........My kid brought a knife to school today..... And when asked why, he said because he wanted to use it for lunch , to eat steak................Enough said...

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Bought 7 lots of CSC today... cross my fingers cause i want to sell of the freaking other shares like kingboard and KS energy. ugh. anyway. i am so stupid for cityspring. i did not factor in the brokerage fee for selling. ugh and MMP reit. soooooooo stupid. how can i be so stupid. ugh. it is very little money but i am so angry at myself for being so stupid cause i can actually hold the stock lor, i paid up liao. ugh.

anyway. Cosco shot up today. ugh. so disgusting. always buy wrong stock.dun have the touch of Midas. haha.

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zhai zhai is doing his rounds in my tummy again. love u love u love u.

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On the way home on the bus, i learnt stg. .....not to travel w so many people . too many cooks spoil the broth, especially when i am one who likes to tell people where to go on a holiday.. hmmm. travel as in vacation la. Met this grp of sporeans on the bus, they asked me for directions. then i told them , they could take a tram , or a bus, of course i seconded the tram as you are on a holiday, u shld indulge a bit hor.... but one ger kept asking if the bus will lead them there directly, i said. well...it states THE PEAK..... but i am not tt sure:) hehe.( actually i am lying---i knows it does go to the peak) but why the bus.. anyway. i left the 7 of them deciding between the 2 choices and i went up to pacific place 3 back home.

only to stare at the real life quotes......

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Stg tt only eccentric japs can think of.....

la vie...... vie... can be quite challenging most times....
why God cant just make everyone the same? Does he think our lives will be much more interesting with more characters around? sigh.

called mom last nite to tell her i am on the way to airport, could sense stg happened at hm. ---she quarrelled w my bro.

and this morning i called her again . to find out wat happened. Apparently she was just sick and tired of my brother's demeanour and his mentality and so started nagging and nagging. then she called him stupid. and it drove him mad....so he grabbed her arm. well. cant comment much. i have been in my brother's predicament before... so i dun blame him . yet i know my mom means well , but she does not know how to drive the point across.....and she always like to cause unhappiness with what she say just because she is not happy w her children. ....there was one point in time in my life tt i wanted to even commit matricide....so you can imagine how bad is that... that is why i refuse to continue to stay w her after 21.

She caused me so much hurt and pain. i bet she is feeling that too. but i dun understand why wld a mother wan her children to feel miserable if she is miserable herself...i certainly wun do tt to my child. i thank god for letting me witness all these so tt i dun repeat such mistakes myself.... :(
sigh. there was this book i read once----the world is made up of positive and negative people. and one's job is just to fill up your life w positive people.....and stay away from the negative. my mom belongs to the latter. after i read the book , i saved my own life . i still think i am very strong to go thru such shit during JC times and uni.... i still remember tt i lugged my piles of clothes to school to put in the counsellor room so she wun throw them away. she was like tt. she know she cant hurt me by words at times, so she wants to hurt me by hurting my possessions... i wish she had another outlet....and then in Uni... she was always making remarks at me. like how come i kept studying so hard. sacarstic remarks like" study so hard, should be study last minute. how to pass" and i shut her up by telling her. well i am not studying to pass---but for an A .

:( ANGST.

Anyway. maybe tt is why my dad left. it takes 2 hands to clap in a marriage. true enough the greater fault lies w him but i guess maybe my mom had a part in her own crime too.

and then .... even till now. she keeps hearing news abt like my dad bought houses in malaysia and tt Joanne is younger than her.. blah blah. well i tell her. shut up . dun tell me anytg cause i dun feel happy listening to it. tt is my policy . if i dun wanna hear and i know it will affect me. dun be stupid to listen. just tell the person. and so.... she was miserable after hearing it and she was angry tt i dun wanna listen to her. well. it is my coping mechanism. if i still take in the news, ( which i already know) what for.....not as if i can do anytg. All i wanna do is just make sure Dad pays for my bro 's school fees. well ...it is his responsibility. and it is my bro;s responsibility to find out abt the form..... sigh. burdens. burdens...my parents never really helped much in my life seriously. maybe only when i was young. and i can count the incidents... if i can count . then it can be quite sad rite?

so is it possible to be a cold blooded person? i dunno... what i mean is to be this stoic person devoided of any feelings towards your close ones... i guess this is gonna be my path tt i will train myself to take. i will not be upset. just like today . after putting down the phone and retaliating by saying-- you this kind of mother, die already, also i wun cry. ... i will not be so weak when handling her anymore. no. no. i give up. Poor eugene. too bad you are stuck w her cause you are not as strong as me to stand up to her and tell her to stop.just fugging stop.

i am so bloody BIG!!!!!!! today....i weigh a hefty 55 kg and i feel like my ribcage is being crushed. but it feels nicer hugging the tummy now and i love zhai zhai....endure endure. and 3 months ---- mar april may .....sigh.

cant believe i typed my resignation letter and i lost it!!!! sigh. Being careless is part of being pregnant but cant believe tt i am tt careless huh....

tonnes of work and i just cant do it. :( cause i am so lazy also . :( tommorow is Sports day. have to go to aberdeen stadium. ugh. What is a preggie woman doing there man...

