U see people....see what i told you about the power of PATENTS?????
Biosensors International said it has been granted the US patent for its A9 drug.... and then the price rose from 0.92 plus to 1.09......seeee!!!!!See the power of Patents!!!!?

Anyway finally got rid of the stupid share after 5 long months of wait. Ugh.

I have never liked pain that much in my whole life......

Last night, i had a few braxton hicks contractions, one of which lasted for quite a while..... and then i had 2 stabbing pain on my right tummy downwards...i felt soooooooo happy and excited, i thought," Ok.....get worse get worse!" But somehow i knew it would not....It wun come just like that for me. Mr Zhai is gearing me up for the Real McCoy..... lol...Anyway it has been getting incredibly difficult to sleep at night, Heavy little fellow inside, each time you turn , it is like lifting a rock from your left to the top of you tummy " rest for a while" then heave it to the right. hahahha. then you gotta adjust and make sure he gets the support if not he will start squirming....let alone those neck and shoulder ache w no dear to massage for me.And those false alarms to the toilet to pee. Mr zhai loves squeezing my bladder for fun ya know...Anyway... The highlight is the docs appt tommorow !!!! I hope i am effaced and dilated.....I can actually feel intense pressure downwards from my hips , down the pelvic.... hmmmmmm

Anyway....I bought stuff from Victoria's secrets to cheer myself up ... Teddies, babydolls, and 2 tube dress. No, no....not for post labour XXX action but just some stuff to make me happy. They will probably arrive on or after the arrival date of Mr Zhai..:)

ooooo. i have such a sweet tooth nowadays...been eating lots of the white chocolate oreo wafer sticks, hagaan daaz ice cream, strawberries( It's in season again!!!) and donuts.....hiya.better stop.not really good.


Something funny about Mr Zhai....he and i always take afternoon naps nowadays, but this happened twice already. In the midst of our sleep, if anyone calls on my cellphone, and i answer it, he will wake up and get the hiccups, and there,you can see my tummy vibrating .....Poor fellow. Does sudden movements cause hiccups too?


Finally bought Prevage for the eyes!!! I was reading the ingredients and usage again when i saw the PATENT word.....somehow. when something is patented , it gives it more credibility rite? But then again, 99% of the beauty products are patented...hmmmm

Dear Darling son or tenant at will:


You have 18 days in which you can either gather your belongings and vacate the premises, or wait until you will be forcibly removed from the property.
You are being evicted on two points. First, due to a breech of contract and destruction of property.

Expansion only to the front of the property, within reasonable limits, were discussed. Not only have these limits been exceeded, but additions to the back of the property were also made. Remodeling and gutting the property was never approved, nor was changing the initial layout and base structure. And due to property damage, there are now leaks in both upper and lower levels of the property.

Lastly, late night parties have been discovered on the property and are not greatly appreciated. I can't wait to see you, regardless of aforementioned greivances.



Your Loving Mother, Elaine
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Dear Loving Mother/Landlady,



I'm sorry for any disturbance I have caused. When I originally signed the contract, I was unaware of the enormous task of growing. I will try to control the late night partying but please know I expect you to join the party come mid-June, per the Feeding Clause in the contract .

While destruction of property and leaking seem to be the major cause of complaint, I fear they will only get worse in the days to come. I understand that this was not the original intent of my residence, but at this time we may need to revisit the terms of my lease. I fear that eviction at this time is not advisable as I am comfortable in here. Although lately things are getting tight. I am a Gan----We need our space.

In the Unconditional Love Clause in the contract, I must remind you that you are indeed stuck with me as a resident of your home for the period of several years subsequent to this. Thank you for your time and your body as housing!
I can't wait to be held by you and Daddy,

Your loving son/ and willful tenant, err...tenant at will,
Gan Kai Jie

Have you ever felt that you are willing to give up everything you have in your life --everything i mean, even your life...for someone? ----I asked dear this question in the car on our way back...

I dunno , all of a sudden then , i just felt an overwhelming feeling for my baby... It is a totally different feeling when you fall in love , and you thought that you will give up everything for him. But this time the feeling is slightly different.. I dunno how to describe it.. Is that maternal instinct? This feeling also evolves when you are married as compared to when you are only a boyfriend/ girlfriend status... Somehow, there is this strong will in you to keep everything together---A happy family.


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Has a sumptuous din din tonight w dear and frens. been a while since i had such nice company and food. I mean , usually i am stuck @ home in the room ..... We had the best of white steamed
promfet, spinach, chicken, sweet & sour pork , claypot toufu... yummm.....and later we went over to Big O for dessert. Another yum yum for the chocolate cheesecake--Cailin was rite. Really SWEET & GOOD.....Just what preggie mama is looking for......:D so That is what makes today a Happy Saturday....

Hiyo.....it really is hard to tell what one will become when one is older, cant imagine....One of my ex classmate is actually a singer now..She is even working with people from Lord of the Rings & Superman returns... Not bad huh?

