Ok ...the storm has cleared and the point is finally driven across to my MIL tt she should not overwork the maid....:D but again living with the inlaws is difficult cause my MIL comes home everynight wanting to carry Dylan AT THE WRONG TIMES. and i mean i cant say NO to her all the times...it would be rude. What i mean at the wrong times is cause Dylan would be very sleepy at tt time she comes home and then my MIL thinks he is actually not , and wants to play . Cmon for Godsake, who has been home looking after Dylan all the while and would understand him.!!!!...Hiyah.

Anyway......here are some pix to brighten up the entry :0)

wah ....woke up this morning to read my flooberchatterbox and saw this crazy sicko who left messages , threatening to commit murder and rape, some of which involving my poor baby, claiming he has been thru 5 years w me, and one of which said that" wait till your sis sees me" .....totally disgusting. but all of which makes no sense. First, mama has no sista, secondly,mama spend no 5 years w any guy , plus i think i would have been an idiot if i had spent 5 years only to realise this person is a sicko, AND the only guy i will be spending my life with is my hubby.LOL.....May Lord cure your sickness....tsk tsk.

Well....This music says all. This was how i felt last night...towards my MIL, towards my husband.Husband finally saw what i meant, not too sure about MIL.

JE VOUDRAIS JE VOUDRAIS JE VOUDRAIS......

ERR...DID I GET TAT FRENCH RIGHT?

Red red this morning......

Dylan is in my room .....sleeping....and the thunder is roaring outside.....and mummy is scared tt it will wake him up cus once he does, i will have a hard time cajoling him to sleep......ugh. Here is a list of my top 5 fears: 1) His dot dot dropping out of his mouth
2) The startle effect whereby his 2 arms will raise up and that will wake
him up.
3) Milk not ready in time and he cries like a fire engine
4) He not liking mummy to carry .
5) He falling ill.

Anyway....i think there is a tremendous pressure nowadays for women to breastfeed. True, breastfeeding is GOOOD!!!! but i feel that the pressure is not needed to the already stressful lifestyle of being a mom. On retrospect, i feel a tad pissed off at hospitals and the society to pressurise mummies into breastfeeding. It is like instilling guilt in us for not breastfeeding.....i dont know how to explain unless you fall into the category of moms that i fall in. I think i am having a harder time than direct breast feeding moms cause i need to take time out off my already hectic schedule to express my milk every 3 hours, and on top of that i suffer from painful wrists , ( i dont know why...) and still i have to rush to make formula milk for dylan or rush to heat up the breast milk once dylan is hungry. Also , sometimes i miss my slots to express milk cause i am busy tending to dylan ( hands full, how to express?)......hiya..anyway, i still make sure dylan has 2 to 3 feedings of breastmilk daily....

wah lau....damn tired. brought Dylan over to mom's place cus dear in hk. and no one will look after him at night. ....Me? No lah.....i look after him in the day , want to die already , where got energy to look after him at night.....( pardon my Singlish) .....the taxi ride from Gillman heights to Yishun cost $24 .....freaking ex. and it was a long journey.....

and then bb dylan woke up every 2 hours for feed, i think he is going through a growth spurt.....sigh. that means mama will get no sleep at night. So scared of his pacifier falling out of hs mouth , cus once that does, he will CRY!!!!!!!!!

OKIE....i brought my camera along , so i will be taking lots photos and upload them ....:D

Argh! Now i truly suspect that the proverb " Dont Cry Over Spilt Milk" originated from a nursing mummy.......

Guess what? This Klutzy mama was expressing Bmilk this morning and then she reach over to lap top....all of sudden, accidentally hit the bottle and there goes the painstakingly expressed milk on floor:( BOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOO.......but what can i do? -----Nothing But to wipe the floor , curse myself and express somemore. Luckily still have 60ml...

oooooo. some more photo Shyan as you requested...

Anyway, just the other day i took a video of my MIL and hubby snoring away at night in the living room. Dylan was just beside them. It is soooooooooooo funny, like a duet, one alto , one tenor. Nah....cant post online, else will get killed.

Sigh i miss my school in hong kong. and my colleagues.... and speaking cantonese..:(

Now.....This is what an ex student has sent...... Miss them sooooooooo much...:)
Dylan has succeeded in making a whole lot of those faces listed below...Not all.... but soon to come. Hee Hee. He has those wisdom lines on his forehead and it creases really badly when he frowns.

My colleague sent me the first photo. My face looks like a blob of blubber man.....totally disgusting. i have big eyes but somehow cannot see them when i was pregnant lei... lol

ok.....i am trying to get back my old life......Took up 3 tuition assignments , including one ex student that comes to my house.....I am enjoying the luxury of working and also being able to watch Dylan grow up.This way i dont feel guilty... to myself or to Dylan.

