Alrighty :D Dear is coming home tommorow evening and I am going into the hospital on Sat morning...If i react well to the drug, I will get to see my baby as early as Saturday...If not, it will be Sunday...Dont really know what to expect, but i am not afraid of the labour pains, Not that i am concluding too early, but all i want is for my baby to be safe:D

Here is my list:
1) I hope baby gets an Apgar score of 2 , gives me a loud lusty cry :)
2) I hope baby has no /little jaundice--and perfectly healthy.
3) I hope to have a successful latch- on with the little one.
4) I hope baby and mummy to be out of the hospital by day 2.

On top of that, hope that dear gets to video tape the whole process, and that he gets to cut the cord ;D....( Provided he does not faint...) lol..

Will post pictures of my baby up soon. Cya! Lots of love, Elaine mama

( Thanks to baby-gaga for the pictures, really brillant job)

U know wat i dread most everyday?-------------That is when night falls and i cant get to sleep.

Sleep in incredibly difficult nowadays, and i thank God it is only 2 more nights of such...I should actually enjoy and savour it now... I was trying ( as usual) for the past hour to sleep before giving up and going to the lap top... Come to think of it i do love to lie on the bed( provided my side aint aching) and talk to my baby in the stomach, stroking the fat lump on the left and feeling the warmth. Telling him to be a strong boy and that he will see mama soon. Occasionally he responses with an arm or limb;) I really do hope KKH allows us to video the birth process . If not i will turn into a bitch on top of my labour pains....

Sigh. also.... everynight, i dread the fluttering of wings sound.. i just heard tt , that is why i am sleeping w the lights on tonight. Insects just seem to love this room. Absolutely hate it....and roaches just like to fly in no matter how many pandan leaves i have in the room. Maybe the maid aint doing her job......well. No wonder, my mother in law always complain that this maid is lazy....Better get her to thoroughly clean the whole room before baby is back. Dun wanna any dust mites man....:(

Another grievance for tonight....i am starting to forget how i look like....i lie in the bed and start to recall ----and to my horror , i cant remember how i look like...Pregnancy is a blessing indeed, but somehow , you lose your identity and a new one is forced upon you... I cant dye my hair, cant rebond it , cant find my ankles, and my waist went MIA......even then ,i am grateful that the whole pregnancy had been quite smooth. No nauseous , i din even puke a bit, no complications, no back ache till the last few weeks, ( even then it is sporadic rather than constant) --Only complaints i had were heartburns for a couple of night, have to pee often, having to sleep on my left side, and my swollen feet... which i think are all very minor issues compared to others. And really , i am very grateful ....the closure to this pregnancy is coming and i am pretty much happy rather than excited ... I look forward to having my body back, I look forward to holding my baby, I look forward to teaching him about this world, and I look forward to this whole learning journey. I wonder if dear feels the same-----or is he still in his lala land..but luckily he has never failed me..

Alrite folks....Here is the deal....just came home from KKH from my checkup... blood pressure is slowly creeping in, protein is present in me pee:( so doc say to induce my labour. Sigh. My cervix aint dilated ---just a finger tip hahaha...But during the CTG , my darling had a very good heart beat rate reaction towards a contraction.( which i din even know i had, lol) ...good job Mr zhai...:D

And back to story, Dr Yam wans me to be induced cause blood pressure monster in creeping in and my feet is swollen....not really good, moreover Mr Zhai is full term...I feel kinda excited to be able to see him alas! Relieved for dear ---he does not need to panicked when i will go into labour, but also now worried ---i am afraid , i will put Mr zhai in distress cause he is all so comfy in me stomy... but all being said:) I must say the overall mood is happy.

I hope familiy and friends pray for us mother and child to be safe.:D

I think i am going crazy. I talk to my stomy the whole day long. When i lie down to rest and i see the stomy not moving, i dare not shift around in case i wake Mr Zhai up. Am i crazy or what?

Anyway.....i dated my mom and brother ( not the best companions around tho...) to town to accompany me . I wanted to eat and shop, and i guess, i am left w them . Jh in hk , the rest of me frens i rather meet and sit down to chat over coffee than shop when i preggie. Cause i am a quick shopper. I am more like a guy when i buy something. I dun walk around in circles around the piece of cloth ten times before i decide to buy---but hey , that does not mean that i spend alot. I am a discerning shopper.....( that's more like it) . So far, i have not met gf who shops as fast as me. hehehe. Anyway. back to today, i wanna bitch about the fashion designs around town now.

