The piano is finally here. Ian could not concentrate on his tuition on wednesday as he kept looking at it and asking me when he could have a go at it. so i left the last 20 mins for him.l Taught him what was Middle C and Treble clef. ..

getting heavier this week. and i realise i can walk far no more. my right leg will ache and tingle if i even inch forward if i am really tired. sometimes standing requires more than necessary effort. and if i am sitting down or so , i need to pull some support to get up . argh argh argh.
went to Tsim sha tsui on fri after school w jh after we did her curtains, almost died as the whole place after we exited from the MTR was filled with weird indians. I dun mind normal ones , but some of them really look dodgy and you have indians of all kinds, like from Arab, the Norths, beggarish looking ones, mad looking ones, one of them stared at my stomach and kept mumbling, i wanted to HIT him or smack his face. sorry for sounding so violent nowadays, cant control that. but who cares. after we survived the indian tsunamis, we finally arrived at the dim sum place. wow. S-H-I-O-K......ate like 12 dishes and the bill came to about 208 hk....damn cheap. but jh's cousin paid for it and refused to accept payment from us.

walked around a bit and was getting really tired, and bought DKNY apple parfum and MIRACLE eau de toilette. cheap. each like 30 plus SG.

http://www.hld.com/english/property/localsales/island/CentreStage/index_e.html

also went to jh and thomas place today... The centrestage. the place is neat, the toilet is big:) but the fridge is weird. itis very tall, you need a stool to reach thte top..

Tried to embed imeem inside. but seems futile

been on half days till Monday cause the school is having examinations......anyway. who is complaining..:P

Had a ache on my pelvis( both sides) last night, was worried. dunno if it was braxton hicks contractions. no one told me, and the books din write much . they say it is not suppose to hurt , just tightening of the uterus and it is not suppose to be periodically. but mine keeps repeating.....was so damn worried. got up and searched the net. and the net says if it is accompanied by pain( which mine was not really) it could be pre term labour....well done zhai zhai. make mummy cannot sleep...

anyway. sleepiness won the battle and i tried to sleep and could not sleep well though cause i have to lie on my left side and my shoulder really ache, and when i turn to my right side, zhai zhai jab my rib with his kick. ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGHHHH. angry!!!!


and in the middle of the night, dear dear knocked onto me accidentally , waking me up again , and i could not go back to sleep without my string. ...we looked and looked , only to find it on my upper body, camoflaged by my brown sweater i was wearing......and after that......i was woken up again!!!! by snores......argh...........u all trying to train me for zhai zhai is it huh!!? i have had not a good sleep since i was pregnant....:(

anyway . quite amazingly , biosensors rose up to 85 cents yesterday, din drop today. well done. ....continue your good work and rise to 98 cents so i can sell u off and get back my money. damn u , vested in you for so long but you never rise. and then have to wait so long .

waiting for CSM to hit 1.55 and miif to break past 1.10 resistance. you old man. but luckily you never fall down. good. walk slowly and steadily up the staircase ok? Sem marine too, cant wait for your dividend liao, you move up too fast.by the time you reach 3.6 plus, you will drop, me dun want that just cause of your $115.


oh ya by the way dear, if you are reading this......arent you sorry about labroy marine , china energy , and asl marine huh:PPPPP


okie that is what a pregnant woman with nothing to do , will do......everyday. blog, look at stocks, look at people's blog, sleep , and eat. dun ask me to read. i can never finish a book . dunno why. i used to be such an avid reader. not now. and i dun believe in reading fiction. what is the point when it is fake? waste of time. and dear dear recommended war genre. uuuuuuuucks! i rather you summarise and tell me.

i worry what i will do during confinement. i told myself i will knit, and revise my french again. but i dunno if i can stick to that. ....i will turn cuckoo if i watch tv everyday you know. i need to work . arghhhhh. sigh. i must not work for one year.... but deep in side i want toooooooo!!!!!!!!!!! but no one to look after zhai zhai.. cannot cannot.dun trust those fillipinas and dunno what.

Good......good ....good...

1) Aim low and buy. and how to aim low? wait.....wait.....patience.... ahaha used to lack of it and just buy and got stuck . now i know. might seem simple. aim low. but you really gotta control ur emotions.

2) Buy a whole chunk of it. not just 1 or 2 lots.

3) Be willing to cut losses if you make the wrong decision.

4) Never buy anything lesser thank 90 cents. and never buy anything whose PE ratio is in doubt.

5) Dividend play. Again . buy a whole chunk but reliable stock.Again, must aim low.

6) Wada said this: buy on rumour , sell on news. Dun chase.If already uptrend, no point getting in. Just like no point eating a half eaten cake.

