Oooh man, i feel like screaming, crying, sleeping, eating and shopping. I am in such a flux that i dunno what to do, highly irascible and very very grouchy. I was awake at 1 am ... Dylan cried intermittenly till 2 am till time for feed then after that still found it uncomfortable to sleep. up all da way till 5/ 6am and he has to sleep on my chest cause he cries in his sleep and startles.Oh dammit. is he teething cause i cant feel any goddamn teeth , hiya i do know teeth dun just pop out like that, it is a process, but I NEED AN ANSWER!!!! why he cries! HE CAN BE SLEEPING THEN WAKE UP CRYING. AND WANTING TO PUT HAND IN MOUTH. like this means teething right? went through all the checklist for teething. and HE MEETS ALL. so means teething right? SOB SOB.

and then i feel so frustrated at night that i am the only person who can really pacify him . i mean of course besides my maid. but MAID IS AN OUTSIDER! i wish my hubby sometimes could take over at night, i feel so exhausted. really, even though i dun need to work, but still. and he does not understand the importance of dylan sleeping with us at night and why i firmly refuse to let dylan sleep w maid unless i am at my wits end. I know hubby tries, he tries, i can see, , and how to blame him? poor thing. then still have to work tomorrow.He already tried!!! BUT it just wun make dylan stop crying and i end up snapping at him and make me feels so horrid. sigh. i dun want to snap but i just cannot help it i think he thinks i am a horrible person, sigh. when you are so exhausted, groggy and yeah coughing....


AND MY MOTHER IN LAW. another one. i mean ya she offers to help take care of dylan at night then you know what this meansZ? this means maid take care cause she also dunno how to make maid sleep. wah lau. do you know she literally passes Dylan over to maid immediately when he fusses and say " tadau tadau....cannot cannot make sleep" TRY LA! learn la! YOU want to carry then learn la! not that i dun let you carry also, unless you carry at wrong times.


OH do i sound like i am whining? TOO BAD. i cant help it. i dun let off some steam , i will go nuts i tell you . ok, but good thing is that dylan recovered from viral fever that he caught on sunday. i actually tot i would have good sleep after end of that but ....hiak apparently not.


Am going to paragon to vitakids. trying homeopathy for teething... trying. trying....let;s just not give up ok? tahan tahan..