I AM SICK AND TIRED OF THOSE STUPID RETRO PRINTS OF CIRCLES AND STRIPES AND SQUARES. C'MON .....THEY REALLY DRIVE ME DIZZY AND THEY ARE ABSOLUTELY THE UGLIEST PRINTS I EVER SEEN ON EARTH.

yeah....not nice. Walked in wisma an isetan, and well that's about all i can sustain ....and nothing really caught my fancy. I prefer simple solid colours. If you wanna have prints, have it simple. ---That is what making a statement. Anyway....i am the walking credit card to mom and bro today... treated them to lunch, then bought mom 2 tops and myself a dress from zara. It is those kind of big, satiny ones, that you have to put a belt over...so that means after pregancy...see how much i want to be over this preggie thing ???Cant wait to have my body back. Sometimes i get so frustrated...i cant wear my shoes, i cant bend down , i cant wash my feet properly, i cant cut my toe nails myself( i dun believe in pedi---waste of money. ) if i drop stg , i have to use my feet and pick it up like some disabled---or like playing chatek , using the feet to scoop it up and hoping i catch it---and i talk to my stomach...really guys, i think i am going crazy. Bebe better come out soon... okie. I cant believe i lasted through a month without working. ugh. Next week i will officially be 38 weeks:D baby is more than ready...Let's see my docs appt on tues..How it goes..* cross my fingers*

Read the story below....It must be one of the most innocent and funniest birth story ever...:D



One day during a show and tell session in school, this little girl, Erica, a very bright, very outgoing kid, takes her turn and waddles up to the front of the class with a pillow stuffed under her sweater.She holds up a snapshot of an infant. "This is Luke, my baby brother, and I'm going to tell you about his birthday.""First, Mom and Dad made him as a symbol of their love, and then Dad put a seed in my Mom's stomach, and Luke grew in there. He ate for nine months through an umbrella cord."


She's standing there with her hands on the pillow, and I'm trying not to laugh and wishing I had my camcorder with me. The kids are watching her in amazement."Then, about two Saturdays ago, my Mom starts saying and going, 'Oh,Oh,Oh,Oh! ' Erica puts a hand behind her back and groans. "She walked around the house for, like an hour, 'Oh, oh, oh!' (Now this kid is doing a hysterical duck walk and groaning.)"


My Dad called the middle wife. She delivers babies, but she doesn't have a sign on the car like the Domino's man. They got my Mom to lie down in bed like this." (Then Erica lies down with her back against the wall.)"And then, pop! My Mom had this bag of water she kept in there in case he got thirsty, and it just blew up and spilled all over the bed, like psshhheew!" (This kid has her legs spread with her little hands miming water flowing away. It was too much!)



Then the middle wife starts saying 'push, push,' and breathe, breathe.They started counting, but never even got past ten. Then, all of a sudden, out comes my brother. He was covered in yucky stuff that they all said it was from Mom's play-center, so there must be a lot of toys inide there."Then Erica stood up, took a big theatrical bow and returned to her seat.

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Now wasnt that just brillant? Middle wife and umbrella cord. Lol.... By the way..... yesterday's tornado was not a Big T , rather....it was just a water spout....:)

.........Was deep in my slumber when the phone rang...., " They say Singapore has tornado! Did you see? " I was like huh.....??? Come to think of it, there is one in my stomach....

But.. surprisingly...there was Really a Tornado....show you the pix...Seems like Singapore is no longer that safe a place to live in anymore huh....

....So angry. Alan Greenspan should be called Alan Greenspank.....


Anyway, mama went to the docs today... Did a CTG to see if mr zhai giving me any contraction and check his heartbeat rate...Doc reported everything was good. Also as usual the head is engaged and then he is in the right position for birth. Hiya....that is provided Mr zhai does not shift around again ;P

oh and i hit 61 kg !!!!!:)

Then i ask him my tonnes of questions... i told him i must know what to do if this happens or if that happens cause i will be the only sane person at home that wun panick..I also told him i dun wanna just call the hospital and be directed to the operator....Hahahha. then he gave me his personal cellphone no. PHEW..... wonder if he gives it to all his patients anot , but that really sets my mind at ease. Anyway i think Mr zhai wun wanna come out soon , he is like so contented inside Mama.....Besides, i am supposed to get tonnes of Braxton hicks...but no lei... only sometimes in the day i feel very crampy :( BOO HOO........