:( i feel so bloated. my stomach is bloated right up to the boobs.it is even bigger than a basketball. and zhai zhai seems to kick everywhere now. sometimes he kicks high up where the rib cage is near....and sometime he tickles me, i suspect sometimes he somersaults inside....... really ....is it fun to be inside fluid doing such stuff???? :X
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BUT AT LEAST i know he is growing. and i am a happy mama. ate broccoli and beef for dinner tonight. viet pho noodles. cheap and good . and now staying up to wait for the bird's nest to cook while gorging on chunky kit kat. have a craving for sweet stuff nowadays......
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sian ....have work tommorow and that means i have to wake up at 6 thirty again....drag myself to toilet , wash my face and boil the water... eat my vits, drag myself to change and then drag my ass out to catch a cab to happy valley to wait for the school bus. Then i will see Doreen the first school kid. Not a good thing. i dun like her.She is a naughty girl and does not pay attention. and sometimes bullies Ryan. So i dun even smile when i see her. ugh. yeah i know ....i am a teacher. but i practise favourtism yeah as far as i try my best not to.......:P cant be help . i am human.
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Alright.......i made it through parents day on sat. was the first teacher who finished talking to all the parents....( 30 ) in total... one mom broke down in front of me cause her son did badly in chinese...( well, i dun teach it) ...and cause i said something touching to her son, knocked some sense out of him. let's see if it will last. boy will be boys.... late to mature and playful.and after i finished the talk, i sneaked out of the school , not even returning to the staff room, so i dun meet anyone. supposed to stay till 3pm....whaddafug... tt's crazy and makes no sense ya. i have finished my job. and off i will go. ......


i weigh 54 kg today.

Bump botherers
Pregnant? Now everyone owns your tummy - and knows exactly what's in it
I remember being in a Woolies queue when eight-months pregnant with my first son, Joe.
"Oooh, you are pregnant!" The woman in front of me beamed encouragingly. Genius. For a brief second, I thought she was going to slap a gold star on my forehead.
"Hah... yes," I mumbled distractedly, scanning the sweetie aisles caging us together, looking for a possible exit. But no, escape was impossible. Clearly Beamy Woman took my inability to vault waist-high shelves of confectionery as a sign of submission, so she took the opportunity to give my bump a good bothering.

"Ah," she said with a nod of unassailable authority, after having patted my bump from every conceivable angle. "You are carrying high. It's clearly a girl." She nodded sagely to everyone else in the queue. Many others nodded sagely back.

"Actually, it's a boy," I blurted out, defensively straightening my preggie shirt. "I have had a scan. Two scans, actually, and a 15-minute video. I have penis footage. It's definitely a boy."
My bump botherer went from beamy to thin-lipped. She glared at me as if I had said something nasty about her lineage.

"Ha!" she retorted, angrily. "Modern technology – who trusts it? No, it's definitely a girl. Mark my words." And with that rather ominous rejoinder, she gave my bump one last smug pat and wheeled herself off to the next vacant cashier... just before I brained her with my quarter-watermelon.

What is it about being pregnant that morphs your body into common property? It's hard enough actually being a human incubator without everyone treating you like one. It's enough to turn the meekest mommy-to-be into a watermelon-wielder.

Get a bun in your oven and the rest of the world pulls on baker's mitts. You'll be petted on buses, patted in queues, clucked at in lifts and patronised by sales staff. I had total strangers swing rings on chains over my belly and mad great aunts rhythmically rub my tummy as if it were a treasured talisman. And all this before my gynae even got a look in.

One of the things I find bizarre is how many people assume a heavily tummied person is pregnant. I mean, surely this often ends in tears? (When six months pregnant with my second son, Ben, I experimented with this idea. Every time a stranger asked me when I was due I said, "Actually, I just had a very heavy lunch." And then held eye contact and watched 'em squirm. Ha. Hey, it's hard for a pregnant chick to get her kicks.)
So what is the best way to handle bump botherers? I have a
bsolutely no advice. And with this admission... comes another. I bumped into my heavily pregnant friend, Mary, the other day. What is the first thing that I did? "Do you think it's a boy or a girl?" I squealed, beamingly. "Do you know yet? You have a baby in your tummy! Can I touch it? Can I? Can I?"

