Things are getting better day by day. My mom came over this morning bringing a bouncer so we can put zhai zhai on it to sun .... unfortunately...it rained, so the sunlightwas not that strong. ...Anyway ,i noticed a bad habit of his today. He likes to fall asleep while suckling...and then wake up a few minutes later crying to suckle again....hmmm. but boy aint i am glad to let him in a way, in this way the boobies dun feel so choked and hard. lol



Yeah.....i am worried about his jaundice level . the last time was yesterday , that it peaked to 199. i dunno but i hope it will go down . I have been diligently recording down his pee, poo and drinking sessions.... made sure he is fed 3 hourly and he does wet his diapers to at least 6 , 7 times... sigh. Dun tell me not to be worried... as a mother, how can i not be?

anyway. i regretted hiring this confinement lady ...she is this traditional type who asks alot of questions about my family, trying to curry favour me , and naggy. Should have hired one from thomson medical instead. But i do appreciate i do have someone to help and not needing to pay.so i am not suppose to complain so much.* shrug*



My mother in law is also getting on my nerves. i am trying to hold my cool really regarding the practices involving the baby... like she will go to the market and ask this ask that, and want to try it out on the baby, well , her intentions are good, but i mean..... it's just not right. Just like giving baby to drink water first if he wakes up and not his feeding time. I told her it is not right cause it can upset the sodium level in babies and cause a seizure... but then she keep insisting... bloody hell. Till that day when she brought zhai to the clinic to check his jaundice level, i told her to ask the doc....and presto.. it worked.

I feel so horrid. i am caught in between . She keeps using the phrase" He is your son , but he is also my grandson..." till i am quite sick of it. i mean yes, it is true. but arent i the one who carried him around for 9 months? and had an operation for him? Good gracious.... i can understand the fact that she is proud that it is her first grandson....but she ought to respect my wishes.That is my stand.



Also i feel bad enough that i am not paying for the helper...so i dun wanna voice out too much about what food i think i should eat. It is lucky that dear has an option of moving back to SG....or i think w/o him i think i cant hold it in for long.. i am even reconsidering staying with the inlaws in future...


on a better note... zhai zhai had his first laugh today. he was being held by the c.day after feeding , my mom and the maid were ard him, and then all of a sudden he started laughing... or chuckles more like it... then everyone started laughing....immediately his laugh turned into a frown.....hehe isnt it funny? :D