Mama also went to buy 3 drama serials to watch at home at the suggestion of wadashi.. :) now. that makes a happy mama, at least it gives me something else to do rather than watching the stock market or be on msn or surf the net for clothes to buy . Lol.....

U see people....see what i told you about the power of PATENTS?????
Biosensors International said it has been granted the US patent for its A9 drug.... and then the price rose from 0.92 plus to 1.09......seeee!!!!!See the power of Patents!!!!?

Anyway finally got rid of the stupid share after 5 long months of wait. Ugh.

I have never liked pain that much in my whole life......

Last night, i had a few braxton hicks contractions, one of which lasted for quite a while..... and then i had 2 stabbing pain on my right tummy downwards...i felt soooooooo happy and excited, i thought," Ok.....get worse get worse!" But somehow i knew it would not....It wun come just like that for me. Mr Zhai is gearing me up for the Real McCoy..... lol...Anyway it has been getting incredibly difficult to sleep at night, Heavy little fellow inside, each time you turn , it is like lifting a rock from your left to the top of you tummy " rest for a while" then heave it to the right. hahahha. then you gotta adjust and make sure he gets the support if not he will start squirming....let alone those neck and shoulder ache w no dear to massage for me.And those false alarms to the toilet to pee. Mr zhai loves squeezing my bladder for fun ya know...Anyway... The highlight is the docs appt tommorow !!!! I hope i am effaced and dilated.....I can actually feel intense pressure downwards from my hips , down the pelvic.... hmmmmmm

Anyway....I bought stuff from Victoria's secrets to cheer myself up ... Teddies, babydolls, and 2 tube dress. No, no....not for post labour XXX action but just some stuff to make me happy. They will probably arrive on or after the arrival date of Mr Zhai..:)

ooooo. i have such a sweet tooth nowadays...been eating lots of the white chocolate oreo wafer sticks, hagaan daaz ice cream, strawberries( It's in season again!!!) and donuts.....hiya.better stop.not really good.


Something funny about Mr Zhai....he and i always take afternoon naps nowadays, but this happened twice already. In the midst of our sleep, if anyone calls on my cellphone, and i answer it, he will wake up and get the hiccups, and there,you can see my tummy vibrating .....Poor fellow. Does sudden movements cause hiccups too?


Finally bought Prevage for the eyes!!! I was reading the ingredients and usage again when i saw the PATENT word.....somehow. when something is patented , it gives it more credibility rite? But then again, 99% of the beauty products are patented...hmmmm

Dear Darling son or tenant at will:


You have 18 days in which you can either gather your belongings and vacate the premises, or wait until you will be forcibly removed from the property.
You are being evicted on two points. First, due to a breech of contract and destruction of property.

Expansion only to the front of the property, within reasonable limits, were discussed. Not only have these limits been exceeded, but additions to the back of the property were also made. Remodeling and gutting the property was never approved, nor was changing the initial layout and base structure. And due to property damage, there are now leaks in both upper and lower levels of the property.

Lastly, late night parties have been discovered on the property and are not greatly appreciated. I can't wait to see you, regardless of aforementioned greivances.



Your Loving Mother, Elaine
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Dear Loving Mother/Landlady,



I'm sorry for any disturbance I have caused. When I originally signed the contract, I was unaware of the enormous task of growing. I will try to control the late night partying but please know I expect you to join the party come mid-June, per the Feeding Clause in the contract .

While destruction of property and leaking seem to be the major cause of complaint, I fear they will only get worse in the days to come. I understand that this was not the original intent of my residence, but at this time we may need to revisit the terms of my lease. I fear that eviction at this time is not advisable as I am comfortable in here. Although lately things are getting tight. I am a Gan----We need our space.

In the Unconditional Love Clause in the contract, I must remind you that you are indeed stuck with me as a resident of your home for the period of several years subsequent to this. Thank you for your time and your body as housing!
I can't wait to be held by you and Daddy,

Your loving son/ and willful tenant, err...tenant at will,
Gan Kai Jie

Have you ever felt that you are willing to give up everything you have in your life --everything i mean, even your life...for someone? ----I asked dear this question in the car on our way back...

I dunno , all of a sudden then , i just felt an overwhelming feeling for my baby... It is a totally different feeling when you fall in love , and you thought that you will give up everything for him. But this time the feeling is slightly different.. I dunno how to describe it.. Is that maternal instinct? This feeling also evolves when you are married as compared to when you are only a boyfriend/ girlfriend status... Somehow, there is this strong will in you to keep everything together---A happy family.


