i am thrilled.....!:)
baby is 1.27 cm and s/he is 7 weeks old.....:) . heheh. the size of the coffee bean .
but i am strickened with guilt for not being in the best of my health. i want the best for the kid...i dun think i have already been a good mom rite from the start by being asthmatic and using my inhaler. i did not know i was pregnant.

:( and then i caught the flu bug from the kid from mbl. damn . and was totally paranoid of what to eat for medication . panicked as my top palate was totally swollen and congested .so i tool serrayzme. but in the morning when i called the doc all the way in spore she said it was ok to eat eat paracetamol and chlorophenamine. i will prolly do so later. went to buy some baby books too.

dear dear has been nicest. he is being much more caring in the sense he alwasy try to hold my hand when i walk, i cant walk too fast now. i feel bloated but my tummy does not really show now. and i guess this also explains why i am nauseous. but the doc prescribed vit B for me to curb that. folic acid too. i make a vow to myself i will eat healthily from that day onwards.:) i will:) and baby will be fine. :)
i just want the first trimester to pass successfully . i am so scared inside you know. but i know i can do it.

......................kodomo ga arimasu.....................

totemo shinjirarenai................

totemo hayai, dakedo, hontoni tanoshii!!!!!!!:)

gonna tell mom later after i shower.....

is it a boy or a girl?
damn it ruins my argent plans though . hehehhe. but still very happy.

makes me take a break.

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quite interessant....anyway.....


been a while since i wrote. sigh . been lazy. and been nauseous and having craving for funny things. and i HATE my canteen food.!!! i am conditioned to puke when i see it. yucks. they are so gross. those. sweet sour pork and salted veggie soup. and horrible cabbage. who eats cabbages as vegetables? not fit to be eaten. should have some leafy greens!!!! yucks.
and soup is so oily. i swear till dec that i am working there i will be bringing my own lunch.

anyway. ryan is opening up to me. so cute. he actually will wave to me and talk to me now. twain loves me too. edison always say hi to me loudly when he sees me. happy being ard them. ...i saw this ger from 1a in west villa. she was practically dancing ard me when she saw me. think the mommy was not really happy when she saw that the teacher was young. then relieved when she realised that i was only her music teacher. hahah. silly...anyway....i am getting used to the nottie pri 1 kids.

the dictation for this time round is quite badly done.. johnson got his marks and he cried. poor fellow. too bad for him. who ask him to be such a blur ****>.always. building castles in the air. if not that i always call his name in class, i think he would have done worse.

sigh.....okie okie..i will check again tommorow.if it is true. i prob only be up till 28 end of jan.......

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anyway. was just thinking... i never ever liked politics...my psyche is too diffusive to absorb such things , it's too heavy for me. i would just rather wanna know the main story and tha's it. no point debating about it. not like others.

I was given this book in st nicks.... was told i appeared shy, till today , i suspect i am...

http://www.adaydreamer.com/adaydreamer.htm

am i a voyeur? i stumbled upon this beautiful website . anyway. i really love photographie couture. but i simply have not gotten the time to explore it yet. you need the time to devote to it , to get the equipment , to get a bon laptop that does not have silly pop ups like this silly one. argh....

anyway. i watched STEPHORD WIVES --did i spell that correctly , this evening after musikbox...such a sexist movie. stereotyping us women. dun like. of course husbands wld wan wives to be perfect but wldnt us women wan our hommes to be goody goody good too? . and then the movie ends with a feeble attempt to be not sexist by trying to put in a twist by making the DR who makes all the robot wives , a robot husband himself. and it turns out it was his wife who was the mastermind of the whole episode....argh. i wld only applaud this movie for the costume and aesthetic part of it. but the whole idea is simply a turn off. they should have stephord husbands, it would be more sensational.

anyway. called jean and dawn. no one picked up my fone!!!!i am so bored here , actually i am grateful to be given time to rest, but more of bored.....:( and i started thinking of ma mere. if i am that bored, it's kudos to her on surviving 4 years w/o me living w her.....sigh. i am glad she changed from a control freak to a better mom. but i feel age is catching up w her and i am sad inside.. if the average lifespan of a woman is 80 that leaves her 30 years more...:( sorry that i am so morbid to think of such, but i wan to make her more happy. i will bring her on a tour soon. really wan her to come here for a holiday.

