the other day, i think i ought to be happier. Uncle was complaining about the increase in fare and the rental that parallelled it. He has 2 kids and wifey is not working, he says that after deducting rental and oil, he prolly could only earn 3 k if lucky. Somemore got inflation of 5 %. Wah Lau.....That set me thinking....boy ....i am quite lucky. Alot of times i take things for granted.I might not be rich but at least i am in a better position than alot of other pple, yet i am broody, grouchy ( yeah lack of sleep....but i prolly should get over it).Just the other day, i asked him to give me 5 good reasons why i should be happy.

He said, i should be thankful that Dylan is a healthy chap, although a handful. That sat me thinking about the other time at NUH when i saw a yellow baby, suffering form Jaundice at 6 mths cause of probs w liver.

He said that i should be thankful that after birth, i still look quite good. i raised an eyebrow when i heard '" quite "... How come not "very good " eh? .....

He said that i should be thankful that i have a choice of whether i want to work, and that i can choose not to work my whole freaking life.

He said i should be glad that i have a hubby that does not entertain at all although he has plenty of chances to.He would rather go home and sleep than club.

I cant remember the 5 th one but i think the 4 are very good already.Hubs promised to be more caring, was complaining that he always ask," how is Dylan."....No , he never ask, "How are you my dear?"..... Mothering has been taken for granted for me, i bet alot of other homemakers too.....sometimes we just need a warm word or two to make our days..

Anyway, shall not digress from the topic, i am actually taking alot of things for granted and some of my perspective are skewed... like he reminded me the maid is to take care of Dylan, she would not be the one who would teach and educate him cause that is my job and i think i should stop harping that she is not good enough.Now I remind myself constantly to relax and let go abit . Of course i am still particular on how she handle Dylan , especially Hygiene. Even though i stay home , i get quite tired and need ME TIME, so a good maid is very important.

Now i just want to enjoy watching Dylan grow and proudly tell him in future that mama gave up her job to look after him.There will be one day when I look at him and realise he is cute in a baby sense anymore and so i better cherish i have got right now.

2007-12-06T17:38:00.001+08:00

Dylan enjoys his time in the rainforest jumperoo that i have rented for him. Apity it does not have any teethers for him to gnaw on. His top two teeth are growing out , that is why he is easily irritated these days.

Today he went to NUH for his last of 6 in 1 jab. We waited for like 2 hours though we had an appointment....what to do. We are in Singapore wat... Dylan was busy kpoing ard again, and this little girl was bawling away while her mother struggle to make milk for her. Dylan watched intently.....and then the moment the mummy passed the bottle to the little girl, Dylan started whining and then cry. He wanted the bottle!!!!!!Good Grief! I quickly took out his bottle and pass it to him and he finished his milk in a jiffy. Hahaha. Greedy baby....When it was time for his jab, he did not cry at all. The nurse joked that it was prolly cause he was bak bak at his thighs... good for you baby...:) Since we are under the Zoom scheme, we need not pay at all and we went home after that. I gave him his paracetamol before he zonked out. He slept from 1.30pm to 4. 30 pm . before he woke up crying cause i shifted him. It was time to drink milk again and after that I gave him a biscuit and pear juice, while he sat gnawing away on the bumbo. We have tried Gerber's and Earth best juice , both of which Dylan hates. He finally settled with heinz pear juice.

My Prince weighs 9 .065kg and is 70cm ...:)

2007-12-04T20:42:00.000+08:00

http://www.newscientist.com/article/dn2457.html

Good grief......

anyway. bad day today. took one hour to make dylan sleep. he was so sleepy yet he could not find a good position to sleep. sigh. cry admist cry. each time i wan to burst out, i remind myself he is having a more difficult time. maybe teething? maybe too heaty? he shat 3 stones today.

2007-12-03T16:34:00.000+08:00

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Dylan and the Pear juice.......

hmmmm.....nice song

2007-12-03T15:18:00.001+08:00

Mflo let go

2007-12-03T06:56:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 6 MONTH OLD BABY BOY........

Am not gonna post more, tired. Night duty no joke when your baby learns how to suck his toes in his sleep, crawl and turn and so curious about every light in the room.

2007-11-30T16:28:00.000+08:00

2007-11-29T15:07:00.000+08:00

Sigh...just received news that hubs gotta go HK for work on sat till wed cause of some stupid conference in Shengzheng and boss wans him in hk office the following week. Gawddammmit....that means i have to do night duty alone...i mean usually i have been the one patting him blah blah, but at least when hubs was ard he helps me make the milk when Dylan wakes up crying. Now i gotta juggle the cry and the milk. No, i dont want the maid in the same room at night w me, SO I WILL JUST DO IT ALONE.

anyway, Dylan is brushing up on his grasping skills already, he is able to hold his teething rusk relatively well to give me a few minutes of peace. Here are some pix....:)hiya....upload error, ....later then...

2007-11-27T20:09:00.000+08:00

Here, po po, here are some pix taken when Dylan went out with you for dim sum last Saturday.:)That was when he started to reach out for pple's faces with his tiny hands ...