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Has a sumptuous din din tonight w dear and frens. been a while since i had such nice company and food. I mean , usually i am stuck @ home in the room ..... We had the best of white steamed
promfet, spinach, chicken, sweet & sour pork , claypot toufu... yummm.....and later we went over to Big O for dessert. Another yum yum for the chocolate cheesecake--Cailin was rite. Really SWEET & GOOD.....Just what preggie mama is looking for......:D so That is what makes today a Happy Saturday....

Hiyo.....it really is hard to tell what one will become when one is older, cant imagine....One of my ex classmate is actually a singer now..She is even working with people from Lord of the Rings & Superman returns... Not bad huh?

Ong Yunyu....wonder if you heard of her, her songs are quite quirky and easy on the ears:) I do like the melody:) It is so unlike her in the past though....( Still pleasantly surprised!!! :O

Birds eye View of my school

Tokens of love from students on Teachers' Day

The Band i used to conduct--See the bassoon? I used to play that ;)

As much as i detest the principal with the frumpy grumpy look ......These memories cannot be eradicated...

I CANT FIND MY ANKLES ANYWHERE ON MY FEET!!!!!!

Could not sleep till 2 plus am last night, felt like i needed to puke. Din feel like heart burn when the acid will rise up my throat...and felt so miserable.. i tot i had food poisoning..:(. started to feel sorry for myself and that how i am all alone and wada not w me....sigh. BUT i managed to snap out of it, and get a grip. Told zhai zhai while caressing my stomach we both must get through it.. sms dear and he called back immediately. Hearing his voice is really comforting, though it din help the sick feeling...sigh. i slept up right and zhai zhai kept wriggling ard as if to show his discomfort too. Poor bebe, i must have woke up up , cus he was one warm lump slumped on my left before i sat up right , then it was when i started moving that he started squirming... I had to caress him and sooth him and he literally stopped moving:) Good bebe, he understands his mama. I love you so much already.

I killed my first Freaking cockroach !!!! At age 26!!!!! Good gracious, all my life there are always people around coming to my rescue...not tonight. And so preggie mama has to fight it out with the stupid cockroach with menacing wings and disgusting feelers..... can you imagine it spreading it wings , flying across your face, intruding your naked skin with its dirty , hairy legs......before flying off again.......oh my god....I told myself i will not be able to sleep in peace if that happens lor... and so....i ran downstairs , grab the baygone and aimed at the devil. Then when it was nearly knocked out by the potent stuff, i grabbed a heavy duty magazine and attacked it. .....Job done! Oh boy....i almost tot i had a contraction there.

I dun care if you think it is no big deal, to me, i think i just crossed another mile stone. Muaaaaaaahahhaha..:)

Nothing much to report today...Mr zhai rose up late with mama at 10 plus am...tried a cat nap in the afternoon but unsuccessful..and guess what when i am bored.. i shower. Shower is a good way to pass time i realise. Makes u fresh again. Lol...

Called up one of my old friends and good to hear her voice. Gonna catch up w her next week( i be 37 weeks!!!!) Apparently she delivered @ 36 weeks...oh man... why am i so slow huh..?I think Mr zhai is too contented inside me...

Let me see......we are almost done with the preparation for the arrival of Mr Zhai...:D

The bumwear diapers ( Above) just needs to be washed a few times for them to be optimally absorbent and that is it:) My hospital bag is also packed and baby's essentials are all bought:)

What we do not have is

1) A bouncer

2) A digital thermometer

3) A swaddle/grobag

4) A towel wrap --this one i will get during the next doctor's visit.

5) Pram---probably getting one only in hongkong , dont wanna lug everything back there.

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I was looking around and found this fisher-price bouncer.( Rainforest edition is the one in the picture...but if unavailable any bright and colourful ones w music and good from birth to a much older age is appreciated :P)..So ahem , frens and family , if you wanna get any gifts, pls dont buy any baby's clothes cus he will out grow them quickly:) Dont wanna see your gifts go to waste rite?

Check out this bouncer by Fisher Price Rainforest Bouncer-- easily found in Novena's United square 's www.mumsandbabes.com.sg or any Mothers care shop.Tee Hee...Besides they are having their singapore sale early.

Or you can get Mr Zhai a digital thermometer---Specifically Braun brand.--dun wanna squeeze anytg up his rectum you see. lol...Baby Einstein music, or rattles are also very much appreciated:P.