7) Never never never contra.


Csm, Miif and Utac... u better rise more tommorow. I want to hit 90 but end of this year.or at least 20 % returns.
Aac. u unreliable boyfren. Cant wait to get rid of u when u reach a certain age.

My dear hubby:


Thank you for being here always. Listening to my grouses, taking my shit , when i go crazy , or behaving bizzarely when i am mad, my curses and witches voodoo, my messiness everywhere,for giving me most of the bed , for giving me the better comforter,for giving way to me when i want to use the lap top, for letting me control the remote .................... and i am sure the list goes on.

I love your singing sessions w Mr ipod, and i never fail to be amazed how u can play the same computer game over n over again, and how ManU can affect u so deeply, amazed at how u think the washing machine works, ................. and the list goes on


Your wama.

My top 8 fears about pregnancy:

1) Will I get to the hospital in time?
2) Can I really do a natural birth without epidural?
3) Will my asthma hinder me?
4) Will Zhai zhai be healthy and heavy enough?
5) I really want to look after zhai zhai myself without the help of a maid, but i am torn in between financial
independence and him too. Ideally a) I get a weekend job for a few hours that gives me abt 1 k a month
b) I teach from home a few hours , per hour 50 bucks and hire a part time maid to look after zhai zhai while i
teach.
6) Is wada really ready to be a father, he has not even started reading the book!!!!! All that he has been doing is just hearing what i said.:(
7) Will zhai zhai be a good baby ? I hope he does not disturb dear dear from his sleep.
8) I also hope it does not put a financial strain on dear dear.

Not in a very good mood...

Children of the below attributes should be kidnapped and chopped up and sold to the 3rd world and eaten up.

1) Children who lie repeatedly
2) Children who cant keep quiet
3) Children who are lazy
4) Children who dont concentrate in class
5) Children who shout across anywhere that is not for play time.
6) Children who are inconsiderate to the rest.
7) Greedy children
8) Children who interrupt
9) Children who day dream in class
10 ) Children who are not self-disciplined.

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I of course must make sure Ethan does not grow up to have any of that. Will make him understand. and learn. He will be a good boy and i always believe, it starts from the home.
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Have been pleased with the market. Ks and Big are picking up slowly and CSM, MIIF, UTAC, SMM are growing growing growing. ya. Kepp up the good work ok. eat more grow more.

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My face has been looking like shit. i think i wanna buy Elizabeth arden peel and reveal and prevage for the eyes later. sigh. dunno why the 4 spots always concentrate on the left cheek ...What did i do man.....:(

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• i think the process of becoming rich makes me happier than if i were already rich.

Anyway . i am 56.6 kg today. probably it is because i had alot to eat for dinner today. I cut off my long hair today to a bob. hehe. now i feel so much lighter and dun need to worry about confinement..... sigh. But the main deal was to make the bloody haircut worth the money ....450 hk. for a trim???? over my dead body ....so i thought, might as well just change my entire hairstyle :)

Went to Zara.. to try on my yellow dress.... tempted to buy it, it was the last piece, but on second thoughts, i thought i looked like BIg bird FROM sesame street. haha. so i left it alone:) walked around and hoping dear finish on time, settled at star bucks for a hot chocolate and darkchocolate and cherry cake. yum yum. sitting beside me was this couple whos has a new born. of course i kept looking at the baby.... before they left the guy asked me.... " expecting? " i said yup, that was why i kept looking at them . :) he said that i could pass his wifey my email but i kindly declined...:)

http://franklypregnant.blogspot.com/2006_05_01_franklypregnant_archive.html

This is one hell of a blog. so funny . hehehehe

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Anyway, zhai zhai hiccup like 3 times since this morning...once at 8 45 am , next at 12 plus, next at 4 plus. poor boy. i wonder how does amnoitic fluid taste like? .......:( poor boy...

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Put up my wedding photos at friendster and got me share of congrats from friends who i did not manage to invite cus it was such a small event.:( But i do regret not inviting some of my frens. i dunno what happened to me. i am such an idiot!! hehe. anyway, that is no big deal Zhai zhai is all tt matters to me now anyway. And what piss me off is an email from ***** saying that what, he does not need to WAIT anymore blah blah. What the hell? i din ask him to wait wat!!IT IS LIKE EATING SOUR GRAPES OR WHAT. and i am pretty sure i din give him any signals! Cmon.... you said tt you move on, and so why should you send sms the first few months i was in hk even when i dun reply. and cmon, if your r/s with the tyrant had worked out , you would not even be thinking abt me. WHAT DO YOU THINK I AM ? A SPARE TIRE???!!!! There must a reason why **** had been so paranoid about you........???.