Mary looked at me, lips pursed. "Listen to yourself," she scolded.
I recoiled in embarrassment. "Well... I just love pregnant tummies," I mumbled. "They draw one's hand, like a magnet. You just have to touch pregnant tummies."
And therein lies the issue. Perhaps the reality of carrying a baby is so huge that you aren't supposed to be able to keep it to yourself. The joyfulness, the excitement... we are preprogrammed to experience these as a community. At least, that's what I've decided to tell Mary when next I reach out hopefully.......

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Just an article which i can identify with...anyway it is really a pet peeve when you have all these hands over your tummy when you are pregnant.

i dun mind friends. Besides they always ask, so i am perfectly alrite but not certain people!!!!!and u know what? they dun even ask u permission. dammit. i have this student who used to use a finger to touch it like poking it. damn irritating. and i told her off. and this morning i have another student who exclaimed: ms elaine, how come your tummy is smaller? I was so pissed off that i snapped : you better shut up. next time dun say this. i know i could have put it in a better way especially to a kid, but sometimes you are so sick being politically correct when you are a teacher. argh. and how like u aint suppose to swear when u are preggie and blah blah...... but people should really be more sensitive....:(
agh forget it.

anyway UTAC rebounded today and STAT shot up till 1.83 but i had already taken profit at 1.62. dammit. anyway sold off UTAC at 0.91 after buying it yesterday at 0.82. not bad huh. just within 24 hours.

okie waiting for dear dear to finish up so i can eat. Yeah...eat again . * yawn *

So irritating. everytime this woman buys a stock , it has to drop first before it rises. ugh. but anyway. was amazed at how Stat rose this morning. was still praying that it can be around 1.53 plus for me to sell after my first period of English. Was quite irritated w the facilities of the school----only one PC was working.....argh can you imagine. but anyway. dun digress. i tot t wld have been 1.53 but guess wat??? it rose to 1.62!!!!geese. haha. dunno whether to laugh anot. so i put in order to sell . ( see me not greedy) but since i was thinking abt this morning whether to buy UTAC. i decided to use the cash i get from stat to buy UTAC. i admit itis a bit late, but have confidence in this fellow. Besides i dun look to do contra:P too risky for preggie mama.
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later will head down to gynae myself to buyt ELIVIT for zhai zhai....seems like he has alot of action to day too keep kicking and kicking and shifting in my stomy. i hope he can be used to the noise of the HK kids. argh. welll as usual , scolded the class again on the bad manners----everyone has to talk at the same time and no one listening. makes worse if you are not used to listening to english. How can you possibly learn if you talk? damm......dun the parents teach??????????????
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called Stanley when home---realised that he knows shufang --dear's sis . what a small world and well as usual ...everyone knows andrew seow. lol.....
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must add in ---THE PRINCIPAL gave an ang pao.... but only 50 hk dollars. hehe.better than nothing ya. let tt be taxi fare.!!

Part 2....

My wedding Pictures =)

Hmmmmm:( i think i had some slight memory loss or stg. i realised i forgot to invite some of my frens!!!! hope they dun hate me.... :( sob sob. But this wedding is such a small, snug one and arranged overseas...so dun blame the pregnant mama for forgetting ya...?

okie doks I am back! and this time round the flight back on the new SQ plane is not so bad. the air stewardess exudes alot of good service, she asked me if i wanted soya bean milk, and i overheard her asking another passenger is he was feeling better then( obviously he felt sick earlier). hmmm and the business class is damn big lor. i dun really like the shape of the chairs though, i guess maybe it is due to space constraint they have to shape it like tt and still make people think it looks big.

and as i am typing , dear is cutting his toenails and putting them on the calculator which is very gross:(.

anyway zhai zhai din kick much today. he just like snuggling up to the right corner of my stomy which makes a pop on my stomy. if u touch my tummy, u prolly can feel him.

sigh. so i recovered from my bloomberg withdrawal syndrome and now dear and i can watch the serial Jin zhi yu yan again. yay! i have been on the net since i touched down , think i cant live w/o the internet. ... must make sure i have it when i return in april. anyway i asked mummy if she still has her knitting needles. :)

here are my 2007 resolutions:

1) pick up knitting during confinement
2) tone up on blogging/ digital scrapbooking skills
3) save up to my target by dec 07
4) revive french and revise
5) cook more healthy dishes for the family:) yay yay yay...food food food.