Ong Yunyu....wonder if you heard of her, her songs are quite quirky and easy on the ears:) I do like the melody:) It is so unlike her in the past though....( Still pleasantly surprised!!! :O

Birds eye View of my school

Tokens of love from students on Teachers' Day

The Band i used to conduct--See the bassoon? I used to play that ;)

As much as i detest the principal with the frumpy grumpy look ......These memories cannot be eradicated...

I CANT FIND MY ANKLES ANYWHERE ON MY FEET!!!!!!

Could not sleep till 2 plus am last night, felt like i needed to puke. Din feel like heart burn when the acid will rise up my throat...and felt so miserable.. i tot i had food poisoning..:(. started to feel sorry for myself and that how i am all alone and wada not w me....sigh. BUT i managed to snap out of it, and get a grip. Told zhai zhai while caressing my stomach we both must get through it.. sms dear and he called back immediately. Hearing his voice is really comforting, though it din help the sick feeling...sigh. i slept up right and zhai zhai kept wriggling ard as if to show his discomfort too. Poor bebe, i must have woke up up , cus he was one warm lump slumped on my left before i sat up right , then it was when i started moving that he started squirming... I had to caress him and sooth him and he literally stopped moving:) Good bebe, he understands his mama. I love you so much already.

I killed my first Freaking cockroach !!!! At age 26!!!!! Good gracious, all my life there are always people around coming to my rescue...not tonight. And so preggie mama has to fight it out with the stupid cockroach with menacing wings and disgusting feelers..... can you imagine it spreading it wings , flying across your face, intruding your naked skin with its dirty , hairy legs......before flying off again.......oh my god....I told myself i will not be able to sleep in peace if that happens lor... and so....i ran downstairs , grab the baygone and aimed at the devil. Then when it was nearly knocked out by the potent stuff, i grabbed a heavy duty magazine and attacked it. .....Job done! Oh boy....i almost tot i had a contraction there.

I dun care if you think it is no big deal, to me, i think i just crossed another mile stone. Muaaaaaaahahhaha..:)

Nothing much to report today...Mr zhai rose up late with mama at 10 plus am...tried a cat nap in the afternoon but unsuccessful..and guess what when i am bored.. i shower. Shower is a good way to pass time i realise. Makes u fresh again. Lol...

Called up one of my old friends and good to hear her voice. Gonna catch up w her next week( i be 37 weeks!!!!) Apparently she delivered @ 36 weeks...oh man... why am i so slow huh..?I think Mr zhai is too contented inside me...

Let me see......we are almost done with the preparation for the arrival of Mr Zhai...:D

The bumwear diapers ( Above) just needs to be washed a few times for them to be optimally absorbent and that is it:) My hospital bag is also packed and baby's essentials are all bought:)

What we do not have is

1) A bouncer

2) A digital thermometer

3) A swaddle/grobag

4) A towel wrap --this one i will get during the next doctor's visit.

5) Pram---probably getting one only in hongkong , dont wanna lug everything back there.

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I was looking around and found this fisher-price bouncer.( Rainforest edition is the one in the picture...but if unavailable any bright and colourful ones w music and good from birth to a much older age is appreciated :P)..So ahem , frens and family , if you wanna get any gifts, pls dont buy any baby's clothes cus he will out grow them quickly:) Dont wanna see your gifts go to waste rite?

Check out this bouncer by Fisher Price Rainforest Bouncer-- easily found in Novena's United square 's www.mumsandbabes.com.sg or any Mothers care shop.Tee Hee...Besides they are having their singapore sale early.

Or you can get Mr Zhai a digital thermometer---Specifically Braun brand.--dun wanna squeeze anytg up his rectum you see. lol...Baby Einstein music, or rattles are also very much appreciated:P.

Oh ya, worse come to worse, you can get poor confined mama a very much wanted book called_--Secrets of a baby whisperer by Tracy Hoggs or Raising Boys--By Steve Biddulp.

*sob sob* i couldnt sleep last night. i had to force myself to watch TV till i became sleepy enough to ignore the mambo dancing inmy stomach...watchign tv has never been such a chore. i watched desperate housewives, to the local flick--after hours to beauty and the geeks...then even after it ended at 1 am..i still could not sleep..cause the party just got started inside..cried a little...and tried to soothe and calm baby down. then finally concussed---TOTALLY EXHAUSTED.My boy is certainly a late riser...it is 11 now.and he is still sleepin!!!!

God pls forgive me today for being impatient with mom when teaching her how to use the digital camera.....I did not mean to , but really was exasperated when she din even know the basic functions after teaching. Not that i am trying to redeem myself but i realise it makes me realise that she has indeed grown older. Age is catching up.... and she is definitely not in sync with technology. Even after getting the handphone for her for Mother's Day, she cant cope with all the silly jargon like blue tooth, nokia's dictionary, wall paper....She was so fascinated with the blue tooth function when i used it to send her some of my pix, and in spite of endless warnings not to turn it on herself, she did so. She even denied like a little kid in turning it on, or so called claimed she din even know that she turned it on ( dunno which one is more convincing) when i saw the blue tooth icon on the hand phone today, and chided her. Then i explained to her that turning bluetooth on is pointless unless u wanna obtain or send info from another phone or a pc...simple terms....Then it was like an epiphany for her.HAHAHA...;D....sigh. She is getting old... I am so sad.

ooooooooooo....Ladies and Gentlemen...I am proud to announce that Mr Zhai's head is about 2/5 engaged in my pelvis....:) Doctor did a cervical examination today and told me he could even touch the baby's head. lol...poor fellow squirm inside.. But there is no effacement or dialatation yet...hmmm . His words were: walk more, squat more but dont travel too far away from home by yourself....lol...Which means!!!!!!-----It is near time!!!!!!!Yipeeeeeee!!!!