Chrystal came to visit today. Happy for her:) She is settling down with J i think, just a matter of time. they even bought an aprtment alrdy..:) And she looks good today, with her pretty bag. hehe. de ja vu , thinking about last time how we shopped and oogled at clothes. And she was the one who started me on cooking.;)

I really need to get my arse on getting ard to reply emails to friends. I think the best trick is to reply immediately, i made the mistake of storing it and procrastinating it....now i have like 8 to 9 emails to reply.

Oh yeah, kinoo wa dear's tanjoobi.:) i forgot wat it is hubby in japanese... dammit . cant wait to get some times on my hands to brush up on jap and french...sigh.Gave him an ang pao:P No time to get present. if i could i would knit something for him . (oooooo how romantic hor) but Sg so hot, want to wear also cannot wear. haha. ^_^ and tomorrow is daddy's bday.... i am afraid i am drifting apart from him..... scared tt when he is older and retired , he will disappear to Malacca and not see me anymore, afterall he already has 2 places there:( Hope Jo treats him well.

HIYOH.......i have changed....: I cant go out without my mind thinking about Dylan incessantly
: I have morphed into a semi housewife....who indulges in korean dramas.... So far i have watched Lovers in Paris, Full house, My girl, Princess hours , My name is Kim sam Soon,Spring Waltz.......They are just so goddamn funny and allows me to soak in the fairy tale romance hehehe. I realise the storylines are more or less the same, fake identities, contractual marriage..... somehow, i still buy them. oh well.....

Okie.. mama, gonna go sleep now, cant blog much these days, eyes popping out man. Even my use of Elizabeth Arden Prevage wun help liao...

pppppst: Expressed breast milk has reached 130 ml!!!! Good news for Zhai zhai...oooo, all that goodness. ^_^

MAMA'S FACE IS STILL SWOLLEN..... sorry la, i am a vainpot, cant help noticing my eyes are puffy.....



Anyway dear's colleagues gave us a gym mat which Dylan simply adores:) unfortunately in the video, my memory ran outta space just when he cooed.....






and guess who i saw in HK on my last day in causeway bay!!!????


*drool* not as good Edison Chan whom i managed to have a conversation w though. kekekeke. Dear simply HATES him just as much as i cant stand Vivian Hsu who showed the whole world her body and became famous..... whadda slut.Hey dear, at least Edison din bare his bod and butt ok?

hiyah, but i am not a good camera man, and the crew man was in my video most of the time, he did say sorry for blocking me though. kekeke. Check out the lambourghini...:P

Hiyo.....just one more day left in Hong Kong before i have to bade farewell to my abode of one year....:( Sob Sob...i am gonna miss my apartment here, the privacy, the freedom to fart and dig your nose w no one ard, hahha, to be able to walk ard in your bra and panties, or birthday suit...geese, how difficult it is to do that in Singapore!!!! I need my own place!!!!!Well well, gotta wait till we get a new house. That Bloody Gillman Heights better pack up its arse soon. I am getting quite impatient.


Bought lots of clothes at H & M for Dylan. Including one jeans w suspenders, but bought them for 6 months and above:) Kids grow really fast. Din buy anything for myself tho... Dont want, actually went to the MNG sale here, picked up 2 dresses, but din walk out of the shop w them :) Aint' i a good ger..... time to watch wat i spend:)


Stella came over this morning... forgot to take a pic w Ian:( sob sob . She lives just above my aprtment and i have been tutoring her 6 yr old for a few months. Gonna miss that little fellow. sigh... gonna miss Rosaryhill too , as much as i complain, but then Cest la vie ....Ma Vie dois continue. .....and it is back to motherhood when i touch down. Confinement naggy leaves on monday... oh yeah , she fugged up with my breast milk for Sat when i called back ...i had 2 bottles of 50 ml stored for Dylan to tell her to give at separate feedings. instructed her so many times, yet she mixed them together. hiya... must i ask her to repeat what i say in future.. but forget it , she is leaving already. Cant imagine... she even had the cheek to ask me for a blackhead remover..!!!! How professional is that!!!

New Terms On The Block


1)Pok Pok ------Pat to sleep
Eg: Put Dylan down and Pok Pok him.

2) Dot Dot ----Pacifier
Eg: Put Dot dot la, sure can sleep one, where is the dot dot cover? Got sterilise dot dot anot?

3) Pom Pom ----Bathe

4) Oooi la , ooooi la---To soothe baby from crying...



Okie folks....mama is in hong kong now, mama was suffering really badly on plane when she could not pump from 3 pm to 10 pm on plane. When reached home, had like 80 ml of milk. hahaha. stayed up till later to pack. Kept cursing myself whadda fool i have been for bringing so much stuff over Hong Kong.I have like 70 dresses and 70 skirts. plus coats , tops, t shirts.....wah lau.

Then today , i met up with jh in the afternoon. It was sweltering f--ing HOT! 32 degrees in hk. i suspect even more.......

okie. gotta go , update more later.

YAY!!!! taking a short trip tommorow back to hong kong to finalise the house stuff , meet up with jh and shop some more. Heheh been shopping ard though i am not earning...bad bad bad. but no worries la, keeping it in control.Cant help it, zara and mango has sale ..

