wooooo hooooo!!!!

i am going home this 4 thirty pm today !!!! :)

tugging along me markings , hehe, me accessories and me wedding gown. ....cant wait to eat ... sg food. :) * satisfactory grin*

anyway ....there are a few photos i wanna upload, first will be the red coat which i bought for my collection:) and that will be the last of it. i already have a black ribbon one , a long one and plus this red one makes a very happy girl.


Went to lancome to trim my brows at 11 am yest, had lunch w dear, ( poor him ) he is still not feeling well, and then back to home to have a nap before returning to school for mass at 3 45 and left at 5 plus to rush my gynae appt at 6pm. queens road east was totally jamm and the bloody cab driver ( dunno for real or not) drove me to near the peak and then back down so i can avoid the traffic at Wan chai....and the bloody driver gave me less change in myhurry to get off the cab ( which is also my fault for not checking) . ..

but and at the docs, i had to stuff my self w water so that the ultrasound can work.i felt that my whole tummy was gonna burst cause i was so full....... anyway ...when trying to determine the gender of the baby, we thought we saw something sticking out between the legs. .....which makes the baby most probably a boy . BUT!!!!...let's see how. hehehe. if it is a boy , i will be ecstatic!!!!:P

okie i better go wash my clothes cause they have been sitting int he laundry basket for a long while....

eeeks!
i cant wait i cant wait! i cant wait to step home!!!! but i am a bit apprehensive about flying when i am preggie....but hell w it. i will just have to make sure i circulate the blood in my feet.

today i was quite so bouncing w energy, compared to the last time ( during the 1st trimester) when i was feeling so tired by mid day during the picnic of pri 1 and 2 , but today after i went to sai kung for a bbq w the school, i was still ready to go out w dear dear. ...
took some photos, will post them up....anyway i brought along a burger in the mornign cus i knew that eatign bbq food is no good for baby....anyway . i do not know how to do it. i know....i am SPOILT. i need people to do it for me..... hehe. and i dare not eat half cook meat( well they are not supposed to be) but you never know. and the hot dog and fish ball that i bbqed, were charred . hahaha!!!!. :)

anyway......went to causeway bay and just returned . i have eyes on this marks and spencer red coat, i realised that all my coats are black , brown ....anyway. so far the only ones i like was the last black double breasted one i bought months ago, the rest dun really look that good :P Vain huh....
yeah . and i went to the mango sale too. i bought my black cardi at 179 hk , which was supposed 300 plus. bloody hell and i just bought the red one a week back . bloody hell. i also bought this evening bag lace, and plastic clipshut. and a blue fur top and a cape coat , i think houndstooth patterned.:) ( which means dark color again) ---giving me the excuse to get the red coat tom....---that is if i can find my size. cuase i need size 8 , they onlyhad 10 in causeway bay today...hmmm.

sigh......my bloody uterus is giving me hell cus it is expanding like no one's business and i think my belly button is saying adieus.....need to put up the missing ad soon. it hurts sometimes. and i think i feel fluttereing sensation within the tummy....a little paranoid on how the baby is doing. if only i can do an ultra scan everyday....ha, but that is not healthy...and disturbing the baby alot....

i think i will know what is the sex of the baby by next week cause the external genitalia is forming... and also this fine brown hair call lanugo is covering the baby. apparently the baby is making facial expressions now, and can pee and shit now. heheh in my belly. ahaha.GROSS......
and by next week the baby can hiccup...:) see? i read up .....realy excited. i am more excited about it than me wedding. hahah . wat an irony....

http://www.tonya.me.uk/Baby/Baby-diary-pregnant3.asp?page=3

errr damn i dunno how to upload the file onto blogger. sigh. anyway . found a 15 week old fetus moving....feels like s/he is claustophobic ya know.....

Your Pregnancy: 14 Weeks

How your baby's growing: Head to bottom, your baby's 3 1/2 inches long — about the length of a lemon — and weighs about 1 1/2 ounces. Her body's growing faster than her head, which now sits upon a more well-defined neck. By the end of this week, her arms will have lengthened and will be in proportion to the rest of her body. (Her legs still have some growing to do, though.) She's starting to develop an ultra-fine, downy covering of hair all over her body (called lanugo). Her liver starts secreting bile this week, a sign that it's already functioning properly, and her spleen starts contributing to the production of red blood cells. She's also producing and discharging urine into the amniotic fluid, a normal process that she'll keep up until birth. You still can't feel your baby's movements, but her hands and feet (which are now half an inch long) are more flexible and active. Thanks to brain impulses, her little facial muscles are getting a workout as she squints, frowns, and grimaces. She can grasp now, too, and she may be able to suck her thumb.