Oh ya, worse come to worse, you can get poor confined mama a very much wanted book called_--Secrets of a baby whisperer by Tracy Hoggs or Raising Boys--By Steve Biddulp.

*sob sob* i couldnt sleep last night. i had to force myself to watch TV till i became sleepy enough to ignore the mambo dancing inmy stomach...watchign tv has never been such a chore. i watched desperate housewives, to the local flick--after hours to beauty and the geeks...then even after it ended at 1 am..i still could not sleep..cause the party just got started inside..cried a little...and tried to soothe and calm baby down. then finally concussed---TOTALLY EXHAUSTED.My boy is certainly a late riser...it is 11 now.and he is still sleepin!!!!

God pls forgive me today for being impatient with mom when teaching her how to use the digital camera.....I did not mean to , but really was exasperated when she din even know the basic functions after teaching. Not that i am trying to redeem myself but i realise it makes me realise that she has indeed grown older. Age is catching up.... and she is definitely not in sync with technology. Even after getting the handphone for her for Mother's Day, she cant cope with all the silly jargon like blue tooth, nokia's dictionary, wall paper....She was so fascinated with the blue tooth function when i used it to send her some of my pix, and in spite of endless warnings not to turn it on herself, she did so. She even denied like a little kid in turning it on, or so called claimed she din even know that she turned it on ( dunno which one is more convincing) when i saw the blue tooth icon on the hand phone today, and chided her. Then i explained to her that turning bluetooth on is pointless unless u wanna obtain or send info from another phone or a pc...simple terms....Then it was like an epiphany for her.HAHAHA...;D....sigh. She is getting old... I am so sad.

ooooooooooo....Ladies and Gentlemen...I am proud to announce that Mr Zhai's head is about 2/5 engaged in my pelvis....:) Doctor did a cervical examination today and told me he could even touch the baby's head. lol...poor fellow squirm inside.. But there is no effacement or dialatation yet...hmmm . His words were: walk more, squat more but dont travel too far away from home by yourself....lol...Which means!!!!!!-----It is near time!!!!!!!Yipeeeeeee!!!!



But today...i suffered from a very bad lower left back ache....i guess due to my sleeping position...argh. poor me poor me...so painful when i walk and i have to counterpress the pain away. argh!!!


Oh yeah and baby is looking up. He is not in occipital -anterior position cus his head is looking up...oh child of mine.. are you looking at mummy's guts? :P

One more thing...i am so elated that dear dear is coming home for the weekend. i Miss him soooooooo much!!!!!;D and he finally chose a name. * clap * * pat pat* well done husband!

I realise that my bebe gets hiccups wihenever i change my position drastically like when i am sitting down , to lying down...another interesting thing is that if i sit upright, slightly slanted leaning to the back , he tends to stretch in the tummy and squirm around.Then you can see an arm or limb moving across the stomach.:) HEHEHE....



SIGH. I AM 36 WEEKS BY MIDNIGHT TONIGHT...:) CANT WAIT...STILL HAVE 4 MORE IF WANNA CARRY TO 40 WEEKS, I WAS THINKING, HOPEFULLY BY 38 WEEKS. HAHHAAH, AS LONG AS BEBE REACHES 3 KG:p GANBATTE NE ZHAI ZHAI...700 MORE GRAMS!

Tried to put a video of Paris crying after leaving the lawyer....dun call me morbid, but it is just refreshing to see her doing that after countless numbers of "uncalled for" acts that she did.If the link doesnt work, just go to www.thesuperficial.com...

It wasnt such a happy Saturday afterall.....

Anyway....seriously i dunno what is the association between tai-tais and mahjong. Do you mean all tai-tais have to play mj? Or you mean they have nothing else to do but play mj? That is where you are so bloody wrong.... these ladies have so much more meaningful activities to do rather than gamble...