Also had a facial at Imedeen the other day , not too bad, was quite exclusive cause i was the last customer so the lady spent more time on me, hahaha , had eye brow trimmed too, din know they do that kinda stuff. later i told mom and she said " ya lor ,you din know during facial they will trim eye brow meh? " Geese, made me feel so embarassed , it has been such a while since i had a facial. :)

Brought Dylan to the skin center also , he has eczema, ...sigh , luckily it is not cause by allergies to cow milk so he can continue drinking friso..... i am also able to pump out more milk for him nowadays, so he can have a better chance of not getting asthma. So i have to apply the cream on his face everyday, and put the pacifier in his mouth so that he will not put his mittens into the mouth after he swipe his face. poor fellow.Mama gonna miss him when she is in Hong kong..

Oh.....DONT ASK ME ABOUT THE HANKERCHIEF......HEHEHE.

You know.....i have always been Miss Nice. Miss Tactful, Miss Keep it inside rather than tell to you . But as i grow older and now that i am a mother, i realise how tired i have been.....:(

I never knew my MIL could be so sacarstic and the funny thing is that it is in her, she does not even know she is that sacarstic. Just tonight , she just made a comment nonchalantly that made me boiled, then she looked at me as if she wanted to see some expression on my face, but , i kept a straight face. No point la, i am used to you woman...you wun stand to gain.Hehehe, no need to wayang and curry favour you also, not like in some taiwan drama show that parents in law will give inheiritance to daughter in law. hahaha.If you are a bit nicer in your demeanour, i might consider keeping a conversation with you....

I also have a friend who is like that, really tactless, talk about pointianak when you are pregnant, hiyo.....somemore can say , preggie woman are best prey to pointianak, not that i am superstitious, but i mean at least be more sensitive la...the best part is that she does not realise her fault.

So the question is : to these people: is it better to point out their insensitivity or should we just leave it cause a leopard cant change its spots. :P

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Oh ya....I booked a facial at imedeen tommorow at palais renaissance, thinking of sleeping there, treat it as my afternoon nap . hahahha.What an expensive one.:D

OK OK ....i have been taking fenugreek 3 capsules daily for 2 days already, but my breast milk has not significantly increased...unless i wait for 6 hours interval for each pump then i can get like 60 ml. so pathetic hor. Papaya does nto help too, i wonder why...i used to have much better flow, i think it is cause i did not pump regularly for a while... hiya, just have to wait it out lor...

I sat Dylan in front of the tv in my room today , he was busy looking around and cooing and talking to himself for 15 minutes...i was really intrigued...and then disaster struck... he started turning redder and redder...and then came the cry . Which means he wants to be carried. Then the hands and the legs started flying in the air.... hiyo, followed by a second cry. I was so pissed that i refused to pick him up. I know him, he just wants attention. so i let him cry it out for 10 minute, the maid and the confinement lady came up to my room and watch. and then i told them to look at his eyes " SEE! NO TEARS!" baby just wants .hug...well then we stood and watched. then then i couldnt take it anymore and pick him up, he did stop crying for a second. and then struggled in my arms again... argh. but the moment we put him in the sling, he became quiet. hands to his chest, almost like fetal position ,( like paris hilton) . ......soon he fell asleep much to the relief of me. ......I think i will go kiddy palace to buy a sarong for him either tommorow or thurs...

I think my blog has been quite choked up with entries about breast milk and Dylan....too bad lah ..that is basically what is happening in my life right now. hahaha...

Dont you think Dylan look good in his Baby Gap suit that i bought for him? But dun think u can see it in the photo.....

Alrighty...Dylan just had his man yue celebration... :D Whaddahelleva day ....Sigh. and mom was not in tip top condition to begin with. I went to the GP in the morning as my wound was infected... only to be referred to the hospital to check if there is an abcess inside as it was very painful....and my gynae is at a conference overseas....and so we went to KKH and i had a swab test done. it was so painful when the doc examined the wound that i cried. wah lau...i think my threshold of pain went down...then i told them about my bleeding that was intermitten, and so they did a cervical check too. i almost pleaded with them to stop checking and forget about the whole thing when they did it. dammit man, i think i will stay off sex for a long time.cant stand anyone to touch me there anymore.sigh.....how come i am so suay one huh, got a gap in my wound and infection.....:( boo hoo.

Anyway...the celebration was a good gathering with jh,yx and his friends. I was very protective towards Dylan during the celebration cause Uncle Ek as usual was about to pinch Dylan's cheeks over and over again, Then Aunty Lucy as usual wanted to carry him around..but mama play the bad guy and told them not to do it tactfully cause if one were to carry, everyone will carry......Also i din wan too many pple carrying him cause Dylan's immunity is still not that strong.I mean i wun mind if he is older inspite of that day being his one month's celebration.Regardless, He is not a show boy for everyone to pass around...so me in spite of having sore arms, carried him all the way. ahahhah. Hope i aint being too irksome, i have my reasons ma.....