2007-11-26T17:58:00.001+08:00

2007-11-26T12:15:00.000+08:00

Before his nap today, i brought out a tactile book for Dylan. He started kicking his legs excitedly and waving his arms... i know immediately i got his attention, and because i read with him so many times, he knows how to hold the book . One bummer is that he tends to bring the book to his mouth after he stares at the picture.Hahaha, cant be helped, guess he is teething , that is why. But i have noticed his attention span really develops since 1 month old. I started reading with him since 1 month , at the very beginning,he will just stare hard at the pic without being able to hold the book , after he is able to sit up with his back on my tum, he can hold the book, i always bring his fingers to touch the different texture in the book. i also make scratchy sound on the uneven surfaces to catch his attention. I realise nowadays he explores things ard him by stratching with his fingernails. Interesting huh? He does that to my face as well, and last night i got 3 fingernail marks on my face under my eye. Ouch, i tell you.

Dylan also started babbling audible consonants like dadadada, aaaaaaaaa....hopefully he will be able to communicate soon by saying da and ma and knowing the meanings :)

Regarding object permanance, he definitely is not as naive as before whereby when he reaches out for a thing like colourful tissue box, i take it away, he will just forget about it. Now, if i take it away, he will stare hard in that direction and protest a little while. Way to go boy!. That means more work for mummy. hahahaha

Brought him to Gymboree class yesterday, teacher and parents commented that he is quite tall, funny....perhaps maybe cause daddy was quite a big baby when young.

2007-11-25T12:42:00.000+08:00

This is Dylan after bee ghor and spinach ......

2007-11-24T12:07:00.000+08:00

Hahaha...dawn yang and xiaxue camwhore by themselves, i camwhore with Dylan.....
arent we both narcissistic?

2007-11-23T14:33:00.000+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER AND CHILD

Stupidly Funny....

2007-11-23T11:23:00.000+08:00

2007-11-22T08:09:00.000+08:00

Friends? They come and go...some stay , some dont, some are friends for a reason, others....it's unconditional, some add joy to your life, some wreck your life, that's why they have aquaintances.I am the kind of girl who prefers to meet up one to one for a heart to heart chat , rather than a gathering..I am the kind of girl who have more male friends than girls.and that's why really good friends are hard to come by, friendships need work, maintenance,and no strings attached... i'll be happy to die with 5 really close friends to my heart.

Laid beside Dylan last night and thought, geese, he's gonna be my new friend, I am gonna tell him everything and open my heart to him. It's going to be unconditional of course.And then i thought about my past, my exes, the old me, my old lifestyle. My heart frowned when i thought of D, i wasted 2 years of my life on a stupid unfaithful guy, One who asks back for the things he gives you when you break up with him. One who feigns injuries to get you back. One who says he will attempt suicide and then wun.One who harrass you non stop till you almost wanted to ask for protection. Should have called the police then and knock him out of his senses, but being the compassionate me, i dint, if NOW, I would have.This is new me.Good bye me.

Rewind......Japan. Ah, that's another story. Ex and Friends there. Mostly male including one star who writes the songs for ayumi hamasaki. How cool is that? Yet... Dun keep in touch anymore...like i said, need work. Everytime i visit tokyo, i will visit them. Now i dont, i cant, i cant possibly bring my family ard to parties meant for swinging singles. haha.

St nicks... Vicky, Aiping, Melissa, so passe.Michelle and Jac whom were once close to my heart, still in touch. Phew!

College.:) Prom Queen. Once appeared in the AJC chio bu list. crushes. tears. Friends. Aplenty. Lotsa fun despite an iron handed mom.An ex whom is still dear to me and keep in touch.

NUS.....quiet. As quiet as it gets. There's Jinhang and Chrystal. Both are dear to me. A pity one is in the country i really wanna be right now.One friend.. whom i lost touch with. Priscilla Mok. Sadly.

NIE.... Hellish time with professors and assignments. So not much memories.Lost touch with practically all of them. Dawn and Annabelle and Annette are what's left.

RGPS....Oh yeah...how could i forget this one? Still in touch. But not close.

Velvet and Zouk.... Fun time for a while. Fun? Hell! It was Exhilarating!Young, pretty, and swinging single. Girls get all the fun. But lost touch with them.....Stanley, Cleaven, Jason, Sally, Mark, Kp, Wooi Keat, Shirley.Burbye...:)

Right now...The people whom I love, Hubs , Dylan , Mom and Bro are my family and friends....Guess it's gonna stay that way for a while now. Finding myself steering towards the direction of women who are mummies too.

2007-11-21T19:11:00.000+08:00

Dylan went swimming in the mini pool we got for him:) He had fun kicking the water, but i think he did not realise he was in the water at all. He was more interested in chewing the star and the duck in the pool. He did a flip in the water and his face went into the water for a sec, so he took in some water and cried. But it only lasted for a few seconds before he was back to himself again.

