last time i used to be sooo jealous when my maid could pacify dylan cause she knows how to carry him and i could not, ...now that i know that i can , and i have no strength and energy left in the day , i just let her carry him. this week's nights are quite crappy , i am so sleep starved. i think my body clock is kinda screwed up , i sleep in the day and awake at night , or rather, i have to sleep at 8 pm , wake at 9 pm , then wake at midnight, get ready to wake at 1 am all way till 6 am... sigh. sometimes in the middle of night dylan sleeps on my chest. i AM.......sooooooooooooooooo fatigued. mama tres tres tres fatigued.sigh.

you know the most boring part of the night is burping him , i know i ought to enjoy the moment, but at 3 am when your hubby is snoring away, and baby on your chest,you cant help but hope the 10 minutes of burping pass faster. remember i used to say i day dream away to pass time, ...i have done it already savoured the time spent with dylan , daydream...now i just wish no more night feeds....hiak.