Brings me back to the Cherry and terence incident. i think some guys just need to be told in the freaking face : No , dun waste your time. No point being nice or just ignore them . you ignore them , they think you are being coy.... stupid aint it? maybe it is their way to deceive themselves. I know how Cherry feels, but certainly i think tt DICK---- the guy who likes cherry. pardon me, is not much as good as Terence's character.People are getting married you know. ...WHat are you trying to do by smsing so late, and asking qns.Tsk. anyway. not interested in any other of these sort of stupid guys. ugh. still think i am most fortunate.of course dear dear is not a hundred percent puuuuurfect, but at least he does not have those vices. ( maybe except gambling) :) hahaha. and i think he certainly has improved on his temper. good boy...pat pat.

Asparagus Soup

Asparagus is the most regal of vegetables and the treat of spring. Snap the woody bottom from the stalk wherever it wants to break. Asparagus helps the cook - wherever it wants to snap will be the right spot.

1 pound fresh asparagus
3 pints cold water
4 tablespoons butter
4 tablespoons flour
1 cup cold chicken broth
1 cup cold heavy cream
4 tablespoons sour cream
2 teaspoons corn starch (or potato starch)
1 egg yolk
1 tablespoon chopped parsley
5-6 tablespoons cold water
salt and ground white pepper to taste

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METHOD

Cut off asparagus heads with about 1/2 inch of stalk. Cook in 3 pints salted water for two minutes.

Remove with slotted spoon, and set aside, reserving liquid.

Cut remaining stalks into inch long pieces. Boil in reserved water until tender. Remove, still reserving liquid. Puree, using a food mill or food processor.

Melt butter. Whisk in flour and cook until golden brown. Whisk in 1 cup chicken broth and 1 cup cream, mix well and add around 2 pints reserved asparagus water along with asparagus puree. Put cooked asparagus heads into soup and bring to low boil.

In a small bowl mix sour cream, 2 teaspoons corn starch, egg yolk, chopped parsley with 5 tablespoons cold water until smooth.

Remove soup from heat and let sit for 4 - 5 minutes. Stir cream mixture to soup and stir to combine well. Return to heat and simmer over low heat. Do not boil.

Season with ground white pepper and salt.

What you neeed:
1 plastic drop cloth
1 jar petroleum jelly
1 pair gloves
3-4 rolls plaster casting material (each 4" x 5 yards)
1 sanding screen

You will also need:
Basin of room-temperature water
Chair
A helper

You may also want:
1 paintbrush
1 bottle gesso finishing material
Other craft supplies for decorating your cast

How it works:
A belly cast is created by applying several layers of wet plaster strips to the front of your body. After the strips have set, they will hold your shape and the cast will come away from your body and you will have a permanent record of your pregnant shape!

........My kid brought a knife to school today..... And when asked why, he said because he wanted to use it for lunch , to eat steak................Enough said...

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Bought 7 lots of CSC today... cross my fingers cause i want to sell of the freaking other shares like kingboard and KS energy. ugh. anyway. i am so stupid for cityspring. i did not factor in the brokerage fee for selling. ugh and MMP reit. soooooooo stupid. how can i be so stupid. ugh. it is very little money but i am so angry at myself for being so stupid cause i can actually hold the stock lor, i paid up liao. ugh.

anyway. Cosco shot up today. ugh. so disgusting. always buy wrong stock.dun have the touch of Midas. haha.

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zhai zhai is doing his rounds in my tummy again. love u love u love u.

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On the way home on the bus, i learnt stg. .....not to travel w so many people . too many cooks spoil the broth, especially when i am one who likes to tell people where to go on a holiday.. hmmm. travel as in vacation la. Met this grp of sporeans on the bus, they asked me for directions. then i told them , they could take a tram , or a bus, of course i seconded the tram as you are on a holiday, u shld indulge a bit hor.... but one ger kept asking if the bus will lead them there directly, i said. well...it states THE PEAK..... but i am not tt sure:) hehe.( actually i am lying---i knows it does go to the peak) but why the bus.. anyway. i left the 7 of them deciding between the 2 choices and i went up to pacific place 3 back home.

only to stare at the real life quotes......