2007-11-20T16:06:00.000+08:00

2007-11-20T09:02:00.000+08:00

Yay :) baby dylan is back from NUH!!! poor boy has been a resident in ward 48 room 1 in nuh since sat night after we brought him to emergency nuh. They diagnosed his condition as UTI. urinary tract infection as he also had a fever, and lotsa white blood platelets in his pee. ....he was finally admitted at 11.50 pm, after which , docs put an IV in him , took pee samples, put a tube thru his penis and collected so called more sterile pee, and blood test. he was under trauma for ard 40 minutes while mummy paced up and down outside the room , admist his screams and cries, cause of the pain and it also coincides with his bedtime, and finally mummy couldnt take it and went into the room, despite doctors telling her it;s better to go out. docs there are so young, my gawd, one other patient had to suffer like 6 times cause the young doc could not find an entry point for the IV.She had bruises all over after that . so heart pain. anyway.....all that was a fiasco. it was a false alarm. it was not UTI after all, just that his body did suffer a viral infection and that;s why there are white platelets in his pee. Kidney ultrasound also showed that all was fine. Mummy just have to monitor him closely after this episode and should there be any similar symptoms, have to bring dylan back for a more thorough checkup.

din have proper sleep thru the nights cause i had to sleep beside dylan on the teeny weeny bed, i had to lie on my left and could not turn cause if i do so, i will fall onto the floor. haha. luckily i am a skinny mom. the worst was on the 2 night when i put dylan on my chest for 3 hours! cause i din want him to wake up while the nurse came in at 2 am to feed antibiotics through his IV. poor boy already had enought trauma.

2007-11-15T17:17:00.000+08:00

2007-11-15T13:25:00.000+08:00

2007-11-15T10:24:00.000+08:00

i know i have turned into a very angry person.Very angry cause i am not feeling well ( still coughing) and not enough sleep. I do catch up on my sleep when Dylan sleep, but that is not the right type of sleep for a weak person. My motto now is" it's just a passing phase..." but you know what this angry person becomes angrier when things **** up. My sister in law for instance. woke up this morning and she was downstairts interrupting Dylan sleeping. I thought i had asked hubs to tell her not to do that already. ( more than once) ...apparently that din work. So i had to go downstairs and say" Linda, next time if you see Dylan trying to sleep , please dont go downstairs, else Andang will have a difficult time(difficult would have been an understatement...remember the experience i desribed in my previous entry?)making him sleep."and she din bulge! NO RESPONSE. NO NOD, NO YES , NO OK. even a grumpy ok would have been good enough!
so i went to the kitchen to make coffee and discovered there is no milk ( again) ( which makes me even angrier) and watch intently...she shows no signs of moving. so i said loudly" aye dylan you want to sleep anot? you want to sleep, like that how to sleep?" ....that managed to move SIL up to her room. i am so sick of telling my inlaws when is the appropriate time to play with dylan. and you know what they only play with him. they dont look after him, and scoots off at the very first whine or so. even scoots off when he shits cause SIL says it is so smelly. DUH. you mean your shit smells of perfume huh? dylan has turned into a plaything. not a baby that needs looking after. but a toy.

I really am so tired of being angry. i dont want to be angry. Dylan woke up 11 times last night.

2007-11-14T15:31:00.000+08:00

Been too lazy to blog recently. Brought Dylan up to my room to chill literally as there is air con, so he wun go stratchy stratchy..... he was lying down beside me and i was watching greys.A. i turned ard and he was looking at me silently...you know like pondering over something like that, and when i turned ard he smiled. i turned to watch tv again. then after a few secs, i turned to look at him. There he was staring at me again! and he smiled!COOL i thought, and i watched tv again, and when i turned he was still looking at me and smiled. wow....this continued on for couple of times.. so sweet hor.i enjoy the times with him when he is all sweet natured and not howling and whining... DUH. like when i bring him out on evening walks err. carry, he will sit with me on my lap and we will swing. he goes all quiet when he is outside cause he is soo absorbed by the surroundings. But must be careful not to overstimulate him cause he wll turn super cranky when home and give me hell.what i mean by hell is when you are carrying this 9kg ( well almost)fella, he rubs his face violently on your chest and uses his fist to slam on you while whining at the top of his lungs. not a pretty sight. you really gotta hold him firm, shhh him and calm him down.then slowly he will subside and put his head on your chest and sleep. ....peace alas.

i introduced potato into his diet today but caught him at wrong time and it was really messy at meal time. i am gonna give him cereal later in the evening. 2 meals of solid feed.let's cross our fingers.cant wait till he takes porridge at 6 1/2 to7 mths.Anyway his teeth are out.

i just realised this blog has no more privacy for me to rant my inner most thoughts. those thoughts that you want out and no one to know so they cant judge you.dammit.

2007-11-11T18:46:00.000+08:00

2007-11-10T06:43:00.000+08:00

ok ok.... dylan stirred and fussed a bit but din cry out loud, just eh eh ehhh again, so had to carry on sofa cause pat and pacifier dun work. so i fell asleep, and he slept too. woke again at 6 thirty, tot he was hungry cause this time he fussed even more. din wanna drink. anyway now he is downstairs, maid's turn to take over while i catch a few hours of good sleep.gotta add gripe water and massage to his evening routine. main culprit---GAS.

2007-11-10T04:38:00.000+08:00

Thunder just roared. Dylan woke up and eh ehh ehh....i quickly kissed him and said, mamama here mama here. pat a bit, then he went to sleep again...

2007-11-10T03:32:00.000+08:00

I am still here. just fed him at 2 thirty am....

2007-11-10T01:29:00.000+08:00

I lost my freedom... one dear friend asked me for coffee tonight and i could not go cause i had to make Dylan sleep. Anyway nowadays even if i am out, my mind will constantly be thinking of Dylan , wat's he doing, did he drink? did he cry alot? can the maid handle? that explains the atrocious amt of my tele bills when i was in taiwan. Guess that's the px to pay for going out, talking about getting some fresh air huh.