But today...i suffered from a very bad lower left back ache....i guess due to my sleeping position...argh. poor me poor me...so painful when i walk and i have to counterpress the pain away. argh!!!


Oh yeah and baby is looking up. He is not in occipital -anterior position cus his head is looking up...oh child of mine.. are you looking at mummy's guts? :P

One more thing...i am so elated that dear dear is coming home for the weekend. i Miss him soooooooo much!!!!!;D and he finally chose a name. * clap * * pat pat* well done husband!

I realise that my bebe gets hiccups wihenever i change my position drastically like when i am sitting down , to lying down...another interesting thing is that if i sit upright, slightly slanted leaning to the back , he tends to stretch in the tummy and squirm around.Then you can see an arm or limb moving across the stomach.:) HEHEHE....



SIGH. I AM 36 WEEKS BY MIDNIGHT TONIGHT...:) CANT WAIT...STILL HAVE 4 MORE IF WANNA CARRY TO 40 WEEKS, I WAS THINKING, HOPEFULLY BY 38 WEEKS. HAHHAAH, AS LONG AS BEBE REACHES 3 KG:p GANBATTE NE ZHAI ZHAI...700 MORE GRAMS!

Tried to put a video of Paris crying after leaving the lawyer....dun call me morbid, but it is just refreshing to see her doing that after countless numbers of "uncalled for" acts that she did.If the link doesnt work, just go to www.thesuperficial.com...

It wasnt such a happy Saturday afterall.....

Anyway....seriously i dunno what is the association between tai-tais and mahjong. Do you mean all tai-tais have to play mj? Or you mean they have nothing else to do but play mj? That is where you are so bloody wrong.... these ladies have so much more meaningful activities to do rather than gamble...

And if i am ever gonna be a tai-tai , which i wun anyway, ( how does a SAHM gets to there anyway....lol) I definitely wun be doing the mj thing. I cant stand women who gamble. You might come to the defense of mj saying that it prevents alzhiemer's disease....but ya right, why dont you do a whole book SUDOKU instead .Doesnt that need brain cells too? I cant stand women who gamble---recreational or not. Dont give me the bull. In fact i cant stand people who gamble----why are you so stupid as to indulge in such no guaranteed stuff and throw your money away. Break families up cause of that, gamble away your rent, your milk money for the child....and the reason you give.---I am buying a chance , i am buying a chance( TO LOSE TOO--MIND YOU)

N the very reason why i am so pissed is because some people asked him to go to MACAU yesterday....mind you these people are the lawyers/ bankers.. who just wanted to have some fun.And.....i cant speak on their behalf...but i do hope they are the kind that if they lose, they will think twice about gambling... BUT NOT MY DEAR! HE IS NOT THE KIND TO DO SO . AND HE HAS A FAMILY NOW!!!So my point is that if they wanna fucking go Macau , just go and leave him alone. Dont create any opportunities for him to go to fucking Macau. IDIOTS....and you know what? It makes it seem like I am the bad guy for being so reluctant to let him go , but of course you people wun know HOW ADDICTIVE IT CAN BE. I am only being rational enough to stop him. Ggggggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrr. and the worse part was the girlfriends were going there to gamble too.* fainted* like i said i cant stand gers who gamble. Really. UNLESS YOU ARE FILTHY RICH LIKE PARIS HILTON, SO YOU CAN INDULGE IN A BIT OF DIRT. IF NOT....THERE ARE CERTAINLY MORE MEANINGFUL STUFF TO DO.!

Been trying to find this for a while---- Taken from movie" Yesterday once more"

OBSESSED...........

Anyway talked to dear for 1 hour and 13 minutes this morning , had bean curd and kueh and later Lana cake with milk.....What a happy Saturday...;D

RIDICULOUS , ABSURD AND INHUMANE....

Had a growth scan yesterday....my heart pain ah...Baby 's growth was in the 3rd percentile... hiya...:( He should be heavier. Did i eat not enough? Anything i can do? Actually 3rd percentile is perfectly ok , i am just kiasu i guess. Cant help wat , i am a mom......!!!!!

N his head circumference is 305 mm, his stomy is 292mm. Heheh.. I am boring you with all these details huh... and His weight is 2.32kg @ 35 weeks...hmmm....baby is in OP position... * comments stolen from the document written by e poerson who scanned me* ..OP position means the baby is head down.... exact comments were" Head in OP postition , deep in maternal pelvis" hmmmmm hope Mr Zhai turns to Occipito-anterior position and faces me...Then birth will be so much easier...

