had stupid meeting in school which is very disorganised and went on till 5 thirty. damn and it is dark already cus it is winter. shared cab back with colleagues ....went home to discover the delivery man came at 10 thirty . of course i would not be home. i immediately called them to lash out at them . stupid fool., i already indicated in the evening. and who will be home in the morning. dammit. and i demanded they come the next day instead when they suggested wed. damn damn. luckily my cantonese is improving.so i can scold people. good training.

have big headache.....another point before i sleep . i must not pass my kid to my mom to look after when i have given birth.....mad at her. dun think she will be a good grandma.whole day just think of money!ironically i still love her. i hate the feeling when i am suppose to hate someone. yet i cant do so. dammit. stupid mom.