Anyway.... i am still up here. decided to blog cause i am gonna do stg very exciting tonight. I AM GONNA STAY UP AND OBSERVE DYLAN! yeah...it's also becus i cant sleep. my head is so pain and i took panadol extra( comes with caffeine) ...so i just expressed manually and then made myself a cup of coffee. i have been taking coffee lately, after 1 year of not doing so? i think 9 months ( preggie)plus 5 months
( breastfeeding)...well i still am gonna breastfeed partially, but not as dilligent as before, one thing is cause Dylan is reaching the 6 months milestone , so the guilt trip is not as bad as before.You know , i think i could have done better but i did not know how to cope as a first time mother, no prior experience, have not done any reading and no advice on bfing right after Dylan was born.I had colostrum coming out even before the operation and i was one of the lucky few to have milk rightaway after baby was out, but i was not fully aware that i had to pump constantly to keep my supply up. i did not know how much was good enough, i actually did pump, but i stop when i hit like 30ml. silly me, i thought that that would have been enough, silly me, i din think of storing the milk, silly me, i din know i should have emptied the breast. hmmmm. oh ya, and the first few nights at the hospital was SI BE CHAM.at night i had to press the button for the nurse to come in to give me the pump cause i was engorged. ( second day) pump and pump also nothing come out. BLOCKED DUCTS! i felt flushed and hot and pain. the pits too. so i had to use cold cabbages. then the next day, the Lactation consultant came and pressed and it was such a relief after that. i tell you , as she was pressing away , i was crying away---so darn painful....then when i was discharged, i had to cope with baby blues, my c section pain, my MIL, the confinement nanny....i cant remember exactly whether i was pumping dilligently enough, but my supply did increase alot.i think after a while when i regained my mobility to go up and down the stairs, i spent more time on the baby than pumping. silly me...if only. anyway.there will not be another " if only" .....

uh oh....Dylan just moved. i just popped the pacifier back into his mouth and patted him...he slept at 7pm...i was singing to him like 10 minutes and then i saw his eye lids getting heavier, i tot i wanted to try to sing till he sleep on my hands ---supporting his head, and body on my lap, but he got tad frustrated after a while so i put him on my chest and he slept within a minute....so i brought him upstairs, ate my dinner, din even finished it, and he started moving again....arms flailing...so i had to quickly pat him before it turns full blown... anyway it was not good enough, he woke up at 7.thirty. i think because at 5 plus he drank breastmilk( not filling enough) so he was hungry. so he lapped up 180ml at 8 pm....went to sleep.woke up again at 10 thirty!....this time i was not sure cause he drank at 8 you see, but patting, rocking and the pacifier din work, so i gave him milk , he drank up almost 120ml of it. weird huh...he was hungry. then slept. stirred at midnight, and i decided to get up and do this thing i am doing now...since then it has been patting and arms flailing and pacifier popping...anyway, this might be exciting for now....not too sure for later..once my butter cookies and caffeine runs out.plus i have dental appt tommorow. hiak...to finish my root canalling.

2007-11-09T16:26:00.000+08:00

2007-11-09T13:17:00.000+08:00

I am glued to grey's anatomy season 3.....devouring it while it's maid turn to look after dylan.
Dylan is still doing the hourly wake up thing nightly, ---- pop in pacifier, patting, rocking, sshing, change sides, feeding milk.You see how i dun really bitch about the night thing anymore.
REN MING LE.It's just him.and i think i slept in a funny position on weds and have a bad bad headache till now. Really pain on the right bottom. Dammit. as if looking after a baby isnt bad.

Dylan is on carrots and bee ghor now. Organic baby carrots, 3 sticks and a scoop of bee ghor and he finishes it all.:) happy about it. i want him to grow tougher....but that means a harder time carrying him ....sigh.Now his favourite entertainment is finger puppet show courtesy of me and maid( taught maid how to entertain him) else she lazy lazy just lie down beside him.

gawd...i wish the headache will go away. hiak.

2007-11-06T12:31:00.001+08:00

Dylan ate 30 odd mouthfuls of bee ghor today.Very messy indeed. Each time he eat, he goes, " hmmm hmmmm, hmmm"and looks exasperated for more( we suspect he prefers the spoon to the food ) and keeps chewing on the spoon. By the way, his bottom 2 pearlie whites are cutting out..!:)Well done baby BOY

2007-11-05T14:05:00.000+08:00

i feel tiny. i look at facebook and i get so envious and sad at what i am missing out .i look at my nice clothes in my cupboard, i cant flaunt. wear at home, siao ah.i wish i was not preggie and with a kid, but then again i look dylan so much , i must take my words back. no no, dun worry , i aint going thru depression , just lamenting again, if you decide to skip reading, go ahead. oh ya, mom , if you read my blog, can you keep your comments to yourself? i have enough as it is in the day with dylan already, even if you mean well, i would rather not hear. i big ger liao. only when i ask you for help , then you comment hor.