1) I am getting more backaches
2) My hormones are running wild in the sense that i can be angry within seconds and feel like killing all the HK kids who just talk too loud. I should have been in jail by now, if not for the fact that i have been controlling myself
3) Apparently i can get nose bleeds becus of the blood circulation that is going up me head.( but i have not gotten them yet, and i really dun want to )
4) I have half dyed hair and i think me look horrible.
5)My nose is getting stuffier..... and it is supposed to. sigh.

You know what is the bloody difference between hk kids and sg kids.
BOTH interrupt which i really freaking hate, but . at the very least sg kids interrupt by starting off with MS CHUA MS CHUA MS CHUA. to try to get the permission to speak first, and the freaking hk kids just simply open the bloody mouth and rattle off. GAWD. HOW I HATE THEM....

Based on your preferred retirement age and the monthly retirement income you would like to receive, the total retirement income that you will need is reflected below.
There are 14 years to your retirement.
The total retirement income that you need at the beginning of your retirement is $654,600.
to bring you nearer that dream retirement by entering the "Next" button.

wah lau... how does a teacher get so much money---which is actually not very much to some? Shit it out? ...really regret now for entering the wrong industry ya know.

something when i was bored

hmmmmm

....must put down this joke from school else i forget...

One day, when i was going to fetch my kids from pri 1 B to the music class, one of the kids happily exclaimed to me this when we were all lining up.....

Boy:Ms Elaine, I have pee niece.
Me: ( Caught by surprised and kept quiet for a few seconds)
Boy: (Very happy and innocent smile on face )
Me: ( gulp, ---in cantonese---- oh you mean those that only boys have...( pause)....but you cant go around telling people you have....just keep it to yourself....that is good enough ...( and ruffled his hair)
Boy: ( Puzzled , and kept quiet...but nodded his head)
.....and the class was noisy as usual , so i was distracted and led them to the music class...


After music, I led them back to the classroom to take their stuff for Recess.
Boy: ( holding a container).Miss Elaine, you want some pee niece?
Me: ( gulp) ....total embarassment....Oh oh oh............................................................................
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.......................................................you mean Peanuts.......:D

You guess what. he was trying to tell me he has some almonds( peanuts ) for break, and he was really happy with them , you could tell from the smile on his face.
Damn...what dirty mind i have.

I Only Want To Be With You


I don't know what it is that makes me love you soI only know I never want to let you go'Cause you started something, can't you seeThat ever since we met you've had a hold on me
It happens to be trueI only want to be with you
It doesn't matter where you go or what you doI wanna spend each moment of the day with youLook what has happened with just one kissI never knew that I could be in love like this
It's crazy but it's trueI only want to be with you
You stopped and smiled at me, asked me if I'd care to danceI fell into your open arms and I didn't stand a chance
Now listen honey, I just wanna be beside you everywhereAs long as we're together honey I don't care'Cause you started something, can't you seeThat ever since we've met you've had a hold on me
No matter what you doI only want to be with you
You stopped and smiled at me, asked me if I'd care to danceI fell into your open arms and I didn't stand a chanceNow listen honey, I just want to be beside you everywhereAs long as we're together honey I don't care
'Cause you started something can't you seeThat ever since we met you've had a hold on me
No matter what you doI only want to be with youNo matter what you doI only want to be with you

AND...... so i decided.....i will stop work in feb cause they have 2 weeks in feb. so it will be stupid not to be paid to have holidays:)

and it is only 2 more weeks to my wedding:) heheh i mean errr 19 days....yipee!!!!

today i wore a fushcia turtle neck and a short coat. that means my belly was not covered. the coat was denim with furry trims. i , of course , could not button it. and it was great that the kids finally saw that i was really PREGNANT!. alas , they could see the bulge. ahaha.
( not as if they become better behaved)

i bought cherries to eat after staying off fruits for last week.....was totally sweet. yum yumm:)
back to my regular diet. it has become a habit to take a cab back from school, drop at EPOCH, to buy soup to drink up at my aprtment before napping.:) i love the cream soup...cant get enough of that. sometimes i am rich enough to employ a chef. ahhaha. and just tell the person wat to cook .ahhhhh. food.---no wonder they call it the lubricant of the wheel of life. all themore when you are preggie.....once i am back i will get my hands on those frog porridge. totally delicious!!!!!i will eat it everyday. hahaha. and fish ball noodles and roti prata at 6th avenue for bfast everyday!!!!!!!! oh my gawd. think i gonna start drooling. better snap out of it:(

guess what.. i am so unlucky whole of last week.
i was saying on tues i had food poisoning. a bad cold on thurs and then on fri night , an asthma attack. i had to go to Ruttonjee hospital A and E.......after dear and i figure we should not take chances on me and baby. we spent a good deal fo half an hour to work on the neubuliser which i think did not dispense any drug at all to make me feel better and i keep wheezing. ...:( cant believe i spend 800 sg on it. sigh.