And if i am ever gonna be a tai-tai , which i wun anyway, ( how does a SAHM gets to there anyway....lol) I definitely wun be doing the mj thing. I cant stand women who gamble. You might come to the defense of mj saying that it prevents alzhiemer's disease....but ya right, why dont you do a whole book SUDOKU instead .Doesnt that need brain cells too? I cant stand women who gamble---recreational or not. Dont give me the bull. In fact i cant stand people who gamble----why are you so stupid as to indulge in such no guaranteed stuff and throw your money away. Break families up cause of that, gamble away your rent, your milk money for the child....and the reason you give.---I am buying a chance , i am buying a chance( TO LOSE TOO--MIND YOU)

N the very reason why i am so pissed is because some people asked him to go to MACAU yesterday....mind you these people are the lawyers/ bankers.. who just wanted to have some fun.And.....i cant speak on their behalf...but i do hope they are the kind that if they lose, they will think twice about gambling... BUT NOT MY DEAR! HE IS NOT THE KIND TO DO SO . AND HE HAS A FAMILY NOW!!!So my point is that if they wanna fucking go Macau , just go and leave him alone. Dont create any opportunities for him to go to fucking Macau. IDIOTS....and you know what? It makes it seem like I am the bad guy for being so reluctant to let him go , but of course you people wun know HOW ADDICTIVE IT CAN BE. I am only being rational enough to stop him. Ggggggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrr. and the worse part was the girlfriends were going there to gamble too.* fainted* like i said i cant stand gers who gamble. Really. UNLESS YOU ARE FILTHY RICH LIKE PARIS HILTON, SO YOU CAN INDULGE IN A BIT OF DIRT. IF NOT....THERE ARE CERTAINLY MORE MEANINGFUL STUFF TO DO.!

Been trying to find this for a while---- Taken from movie" Yesterday once more"

OBSESSED...........

Anyway talked to dear for 1 hour and 13 minutes this morning , had bean curd and kueh and later Lana cake with milk.....What a happy Saturday...;D

RIDICULOUS , ABSURD AND INHUMANE....

Had a growth scan yesterday....my heart pain ah...Baby 's growth was in the 3rd percentile... hiya...:( He should be heavier. Did i eat not enough? Anything i can do? Actually 3rd percentile is perfectly ok , i am just kiasu i guess. Cant help wat , i am a mom......!!!!!

N his head circumference is 305 mm, his stomy is 292mm. Heheh.. I am boring you with all these details huh... and His weight is 2.32kg @ 35 weeks...hmmm....baby is in OP position... * comments stolen from the document written by e poerson who scanned me* ..OP position means the baby is head down.... exact comments were" Head in OP postition , deep in maternal pelvis" hmmmmm hope Mr Zhai turns to Occipito-anterior position and faces me...Then birth will be so much easier...

I really have cantonese withdrawal now...hiyah... :(

SOOOOOOO IRRITATING..... NO WIN NO LOSE.
What moral victory? ....My foot.

Stay-at-home mom’s work worth $138,095 (USD)
Annual amount she’d earn as a housekeeper, cook and psychologist.
Check this out man.....

One more thing......great just great.....

I typed TYAN on search on Friendster and the results are 90 % female....
@#$%^&*()......


How lao gong?Can you get your ass moving in searching for a name for zhai zhai?

MAMA GONNA EXERCISE.....I WOKE UP WITH A SORE LOWER LEFT BACK AND SNUG LITTLE BOY SLEEPING INSIDE ME.....MIND YOU , HE IS SUPPOSED TO WEIGH 2.5 KG NOW...

OLD MEMORIES.....

I think i found myself lifesavers....

1) For Movies

2) For Hawker food ....when i am confined @ home with just the maid.


and i just found out about www.shopbop.com and www.anthropologie.com from Female mag.

Thank God.....

The moment seems to freeze
I look down at him
Suddenly i felt overwhelmed
Lonely, sad, wistful
Wishing dear was here
Something searing
Not in my throat
He moves across
Cant be seen
Can be imagined
Couple of peals being released
Wipe them away
A wry smile
Much better.
Much better.........

A NEW CHAPTER



Oh no!!!!!. What have i gotten myself into?:P

hehhe...i dunno.. i dont really know how to describe how i feel for giving up work for at least a year. yes...a year and no more. zhai zhai must be tough, mama only gives him one year, will teach him to understand...:( dun want those seperation anxieties...good gracious.It is much better earning your own money than getting money from your hubby, call me crazy, but it is a pity i give up work if i am so young rite?

AND....it is not just looking after zhai zhai.
it is
1) looking after a vulnerable being in a foreign country
2) no financial independence
3) cant shop without guilt
4) have to learn to cook more nutritious food for yourself so can breastfeed.thank god, zhai zhai can live on milk till 6 or 7 months.
5) no interaction w colleagues...though i already enlisted myself in the singapore mama expat circle. haha.