anyway. i miss hk BIG TIME. wah lau. i should have done more when i was staying there, now i miss things like going to races, trekking, junk boat stuff, well, sometimes i wish my hubby is more outgoing so we can do stuff together. but hiya, he loves to NUA. so how.i go alone ah. till date, still have not gone clubbing with him. good gracious.maybe i wait for dylan to grow up to 18 , then i go mambo with him. hahaha. i be 40 plus then. still can make it la huh...

what i am thankful for is that i have the option of not needing to work , i know some mummies preggie liao, with kids at home , still have to work for diaper money, so i must be grateful, but still, it is really boring at home, i need new hobbies, thinking of picking up reading again, gotta find my zest back. one hand turn page, one hand pat dylan. hahaha. aint it perfect hor.i can go out work if i want to, but i dun trust others to look after him. especially when he is grouchy, wait the maid or caregiver abuse him, i sure will blame myself one. so trust no one but me, so SACRIFICE, SACRIFICE.....

i really must do some thingS before i regret it. meanwhile it is waiting for dylan to grow up to 2 / 3 years old and then the activities' choices will be more..:)

old hobbies/ old me: jazz piano, learning languages jap and french,shopping. tot of taking masters.

NOW hobbies/me in transition: hahaha, shopping stays, jazz piano later, languages can take a back step first, now must do reading. watch korean drama( a la mode la housewife)Now, can screw studying... haha, sleep not enough, how to study?!!?No intention to look for new job and start from beginning, except to teach and save up. anyway, money talks.

must do before 40: go Paris, spain, ibiza and club, NZ, states, master my french, jap can be kissed goodbye, dun have patience to learn the honorific terms.... watch dylan grow up and share my hobbies with him. play a duet with him????!!!!???

2007-11-04T14:47:00.000+08:00

jus made dylan have a nap...now sitting down , thinking about how horrible i was yesterday. i just dunno why sometimes i cant control these moods, rage, tiredness. shouted at wl last night when dylan woke up , really pissed off that he couldnt carry or pacify dylan, but i think i am in the wrong too. i should not have shouted. dylan cried even louder after that, and somemore in front of maid. sigh. he cried, i cried. i was just telling wl earlier how stress i was in making dylan sleep cause he will wail everytime before he sleeps, most of the times at least and plus the 1 and 2 hours waking at night, leave me exhausted, my health is not tip top to begin with. the worse is i feel even lousier that i am not working and yet cant even cope with this .i feel jealous each time i go out and see a guy handling a baby so confidently, yet my own husband cant, but i dunno why, he just cant do it? he can burp , feed, but just not pacify him and i am so flexed. worse, i am such an anal person not to let it off easily, i hate myself for being such an ass at these times, i really am not like this before. REALLY!. mom says it's cause i am really not prepared at motherhood....plus dylan is a high need baby, and i had a wrong way of making him sleep thru, plus accidental parenting of patting.....sigh. i wish i knew everything before dylan was born, at least i could have been prepared! good gracious. now i just hope everything will be smoother after making dylan sleep in the renovated room instead of the living room.oh great.. dylan just woke...

2007-11-03T10:05:00.000+08:00

Look at Dylan's new bath tub and potty......

2007-11-01T18:46:00.000+08:00

Aint I a cool looking wittle chap?

Mummy taught me how to do this.....

Before a sneeze.......

2007-11-01T14:31:00.001+08:00

Baby Dylan is 8.4kg and 68 cm nearing 5 months.
Can hold his toes and chews and licks them.
Can respond to his name and smile.

2007-11-01T10:02:00.000+08:00

Busy busy busy sick, my nose is so sensitive and i am the direct opposite of my baby, he gets hot easily, while i cant stand the least bit of wind. sigh.oh well. baby comes first. guess what, mummy's room is under renovation....finally!!! We dun need to sleep in the living room and get our own privacy. no more nosy MIL, SIL.....fwah fwah fwahhh.....

woke up this morning to call playgroups for Dylan. guess what? luckily i did so, cause there is a waiting list......dylan is only 5 months old but i have to book first cause when he reaches 1 year old, there will be no space if i do it right there and then. hahhaha. thank goodness for mummy's kiasuism....i called Julia gabriel.. one of my pri school classmate is working there. but i think they might be a little overrated and more expensive..must pay $37. 45 for admin charge to be on waiting list somemore. wah lau.chop space,must pay money one ah. and then not guaranteed you get a place also...so i decided to go for Weecare. :)

anyway...these are my plan. dylan will go for gymboree till he is a year old to build up his social interaction and motor skills. then he will go toddlers classes at weecare/ julia gabriel whichever i find it better, then nursery when he is 2 years old a few hours daily .

okie. i am getting lazier to blog, later have to bring dylan for immunisation again....

2007-10-27T19:42:00.000+08:00

Today is happy day.
Dylan finished his bowl of cereal.
I managed to latch him on again.
He fell asleep without crying after i brought him out for his evening walk....

hehehe. but he still woke up from sleep crying.

2007-10-26T12:55:00.000+08:00

Some more pictures of Dylan in my favourite pick for him.....

and something from my ex students

....Did not know gers can be such horror.

hiyo.time to be aunt agony again.

2007-10-24T12:12:00.000+08:00

Dylan is curious about his toes and is beginning to learn to hold them to put them into the mouth......dirty dirty. He cant sit more than 5 mins in this chair cause he tends to bend forward to eat his toes.