i have been a sloth this weekend cause i only have musikbox, theoretically i can just rot and slack at home , but nooooo. i actually wanted to work in musikbox, so i gotta get my butt there by 12. 45 and teach till 2. 15...sigh. actually i dun like the way they run the company , cheating the parents of the money in a way cause some of the stuff is not sensible and sometimes if the kid miss lessons, they make up for the lesson by going into another class totally irrelevant. how good can that be? :( i dun like it.

anyway. i have been watching entourage and i think it is terrible. not a good one but sad to say, i was to lazy to get out of the couch to do anyother thing. i have not even been painting my nails and dyeing my hair!!!. anyway... the characters in there are totally spoilt brats n i hate such people. not practical . you should be more thrifty, i mean yeah. you are an actor, but if you ain t successful why waste your money on a rolls royce . and a house. argh and pass over a 4 million dollar movie. argh. i think they got me heated up there. silly people. lazy bummers.

getting bored at home , so let me do a summary of myself.

loves of my life at 26.:

( food)

sorbet, foie gra, escargot, salmon, baked chicken rice, egg, mee siam , mee rebus , 6th avenue fish ball noodles, uni, chawanmushi, instant noodles, tom yam soup, borstch soup, ikea meat balls , ikea's broccoli soup, chickent soup, heineken beer, calsberg. red wine w orange juice, riesling, chicken wings, mommy's sea weed soup, her chicken soup.


( musique)

( langues)
french, spanish---i like the rrrrr sound. dear dear can do it very well, japanese.
i like cantonese songs, but i hate crude cantonese, especially when i get overdose of it.

(couleur)
bold and pastels, contrast.
i do not like small prints, but i love contrasting prints, i hate retro prints, i think they are very distaseful.j'aime animal prints.

laces, velvet, lycra, satin, silk , ribbons, chiffon. i do not like shatung silk though.

sigh...and so baby is gone to singapore leaving me here ...but no choice. i have musikbox la. and i hate short trips cause it is so tiring. besides, i am not interested in Hazel's wedding. someone who likes him before...anyway...

i lied about returning to sg to the school so i can avoid sunday walk to aberdeen park . so stupid. they call it fun walk . i call it silly walk. damn. i just wanna teach and mark and go home. dun ask me to do all these silly things. argh. besides your principal pays me peanuts. ...should have gone to st clares. how to pay rent?

was watching the show ' wishing tree" on tv. in cantonese. me fav edison.....cutie. i have this student in school who will grow up to look like him i think cause he also has very cute dimples. :) very cute boy. i like those cute boys with dimples. hehhe. no paedophile but just think they are really adorable. of course most of the times they are naughtier, but how much can you scold them....heheh so DOES IT PAY TO BE BETTER LOOKING? :pp

anyway.....i bought a dress in ZARA. .. with a sheath collar , black lycra/ spandex and cotton , and a mock big bow behind...:) and locotaine eye cream ( think i spelled that wrongly ) ..it is quite good cause it gets absorbed quickly..



argh . damn karen just called... about the bloody test paper that i named '***** up" have already done my job and given to her

pardon me if you think i am really vulgar in here. i guess it is my only outlet.complaint counter.

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dun ya think this site is something ?

anyway. today is PTA parents association fun day . so]uppose to be a public hol but still have to go back to school for 2 hours to mingle with the parents. i saw Ryan!..:)

the cute little boy from my bus that tells me a chapter of thomas and the train story in ENGLISH everyday.... seriously. he knows i do no understand canto, and he actually says it in english . how sweet..... seriously...

yeah., and hong kong has this sillday call DRESS CASUAL DAY.that is people donate some money so that they can dress casually to work. yeah . so i wore jeans. what big deal huh.....silly day. cant they have .. something like speak softly day ? or go home early day , or speak good english day....

anyway.....i went to la foret to shop after school today at causeway bay . went to marks and spencers. and shop. bought a gold plated chain . and earrings and a gold ring. all gold plated of course...:) the gold chain can go well with the trench coat.hehhe...cant wait for autumn. actually it is suppose to be autumn already. it has been moon cake festival...but i have yet to eat a moon cake..:(

sigh......tired and i hate bad english

. if you dun understand , say you dun , dun give me the wrong message and then cause trouble

damn . i really appreciate spore govt now---only for the education they put me through.