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Stg tt only eccentric japs can think of.....

la vie...... vie... can be quite challenging most times....
why God cant just make everyone the same? Does he think our lives will be much more interesting with more characters around? sigh.

called mom last nite to tell her i am on the way to airport, could sense stg happened at hm. ---she quarrelled w my bro.

and this morning i called her again . to find out wat happened. Apparently she was just sick and tired of my brother's demeanour and his mentality and so started nagging and nagging. then she called him stupid. and it drove him mad....so he grabbed her arm. well. cant comment much. i have been in my brother's predicament before... so i dun blame him . yet i know my mom means well , but she does not know how to drive the point across.....and she always like to cause unhappiness with what she say just because she is not happy w her children. ....there was one point in time in my life tt i wanted to even commit matricide....so you can imagine how bad is that... that is why i refuse to continue to stay w her after 21.

She caused me so much hurt and pain. i bet she is feeling that too. but i dun understand why wld a mother wan her children to feel miserable if she is miserable herself...i certainly wun do tt to my child. i thank god for letting me witness all these so tt i dun repeat such mistakes myself.... :(
sigh. there was this book i read once----the world is made up of positive and negative people. and one's job is just to fill up your life w positive people.....and stay away from the negative. my mom belongs to the latter. after i read the book , i saved my own life . i still think i am very strong to go thru such shit during JC times and uni.... i still remember tt i lugged my piles of clothes to school to put in the counsellor room so she wun throw them away. she was like tt. she know she cant hurt me by words at times, so she wants to hurt me by hurting my possessions... i wish she had another outlet....and then in Uni... she was always making remarks at me. like how come i kept studying so hard. sacarstic remarks like" study so hard, should be study last minute. how to pass" and i shut her up by telling her. well i am not studying to pass---but for an A .

:( ANGST.

Anyway. maybe tt is why my dad left. it takes 2 hands to clap in a marriage. true enough the greater fault lies w him but i guess maybe my mom had a part in her own crime too.

and then .... even till now. she keeps hearing news abt like my dad bought houses in malaysia and tt Joanne is younger than her.. blah blah. well i tell her. shut up . dun tell me anytg cause i dun feel happy listening to it. tt is my policy . if i dun wanna hear and i know it will affect me. dun be stupid to listen. just tell the person. and so.... she was miserable after hearing it and she was angry tt i dun wanna listen to her. well. it is my coping mechanism. if i still take in the news, ( which i already know) what for.....not as if i can do anytg. All i wanna do is just make sure Dad pays for my bro 's school fees. well ...it is his responsibility. and it is my bro;s responsibility to find out abt the form..... sigh. burdens. burdens...my parents never really helped much in my life seriously. maybe only when i was young. and i can count the incidents... if i can count . then it can be quite sad rite?

so is it possible to be a cold blooded person? i dunno... what i mean is to be this stoic person devoided of any feelings towards your close ones... i guess this is gonna be my path tt i will train myself to take. i will not be upset. just like today . after putting down the phone and retaliating by saying-- you this kind of mother, die already, also i wun cry. ... i will not be so weak when handling her anymore. no. no. i give up. Poor eugene. too bad you are stuck w her cause you are not as strong as me to stand up to her and tell her to stop.just fugging stop.

i am so bloody BIG!!!!!!! today....i weigh a hefty 55 kg and i feel like my ribcage is being crushed. but it feels nicer hugging the tummy now and i love zhai zhai....endure endure. and 3 months ---- mar april may .....sigh.

cant believe i typed my resignation letter and i lost it!!!! sigh. Being careless is part of being pregnant but cant believe tt i am tt careless huh....

tonnes of work and i just cant do it. :( cause i am so lazy also . :( tommorow is Sports day. have to go to aberdeen stadium. ugh. What is a preggie woman doing there man...

:( i feel so bloated. my stomach is bloated right up to the boobs.it is even bigger than a basketball. and zhai zhai seems to kick everywhere now. sometimes he kicks high up where the rib cage is near....and sometime he tickles me, i suspect sometimes he somersaults inside....... really ....is it fun to be inside fluid doing such stuff???? :X
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BUT AT LEAST i know he is growing. and i am a happy mama. ate broccoli and beef for dinner tonight. viet pho noodles. cheap and good . and now staying up to wait for the bird's nest to cook while gorging on chunky kit kat. have a craving for sweet stuff nowadays......
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sian ....have work tommorow and that means i have to wake up at 6 thirty again....drag myself to toilet , wash my face and boil the water... eat my vits, drag myself to change and then drag my ass out to catch a cab to happy valley to wait for the school bus. Then i will see Doreen the first school kid. Not a good thing. i dun like her.She is a naughty girl and does not pay attention. and sometimes bullies Ryan. So i dun even smile when i see her. ugh. yeah i know ....i am a teacher. but i practise favourtism yeah as far as i try my best not to.......:P cant be help . i am human.
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Alright.......i made it through parents day on sat. was the first teacher who finished talking to all the parents....( 30 ) in total... one mom broke down in front of me cause her son did badly in chinese...( well, i dun teach it) ...and cause i said something touching to her son, knocked some sense out of him. let's see if it will last. boy will be boys.... late to mature and playful.and after i finished the talk, i sneaked out of the school , not even returning to the staff room, so i dun meet anyone. supposed to stay till 3pm....whaddafug... tt's crazy and makes no sense ya. i have finished my job. and off i will go. ......


i weigh 54 kg today.