2007-10-22T08:40:00.000+08:00

Dear Lord

I donno for sure if my breastmilk will boost Dylan's immunity cause anyway it's just one feeding of 150ml a day. That' s how much i can pump plus extra a bit stored away.Well, i am trying, i know you can tell. I am gonna rent the ameda pump to try , maybe it is the pump's fault. Or maybe i should pump every hour , ahaha, that way i will go siao.I think all humans wanna hear that they are doing right, but i believe breastmilk dun and wun stop babies from falling sick. Only by falling sick will they get stronger, one PD told me to see it this way," if they dun fall sick , they will never be able to get the antibodies to boost their immunity" ....but the PD was not a mom before. i read in other forums on how babies as young as 9 months have to use an inhaler and neubuliser.. can you imagine how scary that is? But Lord , i am trying ok? ok , maybe i can increase my frequency of pumping.....

I told hubby i am perpetually tired. i dunno why, maybe it is due to night interrupted sleep, funny sleep times, i know i am suppose to adjust my system to Dylan's but it is difficult. sometimes, i am upstairs resting, i hear baby crying downstairs, how can dun go down to check rite? Up down up down the stairs like that....become a few hours liao. plus tuition , plus pumping, plus evening time with Dylan and cleaning him up...that's a day gone. Well, i think hubby dun think very much of it, and dunno how i feel. Everytime i say i am tired, he say" why not let Maid look after tonight? " " Phui! Fwah.... you think Dylan a toy ah, not happy, tired , can just push to maid, you never think maid look after dylan in day, tired, wait at night anyhow then how? you never think wait Dylan smell her BO, wait like her BO , at night dun have her BO cannot sleep then how?" So angry. he will NEVER understand.

humph. then best during weekend, he watch F1 and soccer at night , then complain tired at night, think got maid , then everything can just throw to maid, i go tuition in the weekend daytime, he upstairs watching soccer and F1.Dylan just throw to maid. maybe i din see him spending time with dylan so i am being biased here. but PLS LA, WAKE UP FROMYOUR DREAM!

Love, an angry mama

2007-10-21T16:15:00.000+08:00

From Karen--mama's colleague in hk

From mama in hk from H and M store

From Meisan. Papa's colleague

From mama

From second aunt.

From tuition kid

Toy given by my Principal from Rosaryhill School in HK

Baby food maker given by my tuition kid.

Mummy went siao just now and decided to take photos of Dylan's belongings...realise his wardrobe is getting bigger compared to hers...tsk tsk. He has been a really lucky chap with all the branded clothes and gifts given by my friend's , daddy's friends , my tuition kids, my principals and his aunt. Lotsa stuff from Ralph Lauren. Mommy dun even have a single one! hiyo.....anyway.took picture of him playing the kick and learn piano. cant wait for him to be able to sit so i can teach him the colour piano...used to teach babies in www.mymusikbox.com in hongkong.heheh hope can apply skills to Dylan.:

Oh , and look at that picture of me and Dylan....i look VERYVERYVERY TIRED, dont i?

2007-10-19T09:02:00.000+08:00

This morning Dylan woke up at 6. 45 am .....Then I decided to take him out for a morning walk :) Pity no other children were around. He love to look at the playground with the colourful kiddyrides which i keep shaking to attract his attention.Then we also saw the pussy cat. I brought him to the pool too, but din let him touch the water of course, too early in the morning, but quickly rushed back before he start to fret when i saw him yawn.
ahaha, now Dylan really have a schedule. If he wakes up in the middle of night, he will sleep till 7 plus am, if not , he tend to wake up at 6 plus am , drink a bit of milk and back to sleep again till 8 plus and get up for shower.:)We never let him be awake for more than 2 hours cause it can make him too hyper and then it be difficult to make him sleep.And his bed time must be around 7 / 8 pm plus after which i tank him up . Well i really hope this schedule sticks around for long, but we can make do without his flying arms ah.

Other things we notice about dylan:

1) He hates the person who is feeding him to talk to others . He will cry and whine if s/he does so

2) He prefers Guys to gers, he will smile at papa, yeye, and uncle, but not at nainai, gugu and me. I must try like a gazillion times before he smiles, or do funny faces. But he loves and knows how to " teh" and " manja" and pretend to cough and wave his hands up to ask me or maid to carry. Terrible terrible.What a discerning boy!

3) He loves to shit when drinking milk. Not bad huh, got input and straightway have output. haha.

4) He is now at a stage whereby he puts every goddamn thing in his mouth , he wants to eat the bumbo chair, eat the toys, eat the hanky , eat my face, eat my fingers.Dangerous.

5) He hates it when someone is watching him trying to sleep.He is not an independent sleeper, he will open his eyes to check before sleeping if the person who had made him sleep is beside him .Not good.

Actually , i should learn to take life a little easier, Dylan is not all that bad, minus the night wakings.

2007-10-18T09:10:00.000+08:00

Bon jour mama a sept heure et demie

Un Finger

Deux Finger

Dylan is changing constantly.....everyweek, he is different. I really miss some of his poses like him clasping the hands together and sticking his tongue out while waiting for milk... miss his cooing...now it is changed to angry cries if he is hungry, and blowing of raspberries. He loves it when i blow raspberries back at him, he will laugh, also he has evolved from sucking of fist to sucking of fingers.I must definitely capture photos of him pouting and sticking his pointer in his mouth. Those are classic. Will hate myself if he changes again and i din get those poses.