I really have cantonese withdrawal now...hiyah... :(

SOOOOOOO IRRITATING..... NO WIN NO LOSE.
What moral victory? ....My foot.

Stay-at-home mom’s work worth $138,095 (USD)
Annual amount she’d earn as a housekeeper, cook and psychologist.
Check this out man.....

One more thing......great just great.....

I typed TYAN on search on Friendster and the results are 90 % female....
@#$%^&*()......


How lao gong?Can you get your ass moving in searching for a name for zhai zhai?

MAMA GONNA EXERCISE.....I WOKE UP WITH A SORE LOWER LEFT BACK AND SNUG LITTLE BOY SLEEPING INSIDE ME.....MIND YOU , HE IS SUPPOSED TO WEIGH 2.5 KG NOW...

OLD MEMORIES.....

I think i found myself lifesavers....

1) For Movies

2) For Hawker food ....when i am confined @ home with just the maid.


and i just found out about www.shopbop.com and www.anthropologie.com from Female mag.

Thank God.....

The moment seems to freeze
I look down at him
Suddenly i felt overwhelmed
Lonely, sad, wistful
Wishing dear was here
Something searing
Not in my throat
He moves across
Cant be seen
Can be imagined
Couple of peals being released
Wipe them away
A wry smile
Much better.
Much better.........

A NEW CHAPTER



Oh no!!!!!. What have i gotten myself into?:P

hehhe...i dunno.. i dont really know how to describe how i feel for giving up work for at least a year. yes...a year and no more. zhai zhai must be tough, mama only gives him one year, will teach him to understand...:( dun want those seperation anxieties...good gracious.It is much better earning your own money than getting money from your hubby, call me crazy, but it is a pity i give up work if i am so young rite?

AND....it is not just looking after zhai zhai.
it is
1) looking after a vulnerable being in a foreign country
2) no financial independence
3) cant shop without guilt
4) have to learn to cook more nutritious food for yourself so can breastfeed.thank god, zhai zhai can live on milk till 6 or 7 months.
5) no interaction w colleagues...though i already enlisted myself in the singapore mama expat circle. haha.


My topics of conversation will be like: err where can i buy pandan leaves, or like now, where to buy gnor hee or ma yau fish in hk, how come hk does not have ikan billis stock?.....Not that i am hating my life, but it just dawned upon me....i have opened a new chapter in my life....
No more zouk, no more velvet,cause dear dun even go there anyway,
No more suitors cause i hardly go out( i must stress----not that i want & dun get me wrong ok--but it just reiterates tt you are out of the league :P--gives you a pang of envy when you see those sweet young thing and think back---oh , i used to be better than her. HEHE lol)


Anyway, this is another milestone after my current one---which is to deliver zhai zhai safe and sound.:)and i really am glad i married the right man. My dear---though he does steps on my toes sometimes, he is one that i can really rely on.One that never fails to comfort me if i am really down, unconditionally.One that i wanna grow with....

Thank God for all these and how you make me strong and how you teach me to learn.

Some Jokes.......

Q: What is the similarity between men and rats?>
A: Both keep searching for new holes.



Q: What is the closest thing similar to a woman's period?>

A: Your salary, it comes once a month lasts about 5- days and if it doesn't>come, it means you are in big trouble.



Q: What's the difference between biology and sociology?>

A: When the baby looks like his dad or mom, then it is biology. When the>baby looks like the neighbor, then it is sociology.




Q: Doctor: You look so weak & exhausted. Are you having 3 meals a day as I>have advised?>

A: Lady: Doctor, I thought you said 3 males a day.>>




Q: Girl friend & boy friend go for a movie. In the dark, a mosquito enters>the girl's skirt. Guess where it would have bitten?>

A: The boy friend's hand.>>


Q: Tarzan and the animals went to the river to take a bath. Tarzan removed>his clothes.All the animals laughed. Tarzan asked "Why"?>

A: The animals told him. Your tail is in front".>>



I like the mosquito one best... ahaha . Raging hormones of teenagers. lol.

Anyway....weather is really terrible in Singapore, does not help that my room is not air conditioned....always have hot flushes @ night.:( And you know how i always have to sleep on my left, zhai zhai always. slumps onto the left too when i am lying on my left. I feel so bad for waking him up everytime i fidget...Mind you , he does wriggle and squirm in my stomy when i turn to lying on my back or right...

Next week!---35 weeks!

Today---This afternoon when i was sleeping, i felt as if my guts was being pushed out of my mouth...--twice.. i looked down @ my stomy..@ him and realised he is scrunched up and doing his backside pose again ( yeah i label all his positions) that means he is shoving mama's organs up. I quickly stroked his butt ( could be his head for all i know ) and then the little heap in my stomy went down again. hehe. what fun you having huh...

