i feel tiny. i look at facebook and i get so envious and sad at what i am missing out .i look at my nice clothes in my cupboard, i cant flaunt. wear at home, siao ah.i wish i was not preggie and with a kid, but then again i look dylan so much , i must take my words back. no no, dun worry , i aint going thru depression , just lamenting again, if you decide to skip reading, go ahead. oh ya, mom , if you read my blog, can you keep your comments to yourself? i have enough as it is in the day with dylan already, even if you mean well, i would rather not hear. i big ger liao. only when i ask you for help , then you comment hor.


anyway. i miss hk BIG TIME. wah lau. i should have done more when i was staying there, now i miss things like going to races, trekking, junk boat stuff, well, sometimes i wish my hubby is more outgoing so we can do stuff together. but hiya, he loves to NUA. so how.i go alone ah. till date, still have not gone clubbing with him. good gracious.maybe i wait for dylan to grow up to 18 , then i go mambo with him. hahaha. i be 40 plus then. still can make it la huh...




what i am thankful for is that i have the option of not needing to work , i know some mummies preggie liao, with kids at home , still have to work for diaper money, so i must be grateful, but still, it is really boring at home, i need new hobbies, thinking of picking up reading again, gotta find my zest back. one hand turn page, one hand pat dylan. hahaha. aint it perfect hor.i can go out work if i want to, but i dun trust others to look after him. especially when he is grouchy, wait the maid or caregiver abuse him, i sure will blame myself one. so trust no one but me, so SACRIFICE, SACRIFICE.....



i really must do some thingS before i regret it. meanwhile it is waiting for dylan to grow up to 2 / 3 years old and then the activities' choices will be more..:)


old hobbies/ old me: jazz piano, learning languages jap and french,shopping. tot of taking masters.


NOW hobbies/me in transition: hahaha, shopping stays, jazz piano later, languages can take a back step first, now must do reading. watch korean drama( a la mode la housewife)Now, can screw studying... haha, sleep not enough, how to study?!!?No intention to look for new job and start from beginning, except to teach and save up. anyway, money talks.


must do before 40: go Paris, spain, ibiza and club, NZ, states, master my french, jap can be kissed goodbye, dun have patience to learn the honorific terms.... watch dylan grow up and share my hobbies with him. play a duet with him????!!!!???