from today onwards,

i am not gonna bother to correct the english in the stupid eng worksheets set by the previous teacher( prob a hkger)
and i am not gonna bother to ask the kids to write in the vocabulary book ,
and i am just gonna teach based on text book
and i am not gonna bother to shout keep quiet and just raise up my 2 fingers,
i am not gonna to collect hw from lazy kids, just wait till last minute---they only have themselves to blame,
i am not gonna bother to shout walk faster and just walk faster, they will follow.

it is final ...hk kids are self centered-- bad english , and talk loudly.
no wonder..

and i am totally abhorred at how they argue w each other, makes me wonder how the parents teach them.

well...one year. then st clares.

sigh......soon it is the end of holidays...
came back from Wynn and it was fantastic. :)

the room was fantastic cause the hotel upgraded dear to a suite. let me figure out how to put the video of the room online via mytube.
the oteira was even bigger than the living room!!!! the tub is a jacuzzi and they even provide a pillow for the head to rest in the tub.

dun forget the tv in the bathroom.

and i cant forget the coffee maker in the room :) and they even have an ipod player in the bedroom.

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tha is for saturday.....and i finally got my cheque for mbl. minus kids on air. damn . they are so unprofessional, how to expect to keep the staff if you are so unprofessional. anyway... i also got my first pay from rosaryhill!!!:)

anyway..i came across this blog about this ITE girl in singapore. seems like her family is in a dire state. http://godblessyou88.spaces.live.com/

at least now i feel more fortunate. what a meanie....am i. to be happy on others unhappiness. but there you go , i think i should start appreciating what i have more.


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mommie came back from malaysia and she said it was a terrible death for ah kim. her lungs were puntured, ribs were broken and half her face was gone. at least she died instantly...sigh. at least ah gu is also gone , so she has a companion, to where ever she may go. i miss her ci xiang face though :(
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oh yeah and i bought a black coat from marks and spencer.. this one in the picture is the cream coloured one. i think the ribbon was the thing that caught my attention. i have a weakness for ribbons. ( and lace, and chiffon and silk) hehhe:P

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ahhhhhh.....
finally clearetd my table , cleared the markings ....i hate marking dictation, the marking scheme is simply stupid. my style in singapore is simple... you learn , you get the marks,

you dun ... just too bad, i am not gonna bother whether you put full stop or not, each one wrong , one mark deducted, what makes you think punctuation is less expensive than a word... stupid. afterall i did say out the full stop . you din hear it , your bloody business...

i forgot to add , i repeat the passage 4 times. SLOWLY!!!


sigh. stupid hkeess.....put in so much effort, yet they cant improve their english. they dun understand. it is the enviroment, if you dun speak english to your kid... what r the chances your kidd gonna improve????? argh

anyway...i cant wait for the weekend. be staying at wynn. the new hotel at macau.
sigh . cant bear to think of him gambling but at least i can get to relax... and i love portugese food!!!! ox tail soup , baked stuff .... yum yum...

i have been watching desperate housewives and i must say the second season s quite disappointing.... first of all i must say that some of the things the women do in the show are absolutely stupid. and you simply just wanna go into the goggle box to strangle them for even existing... what bimbos....

btw, , went ot wong tai sin today . went to see a fortune teller for fun.... 60 sg. bloody ex huh...not gonna spew my future over here , so there. . all i must say is that there are many of them there. it either goes for 100 bucks or 60. maybe i should train to be one too. not too bad a living isnt it. easy money.

i went to check out a chanel bag today. i saw it in the store. and guess what...bloody ex.....3600 sg. over my dead body i buy that. call me cheap skate or something. but if i actually buy that now, guess how much i must spend next to satisfy myself? no way.....and i am only 26!!!dun tell me by the time i am 40 i have to spend 100 000 on bag?

CHECK THIS OUT!!! SOMETIMES I WISH I WAS IN JAPAN NOT IN HK.