Blogger is kinda screwed up this evening....just hope that after typing this , i can post it up...:) Anyway. i survived Sat! i mean....i still have weeks to go.. but i guess i am getting accustomed to life here.---Life of idling...Yeah most of you will say , why not take up a hobby ? But i cant! cause all my energy is focused on D DAY!!! it is just so hard. i used to be so different. Worse still , i left my language books @ my in- laws...maybe on mon i will go and get it.




My favourite past time is updatin my lists....my hospital bag to brings, my birth plan, ques to ask doc, tgs to get for zhai zhai,tgs to do after birth, things to buy before returnin to hk , tgs for zhai zhai, tgs for me after birth, financial reviews....I AM A LIST ADDICT!!!!I will write them out all nicely, update them , think they look ugly fugly, then rewrite them over again. CRAZY.

Today is quite a good day considering that i finally get to see the sun..:D. Rainy days always get me down. ....:(



Have almost settled with zhai zhai's clothes...:) we have gotten cute little booties, mittens, body suits , wrap arounds , in blue, light yellow and white....these are the 3 primary colors found for baby boy's clothings....( how boring hor?) but anyway.:) i just love staring at those booties and putting them on my tummy to imagine.( aint i crazy) :P
Have also made my own notes on labour and contractions...---Dos and donts.. i think i will be the most sane person if anything occurs. my bro will be a blur8/** and my mom a kan cheong spider...Even taught them how to call for a cab and stress that i am in labour and to go by which route...:) haha.

Anyway...to summarise:)--there are 2 different types of contractions.( you may skip this if you aint preggie)




Fake: 1) Contractions are not regular
2) It is important to time your contractions to check if they are regular.
3) The pain goes away if you change your position, walk , lie down.....

Real thing:

1) Contractions are fast and furious---in the back , in your uterus, blah blah.
2) Regular---and at least every 5 minutes.
3) You have a show.---your mucous plug is out..
4) Blood... check if there is meconium..--if it is --fetal is in distress( cord ard the neck)
5) Water bag burst...and make sure you note down what time.( water dun burst literally---but can just trickle down) hahha my antenatal class teacher said the fluid smells like semen...( who the hell smells semen--and i dun think you wanna lick your own amniotic fluid?)
6) U feel like having a diarrhoea.
7) Nauseous....



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So there...... recently there's this lady who delivered in the cab...apparently this is not the only one...there is also this....anyway. let's all pray everything will be fine alright? Sometimes i just dun feel safe cause my hubby aint here with me, and my mom and bro are blur *** :(

sleep sleeep sleeeeeeeeeeeeeep it off. hiyah. i have been sleeping like nobody's business and i dun like it! i sleep cause i cannot move ard much. i am not suppose to go out without a chaperone, and i cannot walk too much. well. cause my feet and ankles were swelling the past days when wada was here cause we went ard, but on wed when i stayed put at home the swelling din occur at all. sigh.----culprit was too much walking.hiyoh. how not to walk? i am so active one you know. and whole day ask me stay at home face my mom, i can go crazy.



cant wait. cant wait. i am like staring at the calendar too. cancelling off the dates meticulously, spreading out my chores so at least i have stg to do each day, otherwise sooooooooooo goddamn boring.:( sob sob. cant stand my mom--she is so money minded. everytime i need her to buy stg, she will be like money this and money that. give her 1 k still not enough hor. need how much? 10 k? think i need to give birth to some money too....



my highlight of my day is i am going to kk to see the gynae and bombard him w questions and hopefully get to see zhai zhai inside. poor bebe. today when the bamboo dropped onto the floor with a loud thud, i felt a jerk in my tummy...poor zhai. i am not overreacting. babies now can hear rather acutely ya know. the other times when my students accidentally knocked their chairs over, this little fellow also jerked...hmmm. so this mama started singing to him and stroking her belly. hope it helps..


oh man. RAIN ,...PLS STOP YA? si vou plair?

hiyah so irritating. woke up this morning to see CSM drop to 1.40 .... back to square one. should have sold earlier...what ya mean by it can go to 1.6?? hiyoh...patience rite?

anyway.......zhai zhai seems a bit smaller this morning. he is already 34 weeks:) according to baby centre. his lungs are well developed already.so he stands a good chance of survival if he were to be borned now...also came across stg regarding how to avoid episiotomy......ugh. and you are suppose to massage your vagina!!!not out side. but .....okie. shall not fill the details in . if you wanna read more click here... and mind you with vit e.......cant you do it with ky jelly or stg ??? hahahaha...i know vit e is good for skin. but to THERE!!!?????

OKIE.....THIS IS SO RIDICULOUS...michelle yeoh!!!!!?????and . i look like ann kwok and zoe tay....WHEN I AM NOT PREGNANT!!!!!!????

anyway...brings me back to the past..i remember this senior in st nicks who likes me( yes a ger!) bought me louise nurding cd cus she said i looked like her....now. that is more like it mah... then there is the other one call trish goff cause we both have small mouths. hahah. but i almost died when someone said celine dion .

Okie...it is 7.30 am in the morning and i cant sleep. I hate to say this but i think the chinese medcine given by the silly doctor zhang works....i have only taken the first packet....let's see the results at the end of today....anyway... it is normal for preggies to recover from cold and flu a longer time later....

