Dylan is in my room .....sleeping....and the thunder is roaring outside.....and mummy is scared tt it will wake him up cus once he does, i will have a hard time cajoling him to sleep......ugh. Here is a list of my top 5 fears: 1) His dot dot dropping out of his mouth
2) The startle effect whereby his 2 arms will raise up and that will wake
him up.
3) Milk not ready in time and he cries like a fire engine
4) He not liking mummy to carry .
5) He falling ill.

Anyway....i think there is a tremendous pressure nowadays for women to breastfeed. True, breastfeeding is GOOOD!!!! but i feel that the pressure is not needed to the already stressful lifestyle of being a mom. On retrospect, i feel a tad pissed off at hospitals and the society to pressurise mummies into breastfeeding. It is like instilling guilt in us for not breastfeeding.....i dont know how to explain unless you fall into the category of moms that i fall in. I think i am having a harder time than direct breast feeding moms cause i need to take time out off my already hectic schedule to express my milk every 3 hours, and on top of that i suffer from painful wrists , ( i dont know why...) and still i have to rush to make formula milk for dylan or rush to heat up the breast milk once dylan is hungry. Also , sometimes i miss my slots to express milk cause i am busy tending to dylan ( hands full, how to express?)......hiya..anyway, i still make sure dylan has 2 to 3 feedings of breastmilk daily....