2007-10-17T17:06:00.000+08:00

2007-10-17T08:44:00.000+08:00

Hubby was very nice to me last night.. lotsa TLC. that's what i needed. Made it to the doc, she gonna refer me to a specialist regarding my wrist.gave me the medication for breastfeeding, and antibiotics for my toes.now hoping it will be cured, if not, have to do surgery to remove the unail....oh enought about needles;(!!!

Hubby suggested staying in the new Amara hotel opening soon in sentosa, and gonna plan the trip to Japan. :) i am very very very happy inside but still bogged down by the daily drone of life. Staying at home to hear Dylan cries and not able to pacify him make me a very inconfident mother. i am good with kids, just horrible with babies. Cause i cant, and i really dunno what he wants sometimes. well....just hope time rides it out.

2007-10-16T19:16:00.000+08:00

Real or not real...still very touching...

My mom only had one eye. I hated her... she was such an embarrassment. She cooked for students & teachers to support the family. There was this one day during elementary school where my mom came to say hello to me. I was so embarrassed.How could she do this to me?I ignored her, threw her a hateful look and ran out.

The next day at school one of my classmatessaid, 'EEEE, your mom only has one eye!' I wanted to bury myself.I also wanted my mom to just disappear. I confronted her that day and said, ' If you're only goanna make me a laughing stock, why don't you just die?' My mom did not respond... I didn't even stop to think for a second about what I had said, because ! I was full of anger. I was oblivious to her feelings. I wanted out of that house, and have nothing to do with her.

So I studied real hard, got a chance to go abroad to study. Then, I got married. I bought a house of my own. I had kids of my own. I was happy with my life, my kids and the comforts, Then one day, my mother came to visit me. She hadn't seen me in years and she didn't even meet her grandchildren. When she stood by the door, my children laughed at her, and I yelled at her for coming over uninvited. I screamed at her, 'How dare you come to my house and scare my children!'GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!'And to this, my mother quietly answered, 'Oh, I'm so sorry. I may have gotten the wrong address,' and she disappeared out of sight.

One day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house. So I lied to my wife that I was going on a business trip. After the reunion, I went to the old shack just out of curiosity. My neighbors said that she died. I did not she d a single tear. They handed me a letter that she had wanted me to have.

'My dearest son,I think of you all the time. I'm sorry that I came to your house andscared your children. I was so glad when I heard you were coming for the reunion. But I may not be able to even get out of bed to see you. I'm sorry that I was a constant embarrassment to you when you were growing up. You see........when you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost your eye. As a mother, I couldn't stand watching youhaving to grow up with one eye. So I gave you mine. I was so proud of my son who was seeing a whole new world for me, in my place, with that eye. With all my love to you,Your mother.

2007-10-16T19:00:00.000+08:00

Sigh. ever since i stopped the medication the PD gave, i have sooo little breastmilk no matter how i pump. It is not helping Dylan is crying more. Dunno why. Maybe cus i am SAHM, stay home too often that's why it is so overwhelming. Does not help that he still does not sleep thru the night, does not help that i dun have the right pillow, does not help that i sleep in the living room , does not help that i have a silly toothache( with lotsa injections and painkillers), and does not help that my toe is infected, does not help that my shoulders ache.Oh....i am such a whiner.

Actually just last week, it was easy to make Dylan sleep, THEN HE DECIDED TO CHANGE THE METHOD AGAIN. today he fell asleep in the baby bjorn. He loves looking ard now and hates to be put down on the mattress, lying down makes him shout alot. hmmmm. little inquisitive fella.

now waiting for hubby to be back so i can go see doctor .Raining.....Oh , i hate rainy days.

2007-10-14T11:42:00.000+08:00

Oh my******* Gawd, i have a toothache. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO painful that i wake up from my sleep, took panadol still painful . wah lau... somemore still have to look after dylan, that's being a mother i guess, lucky maid helping out tonight, the pain is preoccupied in my head till i have ear ache, cant do much. argh . been gurgling with mouth wash and waiting till tomorrow seeing Gillian hubby fren, hopefully she be gentle on my pooor mouth. Just now went to see stupid dentist , so proud, no TLC, just knock teeth , straightaway say must do root canal, say he dun want to do immediately, say imflammed so cant do , i suspect he lying cause alot of patients outside and i walk in patient, so i he treats me, it will screw up his day......oh my oh my. somemore he say must take antibiotics, i ask can take anot breastfeeding, then he say stop breastfeeding. WAH LAU. make me panic for a while, i suspect he dunno, so i called Gillian, then she say can take alternative medicine. lucky i did so. now just have to tahan.... oh my oh my........

also recently i have. been dropping alot of hair after pregnancy. oh my oh my...at this rate i will join the botak club like Dylan.....