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back to being preggie.. i was thinking...i am really grateful zhai zhai din make me. 1) nauseous or puke out anytg at all during the first trimester.2) he din give me varicose veins...or rather my body accommodated him very well. 3) no ghastly amt of weight put on. 4) no nose bleedings 5) no stretch marks ( and i do pray that this continue....really) It has been a rather easy pregnancy....only that i am tired during the 1st tri and now... and i do suffer from swollen feet now... i suspect it is in adequate flow of blood cos everytime i elevate it, it becomes better..but nonetheless, i will try see the gynae earlier...for fear it is pre eclampsia or diabetes...

hiaks...and you know what? i am leaking!...so horrible. my precious colostrum... it has been 2 nites liao.. but luckily i read that the body continues to make the colostrum for the baby...and i also found out something veyr interesting.. you know why the baby often spits out after eating? that is due to the size of the baby's stomach.. he cant stomach excess milk.. the figure shows how big the stomy is in fact.!

How to wear this dress from bebe... in sg without being stared at???? i really love the prints, but i think given the conservative mindset of people here. they will stare and stare lor.... and i will end up with a cardi on top the whole time.. what's the point....

damn i hate poor ventilation. i really yearn for a room with good circulation of air, not just air con or a fan. i hate it!!!! and it is causing my flu to be worse. ugh.:(

Progression is sooo slow...i am still expulling emerald coloured stuff. :( Went with dear to Eu yang San and almost died when i walked in. it was so goddamn crowded....wah lau... they had like 2 docs from China, 2 sg docs, and the queue for the docs for China was horrendous...had to wait for like 4 hours? really!!!!. and then worse still , after that, you still have to wait for medicine.....ugh. of course i took the sg doc. i just wanted to see how TCM will work for my flu... but the doc sounded like a cock. i mean. i told her i was not coughing. just congested and maybe she was not listening or stg, she asked me again if i was coughing. then i remembered telling her my throat was not itchy...then she asked me again!!!! * fainted*...no wonder her patients were so little....and what irks me is that she din tell me what to avoid eating ... and din talk much. i was the one doing all the probing...:( . so if you ever go to south bridge road to see a doctor @ Eu Yang San. dun see doc Zhang.!!!!

anyway......tonight the last night when dear gets to be in sg before he has to head back and then come back again only when i deliver. sob sob....:( better go wake him up from the afternoon nap now....tee hee.....

I AM VERY ANGRY LOR....CMON . DUN PEOPLE HAVE THE LEAST SENSE TO BE POLITICALLY SENSITIVE WHEN IT COMES TO CHOOSING BABY'S NAMES. CMON YOU ARE NOT THE FUGGING MOTHER WHO CARRIES THE BABY FROM A MERE 1.27 CM TO A 8 POUNDER. WHAT YOU MEAN BY YOU DUN LIKE THE NAME TYAN? I AM NOT GIVING YOU A CHOICE LOR. HE IS MY BABY ! AND I WILL CALL HIM WHATEVER GODDAMN SHIT I WANT.

eeeeks...woke up this morning feeling my nasal totally congested. throughout the day i din feel 100 % alrite :( but luckily the birds nest made me not so heaty..sigh. there goes my prata and certain hawker food....what todo...am a mama now , have to watch my health for zhai zhai...

anyway...went shopping with dear dear today at United Sq and bought the bed for zhai zhai finally . :) see? i am an efficient mama, did my research online and execute my plan fast and neat.:P .

We bought an armsreach for zhai zhai.. it comes with the mobile on top, we also got him the canopy and also a nite light ( which has 3 different colours and a womb sound) to go along. :) We plan to check in that back to hk when i fly back..:0 )

Also bought a baby sling made of silk to carry zhai zhai..:) I dun think i am interested in a pram as yet given that the roads in hk are so uneven, and the pollution is bad....i mean at that level..you smell all the exhaust and farts..besides i made an interesting discovery today...many couples buy the pram only to use it as a trolley for them to put their stuff cause i see them carrying the baby and they pushing an empty pram....so what for!!!???

anyway.... au revoir till tommorow..need to rest * cough spit spew *

FIRST OF ALL>...i wanna thank my dear dear for setting the internet up for wama...:D and clearing the space...:) and getting a fan , blah blah. :) and even exchanging points for me to sit in the business class so i would be more comfortable:) love u ..and big smooch.


ANYWAY.....i am back!!!!!! and waiting for D DAY.....:) so exciting. yet torturing....hmmmm . and then i will be a SAHM ( stay @ home mom) for one year.....hmmm:( not really exciting.. but rewarding i guess. I need to work... really.Never mind.. i will figure something out...

