Disaster Disaster Disaster....with a capital D. Tried cluster feeding again, this time Dylan din take all in only 90 at 9pm and then 100 again at 11 pm. Supposed to be 120 to 140ml.....this time arms din frail that much , but he woke at 2 plus crying. so i did the PUPD again , cause shhushing him din work , he kept arching his back and crying. then he went to sleep with pacifier in mouth.

WOKE UP AGAIN AT 3 AM!...this time i checked for signs of hunger, gave him water as advised. he din buy it, gave him 60 ml milk , he din really gulp it all down, so he was not that hungry. had to do PUPD for him to sleep later.

WOKE UP AT 5 AM AGAIN.this time he took in 110ml milk and was quite awake after that. he showed signs of sleepiness, ( by the time we finished feeding it was around 5 45 am plus) maid has woken up and done the washing. by right, she will take over. but then i asked myself if it is right.....dont think so , cuase usually the whole house will beup at 6 am . hubby goes work at 6am plus, MIL, FIL goes work at 7 am. so for the last few weeks i realise i have been doing the WRONG THING by letting Dylan be up when he showed signs of sleepiness. So i did PUPD and here i am up in my room writing all these down to reassure myself.....sigh. oh ya, forgot to add, i cried last night when he woke up 2nd time cause i was so frustrated. hubby felt sorry i think, and wanted to take over. sigh.poor him too, Dylan make so much noise. but miraculously, sometimes he can sleep thru the noise. haha, really want to be like him . unfortunately, i cant. i am those type who stay awake for a long time before i can finally fall asleep and my neck was aching and still aching cause i have been lying in awkward positions beside Dylan, pressing his pacifier to his mouth, turning towards him , pinning his arms down, etc etc. BIG SIGH.!HIAK!