2007-10-12T10:10:00.001+08:00

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SAW THIS ON DRYERS BLOG.. SO DARN FUNNY!
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2007-10-12T08:55:00.000+08:00

The method to make Dylan sleep always changes......that's cause he is not able to sleep by himself as yet; not like other babies, or we always fail to see when he's sleepy until he yawn.He gets really hyper when he is tired, and when we pick him up to calm him down , he gets more hyper.Dim the room , light music, you name it, we've got it... still FAIL!We are suppose to put him to bed when he is drowsy not fast asleep .....hiak and yesterday luckily i managed to make him sleep in the night, else it'll hurt my ego again.He woke at 2 am with arms flying again,din sleep till 4 am but at least now i dont have to sleep with my arms on him already. ...and he does not stratch his ears anymore cause botak , not so hot.Mama will go holland village for tuina today. i earned it.

2007-10-11T16:34:00.001+08:00

Another entry on happy thoughts.... Dylan slept for more than an hour in the afternoon again. from 2plus till now... going for tuition soon. Gave instructions to maid to feed him at 6 thirty later.. you know, i was looking at him just now. obviously he was in a REM mode. so funny , he was laughing and smiling and then frowning and making all the weird expressions then. OOOOO. i love you boy.

Brought him to Fantastic Sam @ forum for hair cut. saw an angmo with twins in a stroller ALL BY HERSELF....wah lau. if it is me , i sure die one. how to handle? somemore so young. i am waiting for the day when dylan can sit up by himself n i bring him out ALL BY MYSELF.. now. no confidence as yet. :(

Here is a video of dylan during the haircut. he was pissed i was taking a video of him....

2007-10-10T16:55:00.000+08:00

my best friends!

Dear was complaining about the bag i bought yest when i got into the car. he grumbled i might as well get him a new wallet.....cause his wallet is spoilt. wah biang. see his face when he saw the new wallet in the box waiting for him in the room . Din know his lao po already had tot of that. hahaha. being a little too generous ah...

now i am gonna write about positive things as much as i can... realise i have been whining too much. Brought Dylan back to NUH for checkup as directed by Emergency on Sunday night. PD said he was fine din say others much..well. Dylan was tired when we got back slept from 12. thirty to 3 then drank up all 160ml of my Breastmilk. Great!!!!. AND I managed a 50 ml during an afternoon pump...hoping for more.:) soon i hope...now up here. joined the motherhood forum , found it much better and more responsive than Bbaysupplies.:)

Let's see tonight how ok?

2007-10-09T15:07:00.000+08:00

See what damage have i done....but it is ok cause the LV is limited edition which means resaleable at higher price. hahaha. One customer ordered it but din collect it and only 20 pieces in SG.

and pressies for .....SHHHHH....

2007-10-09T09:51:00.000+08:00

Oooh man, i feel like screaming, crying, sleeping, eating and shopping. I am in such a flux that i dunno what to do, highly irascible and very very grouchy. I was awake at 1 am ... Dylan cried intermittenly till 2 am till time for feed then after that still found it uncomfortable to sleep. up all da way till 5/ 6am and he has to sleep on my chest cause he cries in his sleep and startles.Oh dammit. is he teething cause i cant feel any goddamn teeth , hiya i do know teeth dun just pop out like that, it is a process, but I NEED AN ANSWER!!!! why he cries! HE CAN BE SLEEPING THEN WAKE UP CRYING. AND WANTING TO PUT HAND IN MOUTH. like this means teething right? went through all the checklist for teething. and HE MEETS ALL. so means teething right? SOB SOB.

and then i feel so frustrated at night that i am the only person who can really pacify him . i mean of course besides my maid. but MAID IS AN OUTSIDER! i wish my hubby sometimes could take over at night, i feel so exhausted. really, even though i dun need to work, but still. and he does not understand the importance of dylan sleeping with us at night and why i firmly refuse to let dylan sleep w maid unless i am at my wits end. I know hubby tries, he tries, i can see, , and how to blame him? poor thing. then still have to work tomorrow.He already tried!!! BUT it just wun make dylan stop crying and i end up snapping at him and make me feels so horrid. sigh. i dun want to snap but i just cannot help it i think he thinks i am a horrible person, sigh. when you are so exhausted, groggy and yeah coughing....

AND MY MOTHER IN LAW. another one. i mean ya she offers to help take care of dylan at night then you know what this meansZ? this means maid take care cause she also dunno how to make maid sleep. wah lau. do you know she literally passes Dylan over to maid immediately when he fusses and say " tadau tadau....cannot cannot make sleep" TRY LA! learn la! YOU want to carry then learn la! not that i dun let you carry also, unless you carry at wrong times.

OH do i sound like i am whining? TOO BAD. i cant help it. i dun let off some steam , i will go nuts i tell you . ok, but good thing is that dylan recovered from viral fever that he caught on sunday. i actually tot i would have good sleep after end of that but ....hiak apparently not.

Am going to paragon to vitakids. trying homeopathy for teething... trying. trying....let;s just not give up ok? tahan tahan..

2007-10-06T21:17:00.000+08:00

First drop of saliva.....head lifting

More saliva....head lifted!!!!

Out comes the tongue!!!!!

Tonight mama is gonna try break the habit of Little Dylan waking up nightly at 3am. She gonna feed him at 2 am so he does not cry at 3am anymore. no choice, he cant sleep thru as yet cause he does not feed enough in the day. .the reason why he wakes at 6 thirty daily is cus he goes to bed early at 8 thirty or 9pm...the managed to sleep to 7 plus this morning cause he went to bed at 10 plus last night.( well this is what i realised---hope i am correct...wish me luck tonight Lord.