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Friday 27th april was the last day of school..... Danielle, Anna, Cynthia, Alvina, Alfred and even man him kept crying.. hmmmm. * shrug* kinda used to it* . but was quite sad in a funny way. Well , i am not really bonded to the kids in this class, but they are rather nice towards the end...super enthusiastic to answer my question...and by the way . good luck...cause i realise the new teacher's english is not good...cant be helped...she din know the difference between IMPRESSIVE and IMPRESSION....
I asked the kids to write a journal entry for april and told her to give some helping words.....she wrote IMPRESSIVE on the board and explained that they have to write some IMPRESSIVE about the new teacher and recall memories with me--and describe...i was totally bollocks inside but controlled the urge to correct her infront of them . anyway...



the school was very nice to ask me to leave and rest early.. ACTUALLY i was sick!!!!! I SERIOUSLY WAS. hmmmm.but i went to school anyway.. it is the last day ya know..:/ went to talk to Miss Poon before i left... she is also looking forward to her retirement day...and she asking me to call her when i return to hk. she wanna go yum cha. Tried asking her abt her family---she has a daughter and son. but both are not living with her. --no grand child..a nd husband busy.well...no wonder..but she wants to leave the vice principal post cause it is very demanding.....geese...i hope the new vp is as understanding as her ..

i am sick :( on the last day in hong kong..sob sob . and you know why? cause i asked for it. i bought 2 bars of chocolate from Godiva...the rasberry filling one and the nougat one...and i finished them both in 1 1/2 days:( sob. sob ...so i deserve this....sigh . but not zhai zhai....

feel so guilty taking a panadol....gonna take this anti inflammatory tablet later...derived from silk worms.....eeek. called serratiopeptidase...and sleep it through....sigh i need to be healthy...and fit for tommorow. still have lotsa work to finish up ya know:( sob sob sob...and then go to the air port....!!!!!!!!!!!! by 5 pm .

These ribbon flowers were done by my kids ( some girls) in class.. does not look very appealing here, but kinda sweet.:) I have received 3 photo frames so far...:) Typical gifts for a teacher. hehehe....

My sweet colleagues bought a milk bottle steriliser and a set of baby clothes from here ...:D. I have a fetish for baby booties and mittens. just so tiny! so cute!!!!

PREGGIE CLOSE UP .....WONDER IF I WILL GET ANY MORE BLUBBER ON MY FACE...NOTICE THAT I AM SO OBSESSED WITH THE FAT ON FACE THAN MY BOD. HAHA...

PREGGIE @ 33 WEEKS....

SOOOOOOOOOO EXPENSIVE!!!!! That is absolutely crazy man!!!No nannies for me. Just plain old elaine mama looking after zhai zhai..

I pray that zhai zhai be a good baby...no incessant crying. I will understand if he cries.. that is this only way of communicating. I pray that he be healthy. He will not have sleeping troubles.He be a smart baby not necessary a prodigy. He be a happy baby :D. HAPPY BABY = HAPPY PARENTS.

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I dun care already lor.... i want TYAN GAN for zhai zhai...Bloody hell. gives me such a headache....stupid bloody singaporeans who cant pronounce ethan. and to hell with those who make fun of ETHAN. i hate all of u .dun u ever learn your bloody phonics? bloody hell.

Ethan......Eton.... Tyron...Ryan.....Clarence...( the latter 2 were suggested by my sister- in -laws) hmmmm...

i wanted Ethan initially ...but you know. Singaporean will probably call him EATEN EATEN EATEN.....:(
BIG FROWN.... how!!!!!???

Okie... pls give me other suggestions? I wan something simple . 2 syllabus , complements the surname Gan and a name not too strong or domineering , yet special. :P Is it too much to ask for???

KATE SPADE BABY'S UNDIES....

A MUST READ.... :D

Dear zhai zhai.....

Just one more month before i can feel you and smell you , touch your hands and feet. Kiss you and put you near to me.... I really cant wait...No one understands how anxious i feel unless you have been a mummy before...I am anxious cause i really wanna hold you and hear you. Most importantly, mummy really wanna see if you being healthy and happy.

Love, Mummy

Anyway...here is a couple of pictures to show the before and after pregnancy...look at the face..so bloated now!!!!

Alright...another Sunday night...not not just any other ordinary one....today is gonna be my last Sunday in HK before i return to SG and back only after zhai zhai's delivery....feel a bit quaint , restless as usual and bored...i dunno i am bored easily. I asked dear to put me in a washing machine...well of course kidding... :) I dunno....just had that thought...anyway. i was surfing the web again , looking at the other pregnancy blogs .... wondering when is it my turn....not so far ahead i guess.


