i think i am glad you read my blog. go read everything. i din even know what i wrote but when i went back to read it ---i saw that there were also times when i was so upset with you . how come you never read it and talk about it and just harp on kp when it is just a day's entry and OVER? and you start telling me about your principles if made a cuckold? ...just so hurting..

i think you should just go read everything and understand me. you dun understand me enough actually,and i think you know that but you nver want to make an effort to. and now you tell me to be clear.
if i am not clear, why would i be here?

the thing is i hate my sg job , true , but i can still survive in sg giving tuition while suriving there and finding a new one. moving here , takes alot, and i dun even think you know what i am doing.
i am fed up , and i just dont want to convince you anymore. if you think i do care and love you , then so be it. i am so tired of correctin how you feel already. my whole life , just correcting how you feel , how my mom feel and always mis understood.

since when are you treating me gently as a gf? i mean real gentleness. since when you reach over and hug me, to kiss me. and you just feel so proud of taking the initiatives to hold my hands? i feel more like a companion to you! on who eat , talk and sleep with you.

you ask me what i want and be clear.
I TELL YOU STRAIGHT IN THE FACE.---

I LOVE YOU BUT THIS IS NOT WHAT I KNOW I WANT. I NEED YOU TO OPEN UP AND SHOW ME THE LOVE. YOU JUST STORE EVERYTHING AWAY.:( AND I JUST FEEL SO LONELY AND SAD YOU KNOW SOMETIMES. BUT YET , I WANT YOU . SO CAN YOU TELL ME . HOW!