Bump botherers
Pregnant? Now everyone owns your tummy - and knows exactly what's in it
I remember being in a Woolies queue when eight-months pregnant with my first son, Joe.
"Oooh, you are pregnant!" The woman in front of me beamed encouragingly. Genius. For a brief second, I thought she was going to slap a gold star on my forehead.
"Hah... yes," I mumbled distractedly, scanning the sweetie aisles caging us together, looking for a possible exit. But no, escape was impossible. Clearly Beamy Woman took my inability to vault waist-high shelves of confectionery as a sign of submission, so she took the opportunity to give my bump a good bothering.

"Ah," she said with a nod of unassailable authority, after having patted my bump from every conceivable angle. "You are carrying high. It's clearly a girl." She nodded sagely to everyone else in the queue. Many others nodded sagely back.

"Actually, it's a boy," I blurted out, defensively straightening my preggie shirt. "I have had a scan. Two scans, actually, and a 15-minute video. I have penis footage. It's definitely a boy."
My bump botherer went from beamy to thin-lipped. She glared at me as if I had said something nasty about her lineage.

"Ha!" she retorted, angrily. "Modern technology – who trusts it? No, it's definitely a girl. Mark my words." And with that rather ominous rejoinder, she gave my bump one last smug pat and wheeled herself off to the next vacant cashier... just before I brained her with my quarter-watermelon.

What is it about being pregnant that morphs your body into common property? It's hard enough actually being a human incubator without everyone treating you like one. It's enough to turn the meekest mommy-to-be into a watermelon-wielder.

Get a bun in your oven and the rest of the world pulls on baker's mitts. You'll be petted on buses, patted in queues, clucked at in lifts and patronised by sales staff. I had total strangers swing rings on chains over my belly and mad great aunts rhythmically rub my tummy as if it were a treasured talisman. And all this before my gynae even got a look in.

One of the things I find bizarre is how many people assume a heavily tummied person is pregnant. I mean, surely this often ends in tears? (When six months pregnant with my second son, Ben, I experimented with this idea. Every time a stranger asked me when I was due I said, "Actually, I just had a very heavy lunch." And then held eye contact and watched 'em squirm. Ha. Hey, it's hard for a pregnant chick to get her kicks.)
So what is the best way to handle bump botherers? I have a
bsolutely no advice. And with this admission... comes another. I bumped into my heavily pregnant friend, Mary, the other day. What is the first thing that I did? "Do you think it's a boy or a girl?" I squealed, beamingly. "Do you know yet? You have a baby in your tummy! Can I touch it? Can I? Can I?"

Mary looked at me, lips pursed. "Listen to yourself," she scolded.
I recoiled in embarrassment. "Well... I just love pregnant tummies," I mumbled. "They draw one's hand, like a magnet. You just have to touch pregnant tummies."
And therein lies the issue. Perhaps the reality of carrying a baby is so huge that you aren't supposed to be able to keep it to yourself. The joyfulness, the excitement... we are preprogrammed to experience these as a community. At least, that's what I've decided to tell Mary when next I reach out hopefully.......

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Just an article which i can identify with...anyway it is really a pet peeve when you have all these hands over your tummy when you are pregnant.

i dun mind friends. Besides they always ask, so i am perfectly alrite but not certain people!!!!!and u know what? they dun even ask u permission. dammit. i have this student who used to use a finger to touch it like poking it. damn irritating. and i told her off. and this morning i have another student who exclaimed: ms elaine, how come your tummy is smaller? I was so pissed off that i snapped : you better shut up. next time dun say this. i know i could have put it in a better way especially to a kid, but sometimes you are so sick being politically correct when you are a teacher. argh. and how like u aint suppose to swear when u are preggie and blah blah...... but people should really be more sensitive....:(
agh forget it.

anyway UTAC rebounded today and STAT shot up till 1.83 but i had already taken profit at 1.62. dammit. anyway sold off UTAC at 0.91 after buying it yesterday at 0.82. not bad huh. just within 24 hours.

okie waiting for dear dear to finish up so i can eat. Yeah...eat again . * yawn *