Anyway....my 7 1/2 months old tummy really is a topic for all conversation at all shops i go to nowadays...seems like the sales girls are all experts at looking at the tummy and telling that it is a baby boy and how many months i am...good conversation starter for sales:P


I ended up buying this white silk empire dress with gold satin trimmings and to ribbon at the waist. :) wearable though i am pregnant...gonna be my PERK ME UP tommorow morning:)


sigh......anyway dear dear is so in love with the PS3 that he saw @ the sony place ....such a boy in him :) well ....if you are reading dear.. i DO give you the approval to buy it...but remember ..GET THE BEST DEAL HOR.. dun let em rip u off ur money....:)

Good morning......wondering y am i already up at 9am tho i can sleep in.... kiam chai mia....have the luxury to sleep also cant....Anyway i am swollen w guilt, i tried to sleep in a reclined position last night, but realised that i end up on in a supine position on my back mostof the times which is NOT GOOD FOR BABY!!!!... oh no....:( No wonder he wriggled high up to my rib cage...By the way.. i am already 58 kg!!! Absolutely love it! love it! The more the merrier. hahaha.

cant go back to sleep...:( Have been walking around the house since 9am. packing up my stuff... getting ready to go back to sg this fri. Not looking forward to it cause dear dear will be away from me for a month. That means no one to grouse to, no one to tease, no one to give me hugs and to hug, no one to disturb. hmmmm...But at least no more snores .....:) hehehe...



by the way, check out this website.....think the guy is from RJC....just look at the writings...so prosaic..so intelligible. compared to mine. Luckily dear is not this kind else I would have died a long time ago with such , well i would not say pomposity or verbosity cause he din use many bombastic or dun make any sense words, but it is just that....* shrug* good gracious me. It is still quite cheem...

Fatty mama ( sigh ) ---i think my face is so swollen...

Rosaryhill staff
( Not all of us are here---loud mouthed, and high ranked ones are left out :P)

... Had a fabulous time @ a Shanghainese restaurant at Kimberly road @ TST w my colleagues. Today is the first time dear met them and to my pleasure, he is quite at ease with them :) ...

I cant believe after spending at least a few thousand on Jap courses, my french is better than jap...and all i can remember about jap is some unforgettable vocabulary... like dakishimete..konomama... wasurenai...blah blah.. oh and i like this word kamoshirenai.... haha..wat a loser am i :/ better i brush up on me languages during my confinement...:)



oh yeah...and talking about cantonese...i cant believe my canto is improving superbly...i actually held a decent conversation w a cab driver on my way back from school. we talked about zhai zhai, his kids, rosaryhill school, salaries. haha...hmmm...hope i dun forget my canto after i leave the school as i wun get the chance to use it often already...



The market recovered.... and i should slam my head against the wall for actually reading that Dow went up and yet still selling my A reit. dammit man . there goes a couple of hundred bucks. not a lot but arrrrrrrrrrrghhhh, i am more pissed off at the mistake i make by selling so soon. Oh yeah , and i finally got rid of AAC my volatile boy fren after 4 months @ 10 percent returns...and if i do tell dear about this again, he will naturally say.....see what i told u. hiya. he...THE GURU. hor....



okie. gonna meet my colleagues in tst later for a dinner bfore i leave. :)now time for afternoon nap for sleepy mama...:P * Snore*

So irritated at school today...... you see. my staff room has like 6 cordless phones with 2 lines bought by our principal . And i can hardly hear anything from the other party when on the line.!!!! Can u imagine how lao pok the phones are!!!! I stomped out of the noisy staffroom ( which i will bitch about in a while) and tried to keep my cool while on the phone w dear, swearing to dump all the phones into the bin ( mind you , i will if pushed further....)

Also...this open concept staffroom which has absolutely no privacy is made worse with some colleagues who just are so loud mouth.....they talk so loudly like no body's business. Gives me a terrible headache everytime and she is soooooo bloody long winded....I had to plug in my i pod today to keep my sanity and can u imagine poor zhai zhai who must be wondering who the fug is the bitch who keeps rattling on non stop....

And then!!!! every recess and lunch time , this staff room is packed with students being punished by teachers and teachers disciplining the students. dammit man..i have no space no time to get peace and quietness at all!!!! i am a angry pregnant woman who wants silence!!!!!

Oh ya, forgot to add in ...3 pri 3 boys were caught surfing porn on the net today in my school....tsk tsk....

EVIL......SO EVIL........ you see, such people should not be left alone...Now you have the consequences. hiaks...




Big headache this morning....prolly from scrolling too many online shopping..

www.nordstrom.com
www.rampage.com
www.victoriasecrets.com
www.dilliards.com
www.rubyrox.com
www.edressme.com
www.urbanoutfitters.com
www.neimanmarcus.com


you see, you see...... that is why preggie mommy so tired. but i din get anything!!!:D

See folks i told u tt Genting will chiong.. highest @ 1.12 today....but anyway. hehe it is flat back @ 1.05..no unless u have time to monitor, tad risky. ...sigh....8 more working days.... cant bear to think about it, yet @ the same time quite happy, i dunno.....prolly the happiness will last for a short while then more anxiety before Zhai zhai is dued...I cant wait to eat my roti prata again....but the thought of dear dear not with me for at least a month makes me cringe.:( hmmm :( He has better get the webcam going......hiaks.

I have no idea why am i being so nostalgic....rummaging through the songs which have touched my life. Anyway music will never leave my life, listening to certain songs bring back vivid memories of parts of my life. Just like this Debbie Gibson" We could be together" ....I was only in Primary 6 then, had trained hard for a dance to be put up for Teachers' Day ----only to be hospitalised for asthma and fever on the actual day...Not that I worked too hard but I was very vulnerable and weak... well...still am :(