and the doctors at the hospital and service was mediocre but medical advice was horrendous. doctor keep irritating me by asking when was my last period even after i told them i was preggie. i mean shouldnt they ask how old are you now? stupid. even if they wanna know the EDD. all they need to know is how old me baby is now yeah.
N then when i needed some assurance and certainty from doc, doc said." erm this medicine is POSSIBLY safe....if you can , dun take it" ....i mean what the heck.....what do you mean by possibly safe?????YOU HAVE TO BE SURE MISSUS..... it is my baby's life you are talking about here. dammit.

i think to date i have taken 10 chloropheramine.( antihistamines) which i checked ---harmless. the sea coconut cough mixture , one panadol and 3 headache medddi and the stupid neubuliser which till now i din know if it worked...i really hope all these have no effect at all. i just feel so guilty for being so weak:(


anyway...met up with my kid April and her family for dinner on sat. at farmhouse.

and also met up with yp and alvin here. they are here on a holiday....so envious!!!!!!

Sometimes i just feel so worried. No one will ever understand unless they have been a mom before.

I am my best. I take care of myself, and why did it have to happen to me? Yeah i know no such thing as perfect ...but i WANT IT TO BE PERFECT!!!!

woke up and had the runs ---twice. went to school. Was freezing cold. and it does not help w the temp being 19 degrees too. and was getting weaker and weaker in school. and then i had the runs again. went to the sick room to take my temp. 36.9 bloody hell. was sure the cold temp brought my fever down. it was in disguise. then later i had headache and was freezing cold and weak. still taught. and gave homework and lotsa instructions. and told my monitress to bring the class down for lunch as i was really weak. stayed in class to rest. did not eat. just ate 2 strawberries. gave the rest to the kids. had the runs thrice again i think. think i wanted to die........but tolerated till 3.45pm told elaine i cant do the bus duty and when i touched her hand she got a shock . she said i was ice cold. yeah . i was!!!!!. grabbed a cab ( fortunately at the top of the hill) and went home. struggled to make myself a cup of milo w/o milk . had the runs again. called my doc. he said it is ok. as long as i have no fever. i could not be sure. i din have a thermometer then . so i called dear to buy. was crying cause i was really scared and weak and everytime i stood up straight, i have abdominal pains. but fortunately itis high up. not near the foetus. touched my forehead often and was convinced i had a fever.... i took a pot , poured wated in it, put ice cubes and sponged myself. either i swim or sink. have to fight it myself cause dear wun be home till 6 plus. .......fell asleep for half an hour.

then he finally came back. he cooked congee for me. just plain one. and i had it with beancurd, the preserved type if you know what i mean . he had congee too w cai xin.
i took panadol cause my headached was splitting. i sponged myself 3 times... called the doc again , and he said that the fever should go down . i had a case of food poisoning. searched the net and the book on it. they said it could harm the foetus and cause miscarriage. din help my morale at all. was so sad inside.sigh. but i guess i have to be positive.

anyway. i just had breakfast macaroni in chicken broth. ordered delivery from PANTRY. www.pantry.com.hk ....a sausage( which i shouldnt cuase it is oily) and milo again. i had the runs twice again. but i am sure glad the fever is down. poor child of mine. :( mommy really feels sorry .

I am so irritatable today. first, i cant brush my teeth in peace , next i can't shit in peace, what sparked off is bloody MAN U playing last night that made dear wanna stay up and watch and then getting into bed late and i woke up . i hate to wake up!!!!!!i want to sleep through. it is bad enough having to wake up to pee everynight.:( and dreams.

and i was very sure something will happen today and guess what? it did!!!> i fell down! while i was walking down the slope because my bloody shoes did not give that good a grip . dammit man. fug....:( i am so angry with myself. luckily nothing happen. actually it is all that dog's fault. i was distracted by the big dog infront of me w that ang mo woman, then the next thing. my left palm and my right knee were on the ground breaking the fall. dammit dammit. i was so scared. worried i might start bleeding there or something.( you know those things you see on TV). but i sustain bleeding on right knee and left palm only . and to make matters worse. i did not have tissue. nevermind. at least i am home now.

sob sob sob sob sob. my poor child. luckily nothing happen to you .