My topics of conversation will be like: err where can i buy pandan leaves, or like now, where to buy gnor hee or ma yau fish in hk, how come hk does not have ikan billis stock?.....Not that i am hating my life, but it just dawned upon me....i have opened a new chapter in my life....
No more zouk, no more velvet,cause dear dun even go there anyway,
No more suitors cause i hardly go out( i must stress----not that i want & dun get me wrong ok--but it just reiterates tt you are out of the league :P--gives you a pang of envy when you see those sweet young thing and think back---oh , i used to be better than her. HEHE lol)


Anyway, this is another milestone after my current one---which is to deliver zhai zhai safe and sound.:)and i really am glad i married the right man. My dear---though he does steps on my toes sometimes, he is one that i can really rely on.One that never fails to comfort me if i am really down, unconditionally.One that i wanna grow with....

Thank God for all these and how you make me strong and how you teach me to learn.

Some Jokes.......

Q: What is the similarity between men and rats?>
A: Both keep searching for new holes.



Q: What is the closest thing similar to a woman's period?>

A: Your salary, it comes once a month lasts about 5- days and if it doesn't>come, it means you are in big trouble.



Q: What's the difference between biology and sociology?>

A: When the baby looks like his dad or mom, then it is biology. When the>baby looks like the neighbor, then it is sociology.




Q: Doctor: You look so weak & exhausted. Are you having 3 meals a day as I>have advised?>

A: Lady: Doctor, I thought you said 3 males a day.>>




Q: Girl friend & boy friend go for a movie. In the dark, a mosquito enters>the girl's skirt. Guess where it would have bitten?>

A: The boy friend's hand.>>


Q: Tarzan and the animals went to the river to take a bath. Tarzan removed>his clothes.All the animals laughed. Tarzan asked "Why"?>

A: The animals told him. Your tail is in front".>>



I like the mosquito one best... ahaha . Raging hormones of teenagers. lol.

Anyway....weather is really terrible in Singapore, does not help that my room is not air conditioned....always have hot flushes @ night.:( And you know how i always have to sleep on my left, zhai zhai always. slumps onto the left too when i am lying on my left. I feel so bad for waking him up everytime i fidget...Mind you , he does wriggle and squirm in my stomy when i turn to lying on my back or right...

Next week!---35 weeks!

Today---This afternoon when i was sleeping, i felt as if my guts was being pushed out of my mouth...--twice.. i looked down @ my stomy..@ him and realised he is scrunched up and doing his backside pose again ( yeah i label all his positions) that means he is shoving mama's organs up. I quickly stroked his butt ( could be his head for all i know ) and then the little heap in my stomy went down again. hehe. what fun you having huh...

Blogger is kinda screwed up this evening....just hope that after typing this , i can post it up...:) Anyway. i survived Sat! i mean....i still have weeks to go.. but i guess i am getting accustomed to life here.---Life of idling...Yeah most of you will say , why not take up a hobby ? But i cant! cause all my energy is focused on D DAY!!! it is just so hard. i used to be so different. Worse still , i left my language books @ my in- laws...maybe on mon i will go and get it.




My favourite past time is updatin my lists....my hospital bag to brings, my birth plan, ques to ask doc, tgs to get for zhai zhai,tgs to do after birth, things to buy before returnin to hk , tgs for zhai zhai, tgs for me after birth, financial reviews....I AM A LIST ADDICT!!!!I will write them out all nicely, update them , think they look ugly fugly, then rewrite them over again. CRAZY.

Today is quite a good day considering that i finally get to see the sun..:D. Rainy days always get me down. ....:(



Have almost settled with zhai zhai's clothes...:) we have gotten cute little booties, mittens, body suits , wrap arounds , in blue, light yellow and white....these are the 3 primary colors found for baby boy's clothings....( how boring hor?) but anyway.:) i just love staring at those booties and putting them on my tummy to imagine.( aint i crazy) :P
Have also made my own notes on labour and contractions...---Dos and donts.. i think i will be the most sane person if anything occurs. my bro will be a blur8/** and my mom a kan cheong spider...Even taught them how to call for a cab and stress that i am in labour and to go by which route...:) haha.

Anyway...to summarise:)--there are 2 different types of contractions.( you may skip this if you aint preggie)




Fake: 1) Contractions are not regular
2) It is important to time your contractions to check if they are regular.
3) The pain goes away if you change your position, walk , lie down.....