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i have been seeing alot of gore in HK tv ....i thank God that sg censor some of the gore back home. spare me that. chopped up hands and the hei she hui ....eeeeks.disgusting...


back in school ...the joke of the day was teaching the meaning of the word" miscellaneous" to the kids. you know how they call their teachers MISsy ...so they actually thought the word iscellaneous meant something about me!!! can you believe it????good gracious.....i hope this class can really improve on their english by the middle of the school year. met their parents today ...it was parents day...it is a universal problem . kids dun read much . too lazy .......and so???//what do we have to do ? we have to encourage them. force them..... sigh. maybe they can start to listen to more Britney spears and christina...maybe that will help hehheh.

anyway....i indulge myself in 2 jap magazines ..to cheer myself up and to prep for clothes to wear in autumn. hehhe aint i vain. but anyway. as long as i am alive , i will make sure i dress well. at least nicely , it is the basic politeness isnt it. besides your day is a dreary already , dun you think you feel better if you dress better.

i reckon my motivation to work everyday is actually food.....
when i wake up in the morning i drag my arse to the kitchen to heat the water to make coffee....
then shower. i can be ready in half hour...and then when i am washing up the water boils, once i am done , i make breakfast to eat. i MUST EAT . IF I DO NOT EAT BREAKFAST , MY WHOLE DAY GOES WRONG.......dammit..... it is the most important thing in the world. and i pick my clothes to wear the night before...:) so it is not that rush in the morning....and so 7 days a weeks go like that......and it is gonna be this way for 3 years....and it is only 1 month..:) :(

i look forward to going to tokyo from hk . will be so much shorter.. hehheh. that will be one of the few reasons why i wnan live in hk i guess.

wish time passes faster , so i am richer, so i can afford not to wrk so hard and learn my jap and french again. :) i miss them . but i dun wanna take courses here, still not in my budget. .

me sick...cough cough and the whole of sun nigh, inspite of going tobed at 8 thirty , i did not get well and i felt my whole throat inflammed... saw a doctor on mon, b4 that called elaine at 6 am and told her i cant do bus duty and 7 i called ms poon. today i went to school to give them hw to do . hmmmm the class seem quieter. good. hopefully when i am back on wed it is better.

when i came to staff room in the morning, everyone was like huh , how come you are here. hmmm.. maybe i should not have come. well, they did ask if i was ok....but i am too tired to say i am ok in cantonese. hmmm but it is funny that they ask me rather than ask ellie or phoebe when they are sick. maybe mine is the bloody virus 2 days in a row.

Classic black bag which i want and will get eventually. i guess if i end up buying all the other bags , it will be an accumulated waste of money , why not just get a classic piece? of course, the chains must be more sparkly....

oh i finally ate at the french place ....and my colored macaron. expensive...18 dollars a piece.. i mean hk $ . cest crazy. but it's worth an experience....the tea was great though.

also realised melvin knows andrew , and that andrew was suppose to meet melvin's colleague at r and t too for dinner. wat a small world huh.....

had uni again:) i love uni....and my foie gras...expensive stuff. good for once in a while. really appreciate the chance of being able to eat them .it is good to eat them only once in a while cause if they are ready too easily , then the novelty will wear off.

no wonder the rich always need different seasons of products in their haute coutre ( oh did i spell that right?) to satisfy them , because they are rich , so they need a change of taste regularly and new stuff to keep up with their hunger...poor them ya , never to experience the joy of having to achieve something again by having to work for it , cause everything is so easily available:)

...........sashiburi ne...
anyway. i just hope i do not forget all my japanese and french , intend to take them up again only next year , till i have worked my ass off for all these hk children.
anyway. they are quite a pain , not all of course but the bloody classrm is air con , so the noise is contained and then if i turn on the fan, it blows the dust around and i am very very allergic to it. sigh.

and Karen is so irritatin , everyday she has something to say about my out fit , i mean , i dun care if it is even a compliment, or not , just SHAAAADUP...i dun care you know. but given me, i will just nod and smile or whatever. damn ...and she is just a gan joing spider. how could she be so stupid as not to know that she can earn more by giving tuition, and she is already older than me.......argh . silly bitch. and so monday i will pile all the books on her table for her to check . you wanna check , go ahead and check silly woman. goood..... i let it all out.

and i am sick again. prob because i did not get enough rest last week , had guests in my place. jh and thomas, they were good company though. a good change lah. so no complains.a pity i had not enough time to bring them ard .
jh was also sick on sat, if not she could have gone to stanley beach.

at nuit. just wished my sleep could have not been interrupted with wl getting up to pee so often.
also doors must be shut slowly and considerately...
i am sooooooooosleeeeeeeo py. waiting for 12 noon to come so i can get ready for music box....meeting melvin later after class.