Some jokes at 11.40 pm on Sat

Am feeling nauseous these days.....:( wonder why. Isnt the sickness suppose to stop at the end of the first trimester???? hmmmmThink i am getting way too excited ...at the end of 11 weeks, but consider myself 12 weeks.. soon soon sooon.....

Ate at Shanghai la mian today . had tomato and salted pork porridge. have a craving for porridge nowadays... cant really stomach some other food. like the KFC i ordered tonight, did not eat much....horrible chicken breast meat. so hard...

went to sasa and bought 3 lovely lip balm. made from paraffin wax. strawberry , peach and red currant flavour. only using the red currant. think i am giving the other 2 away... also bought a bag . a big brown leather bag 70 SG. good buy i think. :) should carry a camera around...

yeah. i will get my butt ard to do it.

i went to the gynae again for appt and this time i could see my baby's face and limbs!!!! Baby was bouncing up and down when the doc pressed the probe against my tummy, but then this time he said I did not drink enough water so the utrasound could not be bounced back clearly....so we had the vprobe. this time we could ehar the heartbeat!!!!160 per min....sounds like the MRT train on the tracks before it stopped....really fast. supposedly it is twice of mine. also I tested for down syndrome:) and everything went well:) really relieved and happy...( Wed)

And on thurs, i went to Cocoon again to see how my gown is like and take the measurements. dear dear had his taken too. i decided to rent it, and let him buy. at elast for his , i think he can wear his tux again , but who the hell wears the gown again??? waste of money. so i rather rent. ( Thurs) ...had beef straganoff and russian oxtail borscht soup...the soup was yum but had a bit of indigestion after that , did not finish my beef straganoff so i just ate my mash potatoes...

( Fri) was feeling sick again. these few nights, although i need not work, not very restful cause i keep having dreams.....not nightmares but i keep waking up every freaking hour or so..:( sob sob. and i feel nauseous this morning!!!! i thought i was supposed to wean that off already???:((((( uso! sigh. but the highlight of the day was that i finally got my pearl necklace and bracelet from MADIA.CC at IFC. They are fresh water and off white and roughly about 500. aside from that also got a diamond ring. i mean the design is really exquiste, dear dear agreed to. i guess that is the most exorbitant item i bought then. guess how much? 19000 hk ...it was at first 21000, but had discount from HSBC.so about 4 k sg. told dear dear i will pay 2 k .

did not go to school today....
had lunch with dear dear. i wore my prettiest :P heheh a white cami and a yellow silk skirt. and beige trench coat....had lunch at cafepalace ...had scallop truffles soup while he had oxtail bisque, and my main was salmon and calm pasta in cream sauce, while he had pan fried sea cod.


yum yumm......then went to mikimoto to look at pearl necklace....saw a signature classic one 7.8 to 8 in size and about 15 inch long. was about 26 k hk. dammit. but it was sturdy and a good keep ,contemplating it. then went to tiffany thinking it would have been cheaper...and to my disappointment it was not as sturdy---the hold, but the size 8 was a good looker. was freaking 120 k though. dammit. so it is out of the question. mikimoto is good enough, but i think i will look at chomel in sg. if i can get a similar, no point buying the 26 k one. that is one months salary!!!!!!siao.


called mom on the way back and got pissed off again. she never fails to piss me off...z:( always comingup with new custom. dammit. how come people get married must give money to the whole goddamn world instead of people giving money to them . do you know weddings are expensive and i dun shit money.? how come i must give money to my brother and her? NO WAY!

and i reiterate. this is not a mood swing.

and i am not gonna let her look after my kid incase she thinks i owe her a big favour. hey mom you know what, what i am todayis 70 per cent of my own while the 30 percent is yours which comes from my earlier years. i dun believe i owe you and dad anything , except giving me food and shelter. call me selfish or an ungrateful wretched but i believe that you guys are horrible parents . horrible horrible horrible that dun plan much for me or give me good advice with regards to my future, thatnk goodness i have my own brains to plan., and not forgivng you dad for making me so badly wanting a scholarship so i dun have to owe you any university fees. else i would prob be working in a fugging bank also.

had stupid meeting in school which is very disorganised and went on till 5 thirty. damn and it is dark already cus it is winter. shared cab back with colleagues ....went home to discover the delivery man came at 10 thirty . of course i would not be home. i immediately called them to lash out at them . stupid fool., i already indicated in the evening. and who will be home in the morning. dammit. and i demanded they come the next day instead when they suggested wed. damn damn. luckily my cantonese is improving.so i can scold people. good training.

have big headache.....another point before i sleep . i must not pass my kid to my mom to look after when i have given birth.....mad at her. dun think she will be a good grandma.whole day just think of money!ironically i still love her. i hate the feeling when i am suppose to hate someone. yet i cant do so. dammit. stupid mom.