My Pregnancy This Week


Your baby's growing steadily, gaining about a quarter of a pound since last week, when she was just over a pound. Since she's almost a foot long, that makes for a pretty lean figure, but her body is filling out proportionally. Your baby's skin is thin, translucent, and wrinkled, her brain is growing rapidly, and her taste buds may be working now. Her lungs are developing "branches" of the respiratory "tree" and cells that produce surfactant, a substance that helps the air sacs inflate easily.
Your baby can hear more and more now, and you may even notice her startle at loud, sudden noises. But she's probably getting used to the regular noises she hears around the house, such as your dog barking or the roar of a vacuum cleaner. Many new parents are surprised by how unfazed their newborns seem by sounds like these, but if you think about it, they've had months to get accustomed to them.

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Wynn

see lah.....tt day i so happy for nothing. Today Miif rose to 1.10 bloody hell. and i got in KS too high , i so pek chek. i am not gonna bother about the prices anymore. Anyway my theory is tt, they will all rise when the financial results are out, just a matter of how much , so no point looking and looking every minute. moreover Miff not gonna fall till 1.03 liao. ugh . so cant buy before i sell ks and kingboard. dammmit.
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but i did stg today , finally put a song on my blog and signed up for u tube so i gonna put video on the blog. ugh . next few things to do are to change the fonts size of the blog and then also put up wedding picture and put up tag board. must do must do . i used to be aso IT saavy . dunno why now so lazy and stupid.
forget how to read jap and french. ugh... and i have this cold sore on my lip. ugh winter is over already dunno why still can grow.
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ugh.ugh. ugh....and baby stop kicking mummy. mummy already feel like she is bursting!!!!

see lah.....tt day i so happy for nothing. Today Miif rose to 1.10 bloody hell. and i got in KS too high , i so pek chek. i am not gonna bother about the prices anymore. Anyway my theory is tt, they will all rise when the financial results are out( assuming if they got what they predicted), just a matter of how much , so no point looking and looking every minute. moreover Miff not gonna fall till 1.03 liao. ugh . so cant buy before i sell ks and kingboard. dammmit.
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but i did stg today , finally put a song on my blog and signed up for u tube so i gonna put video on the blog. ugh . next few things to do are to change the fonts size of the blog and then also put up wedding picture and put up tag board. must do must do . i used to be aso IT saavy . dunno why now so lazy and stupid.
forget how to read jap and french. ugh... and i have this cold sore on my lip. ugh winter is over already dunno why still can grow.
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ugh.ugh. ugh....and baby stop kicking mummy. mummy already feel like she is bursting!!!!

For the first time in my life i sold the stock at the highest price within the day. i sold Miif at 1.09.but i intend to buy it back lower than 1.05 before they turn CD...

Wish i could buy hotel grand central. and KS energy.....They are good stocks. Hotel grand central has a good potential of flipping over from a penny stock w good dividends....i think it can be a dollar. sigh...

Also... I cant believe K reit is actually 3 bucks over now. the last time remembered was 2.73.....GODDAMMIT. argh. cant prime reit move like tt too>????

okie better get ready for tuition.

hiyah. today market is very good:P very happy. well. not that i made a load cause the input is small, but at least there is some action. otherwise so bloody boring. sigh.

if only have cash to get pine agritech. could only watch it rise and rise but cant buy :(
and stuck at biosensors. dun want to cut loss and sell cuse i am sure it will rise. but this one is very very slow.

some crazy people bought MIIF at 1.06 ( 1, 703 000 people bought) and 1.20 for prime reits too. craZy . tt is the peak already still buy. ok i dun feel so bad now.Stats is slow and steady . me like ......

cant wait to get back to spore again. 6 more working days......

dear dear cant wait too. :)

Hmmm dear dear still not back yet ...already 10 plus. dun care, i am gonna sleep already.

Guess what?????? i am turning a mile stone !!!!!. My belly button is almost popped out and i tip the scales at 52.5 kg now!!!! just the other day i was wondering if i would ever pass 50 kg. hahahaha. i am sooooooo happy !!!!! But that means i seriously need to get a pair of pants........ i cant fit into my stuff anymore. boo hoo. Boobs big, butt big, stomy big. hahaha. all for my dearest baby boy.

just hope MIIF rises to my tg tom so i can take profit and sell. then buy at lower price. Stats is doing well!!! and MMF is stable holding on to 1.17-1.19 great....:) C'mon ....just move it ok. this mama not working soon and she will need the money hor.I just want u to be stable and grow.Can u imagine if i have 100 k now? i would just buy 90 lots of MIIF and get the dividend to pay for my insurance. dammit man. Still must wait for next year. and then no Cpf some more.

anyway. was surfing the net and found this lovely dress...boo hoo. but i cant fit into it of course....