Real thing:

1) Contractions are fast and furious---in the back , in your uterus, blah blah.
2) Regular---and at least every 5 minutes.
3) You have a show.---your mucous plug is out..
4) Blood... check if there is meconium..--if it is --fetal is in distress( cord ard the neck)
5) Water bag burst...and make sure you note down what time.( water dun burst literally---but can just trickle down) hahha my antenatal class teacher said the fluid smells like semen...( who the hell smells semen--and i dun think you wanna lick your own amniotic fluid?)
6) U feel like having a diarrhoea.
7) Nauseous....



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So there...... recently there's this lady who delivered in the cab...apparently this is not the only one...there is also this....anyway. let's all pray everything will be fine alright? Sometimes i just dun feel safe cause my hubby aint here with me, and my mom and bro are blur *** :(

sleep sleeep sleeeeeeeeeeeeeep it off. hiyah. i have been sleeping like nobody's business and i dun like it! i sleep cause i cannot move ard much. i am not suppose to go out without a chaperone, and i cannot walk too much. well. cause my feet and ankles were swelling the past days when wada was here cause we went ard, but on wed when i stayed put at home the swelling din occur at all. sigh.----culprit was too much walking.hiyoh. how not to walk? i am so active one you know. and whole day ask me stay at home face my mom, i can go crazy.



cant wait. cant wait. i am like staring at the calendar too. cancelling off the dates meticulously, spreading out my chores so at least i have stg to do each day, otherwise sooooooooooo goddamn boring.:( sob sob. cant stand my mom--she is so money minded. everytime i need her to buy stg, she will be like money this and money that. give her 1 k still not enough hor. need how much? 10 k? think i need to give birth to some money too....



my highlight of my day is i am going to kk to see the gynae and bombard him w questions and hopefully get to see zhai zhai inside. poor bebe. today when the bamboo dropped onto the floor with a loud thud, i felt a jerk in my tummy...poor zhai. i am not overreacting. babies now can hear rather acutely ya know. the other times when my students accidentally knocked their chairs over, this little fellow also jerked...hmmm. so this mama started singing to him and stroking her belly. hope it helps..


oh man. RAIN ,...PLS STOP YA? si vou plair?

hiyah so irritating. woke up this morning to see CSM drop to 1.40 .... back to square one. should have sold earlier...what ya mean by it can go to 1.6?? hiyoh...patience rite?

anyway.......zhai zhai seems a bit smaller this morning. he is already 34 weeks:) according to baby centre. his lungs are well developed already.so he stands a good chance of survival if he were to be borned now...also came across stg regarding how to avoid episiotomy......ugh. and you are suppose to massage your vagina!!!not out side. but .....okie. shall not fill the details in . if you wanna read more click here... and mind you with vit e.......cant you do it with ky jelly or stg ??? hahahaha...i know vit e is good for skin. but to THERE!!!?????

OKIE.....THIS IS SO RIDICULOUS...michelle yeoh!!!!!?????and . i look like ann kwok and zoe tay....WHEN I AM NOT PREGNANT!!!!!!????

anyway...brings me back to the past..i remember this senior in st nicks who likes me( yes a ger!) bought me louise nurding cd cus she said i looked like her....now. that is more like it mah... then there is the other one call trish goff cause we both have small mouths. hahah. but i almost died when someone said celine dion .

Okie...it is 7.30 am in the morning and i cant sleep. I hate to say this but i think the chinese medcine given by the silly doctor zhang works....i have only taken the first packet....let's see the results at the end of today....anyway... it is normal for preggies to recover from cold and flu a longer time later....

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back to being preggie.. i was thinking...i am really grateful zhai zhai din make me. 1) nauseous or puke out anytg at all during the first trimester.2) he din give me varicose veins...or rather my body accommodated him very well. 3) no ghastly amt of weight put on. 4) no nose bleedings 5) no stretch marks ( and i do pray that this continue....really) It has been a rather easy pregnancy....only that i am tired during the 1st tri and now... and i do suffer from swollen feet now... i suspect it is in adequate flow of blood cos everytime i elevate it, it becomes better..but nonetheless, i will try see the gynae earlier...for fear it is pre eclampsia or diabetes...

hiaks...and you know what? i am leaking!...so horrible. my precious colostrum... it has been 2 nites liao.. but luckily i read that the body continues to make the colostrum for the baby...and i also found out something veyr interesting.. you know why the baby often spits out after eating? that is due to the size of the baby's stomach.. he cant stomach excess milk.. the figure shows how big the stomy is in fact.!