Sian......totally sian. slept at 10 plus, dear came back with my mee rebus and meesiam but i din even feel like eating. ***** up. i only ate the egg!!!!!!!!!!! can you believe that?

sigh. :( and mee siam is in the fridge. but one thing that made me happy for the baby is that i have bird's nest now. i think i am gonna be a kia su mom. ..anyway, before i write about this morning, i just remembered he proposed....yeah after his shower. he came out , got down on his knees, and then asked me to marry him, i was a bit surprised but now totally cuz he is always that goofy. anyway.....THERE IS NO RING!!!!!!!!!!!!. and so , i told him he must propose another time when we get the ring. hehhehe. 2 proposals.

but sian again this morning, woke up . ben and dear went macau. AGAIN!!!!. dun bother about him , as long as he does not w/d from credit card. and then, me woke up at 7 plus , then 8 plus then finally the bloody alarm rang. woke up and i drank a $100 worth of birds nest from the bottle, then went downstairs to buy my cheese, bacon and egg muffin. :( . not full. so small. maybe i feel sian cus i am still not full.

i have mbl later, but called to say i was sick. of course i lied. i really cant drag myself out anymore and put on a smile and sing children's songs and blah blah....:( michelle has not called back , let's see how later.......

Kind of life If je ne pas travaille.......


1) I do not want to be worrying about money
2) I want to wake up whatever time I can and drive to botanical jardin with my baby and eat breakfast.
3) I want a dog .
4) I want to be able to learn my french and jap at my own pace and make my child learn* devilish laugh* and have s/him practise with me. heehehe. To hell w dear.
5) Jazz piano ... need I say more.
6) Still look good. hehheh. and be able to bake and cook for my family.
7) Take afternoon naps.
8)Spend more time w my mom....bring her for holidays. ( so must have money)


Next question is how much money I need before I can ever do that? Can I ever strike a balance?


Below is an email from a 10 year old kid .... She has that ideal job....I used to have that..... Only to be let down...so I think those people who really love their jobs and be paid a damn lot are reallly lucky... even if you dun like your job ,you must be paid a damn lot, else you be a loser, how will you ever retire?? sigh.

sorry,exams just passed. i didnt do that well but better than mid year. maths,91 highest score. english,92. chinese 88.5,,big improvement. sience,97.5 cool, right?
so about my jokes,my fathers friend gave it to him.he gave em to me. the effie issue is going great! we couldnt stay mad at each other long.
enough about me, how have you been?what do you work as?if your job is stressful, than stamp right out of that door. . . free. cause my idea of a job is doing something you enjoy ,seriosly. and the best part is that you get paid to do it. my dream is to become a fashion designer! my clothes are going to be cheap,but not look cheap.or an architect. i could build wonderful mansions, either way everyone will get to know my name,and i get paid big time! i like to be my own boss.good luck with work. . . quuuuuuuuuiiiiiittt! bye!

After Sunset and Before Sunset.....

have you watched the beautiful 2? such mind engaging flims......especially the latter.....reminds me of what a cynic i have become in love after my parents divorce and 2 of my horrible r/s that made me actually engaged the coping mechanism of erasing the memories... i thank God for that i only remember certain parts of it. These 2 adults ( esp the guy) is complaining about their lives, musing how they are not contented about it , frequency of Sex for the guy , and how the confused dame wants to be loved and love , yet cant be around any men . crazy but yet it is true. Humans are always contradictory. We tell people we want that, but when we have it , we want something else.....My main worry is my marriage, not that i have no faith in it but that I want it to work out till I die. I want to be like an old lady and have him hold my hand or feed me or pinch my cheeks( of course by then it will be sunken) . Dont you feel tres joie everytime you walk past such old couples..?

Stuart cried in front of me in the staffroom while doing his Maths, i guess he was burnt out by not being able to cope with his school work and deluding himself into thinking he cannot cope. .. after some encouragement, it was ok.....however , i am quite shocked.


Yay dear coming back tommorow.....tommorow , i have a picnic .... be off at 12. 30. yay again!